once again, sleep escapes me. i think i took one too many Concertas a little too late in the day. i was still pretty fucked up from the valium Jordi gave me last night, so i figured i could use a pick-me-up. it worked. my brain was actually functionaling semi normal. i was still kind of hazy-minded, yet i was(still am) very awake. the whole ( Read more... )

today has been a little... different. well, not really. i mean i just sat around and basically did nothing all day, but in a different manner, i suppose.
anywho... so i went to the health department today. they took my blood... it was great. i'm one of those freaks that likes that shit,(i just realized how many times i've done the three dot ( Read more... )

yep... i'm in connecticut. it's pretty nice when there's people around, but for the most part when i'm here it fucking sucks. i wish i had someone to hang out with. when justin is here there's nothing to do. i came here to hang out with him and to have a good time. i just feel like i shouldn't be here. like i'm just a waste of space. but ( Read more... )

So, yeah... I'm really bored with not having a job. Mainly because I need money to do a lot of shit, and I have to save the money that I do have to cover my bills and for just in case stuffs. I'm going to go out and get a bunch of applications tomorrow. I have to get a job somewhere that I'm making okay money. I want to move out of this place ( Read more... )

wells... i'm finally out of that shit hole apartment. i still should go take pictures to cover my ass from those crackhead motherfuckers ( Read more... )

Moving sucks. Ecspecially when you have to do major fucking repairs on damages that you didn't even cause. And to top it all off - I'm paying for it. Bullshit. That fucker, Blake, is having his dad send me some of the money that he owes me... supposedly. I was supposed to get a package either Friday or Saturday with the check along with some ( Read more... )

okay... so i haven't written in here for... uh... a real long ass time. i guess since i'm changing my life around, i should keep track of it somewhere. moving sucks ass. especially for procrastinators like me. i have until friday to get the fuck out of here and have this place in good condition. plus there's tons of other stuff i need to do, ( Read more... )

My dad got me a old ass washer and dryer for Christmas and it's already fucking up. yay. I have nothing planned for New Years, so that probabaly means another celebration with the family(whee ( Read more... )

I just got home from my mom's house. Blake went with Travis somewhere to get something around four-thirty this afternoon, and I went with my mom to get the rest of the parts for my car shortly after he left. He's still not home, and I'm lonely as fuck. I get really paranoid when I'm alone. Blake's been talking about leaving me lately, so I ( Read more... )