Just playing with cards..
Amateur tarot crap
Celtic cross spread, 8.27.09. - Major Arcana only - Animals Divine deck
Question: How can I better myself in regards to the mom situation -- What can I do?
1) The Star
2) The Devil (alternatively called "Challenge" in my particular deck)
3) The Fool
4) The Tower
5) The Sun
6) The Moon
7) The Lovers
8) The Empress
9) The Magician
10) The Hanged Man
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I immediately was drawn to the Tower card.. the card of my past, a past which had seemed to take the floor out from beneath me and shatter any stability in life I had when my mother died. The sudden and dramatic change that incurred upon her becoming sick with cancer. The card is a fairly obvious one for my situation with Mom and really represents how everything felt.
The heart of the matter is The Star, signifying a desire for hope and to regain motivation in my life, however the challenged presented to me through The Devil are that of my current hopelessness and anger towards the situation and what has come from it (father dating another woman), feeling trapped by my own negative emotions that I feel like I can't pull through sometimes.
The Fool represents a new beginning, standing as the lone coyote in Position 3, wanting me to find deeper meaning beyond just the loss -- it is a new journey in my life though I feel immature and oblivious to everything around me at times. It's kind of scary going into an unknown path, reinforced by The Moon in Position 6 -- the future, approaching influence. Going into the unknown and feeling lost is terrible and frightening, but the feeling of happiness,enlightenment, and assurance are my goal and conscious influence of The Sun.
Right now I see myself in The Lovers card, embracing the relationship I had with her and while feeling the anxiety of separation from her, I do still feel the warmth of love in my heart for her and for those close to me, but also I have experienced some struggles with my own morality. The Empress card which is in position 8 strongly exudes of motherhood and motherliness and enforces the pleasures of The Lovers, perhaps showing how in my outside environment I try to cling to any sense of "mother" I can, really looking up to older women for guidance and help.
This is the second time that The Magician has turned up as my guidance card for something, pushing for me to raise my awareness and discover my inner potential and having the willpower to do so. I need to consciously take action if I am to attain the hope and motivation I desire. And lastly, The Hanged Man summarizes the outcome of rebirth and transition, at the cost of self-sacrifice, but to never lose sight of the path before me, else I should become lost in the alternative outcome of The Moon. So if taking a step back to re-examine myself in order to find my new path in life is what I have to do, then so be it.
***Disclaimer -- This stuff is merely a casual interest of mine and is not something I take 100% seriously, but I do find comfort in the readings at times as a way to reflect upon myself and my actions. If you read this and are more versed in tarot or have any insights of your own, please feel free to share***
Celtic cross spread, 8.27.09. - Major Arcana only - Animals Divine deck
Question: How can I better myself in regards to the mom situation -- What can I do?
1) The Star
2) The Devil (alternatively called "Challenge" in my particular deck)
3) The Fool
4) The Tower
5) The Sun
6) The Moon
7) The Lovers
8) The Empress
9) The Magician
10) The Hanged Man
******
I immediately was drawn to the Tower card.. the card of my past, a past which had seemed to take the floor out from beneath me and shatter any stability in life I had when my mother died. The sudden and dramatic change that incurred upon her becoming sick with cancer. The card is a fairly obvious one for my situation with Mom and really represents how everything felt.
The heart of the matter is The Star, signifying a desire for hope and to regain motivation in my life, however the challenged presented to me through The Devil are that of my current hopelessness and anger towards the situation and what has come from it (father dating another woman), feeling trapped by my own negative emotions that I feel like I can't pull through sometimes.
The Fool represents a new beginning, standing as the lone coyote in Position 3, wanting me to find deeper meaning beyond just the loss -- it is a new journey in my life though I feel immature and oblivious to everything around me at times. It's kind of scary going into an unknown path, reinforced by The Moon in Position 6 -- the future, approaching influence. Going into the unknown and feeling lost is terrible and frightening, but the feeling of happiness,enlightenment, and assurance are my goal and conscious influence of The Sun.
Right now I see myself in The Lovers card, embracing the relationship I had with her and while feeling the anxiety of separation from her, I do still feel the warmth of love in my heart for her and for those close to me, but also I have experienced some struggles with my own morality. The Empress card which is in position 8 strongly exudes of motherhood and motherliness and enforces the pleasures of The Lovers, perhaps showing how in my outside environment I try to cling to any sense of "mother" I can, really looking up to older women for guidance and help.
This is the second time that The Magician has turned up as my guidance card for something, pushing for me to raise my awareness and discover my inner potential and having the willpower to do so. I need to consciously take action if I am to attain the hope and motivation I desire. And lastly, The Hanged Man summarizes the outcome of rebirth and transition, at the cost of self-sacrifice, but to never lose sight of the path before me, else I should become lost in the alternative outcome of The Moon. So if taking a step back to re-examine myself in order to find my new path in life is what I have to do, then so be it.
***Disclaimer -- This stuff is merely a casual interest of mine and is not something I take 100% seriously, but I do find comfort in the readings at times as a way to reflect upon myself and my actions. If you read this and are more versed in tarot or have any insights of your own, please feel free to share***