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1) Leave it to the LP, to remind me of one of the reasons I ended up hooked on Dangan Ronpa
[However, nii-san is quite an odd person]
[Is that so?]
[Indeed. To be able to leave the house at a time like this. As a person who is a member of the Kaneko household, are you intending to frequent the black market?]
At a time close to spring, after a while had passed of postwar. Mitsunobu laughed while placing his clothes in a briefcase.
The war ending, the nowadays when the new laws are gradually put into place. Though I had no idea how long this estate would last, however, even escaping air-raids, it's still fit to eke out a living.
Leaving the house at this time is certain to be eccentric.
After calculating if I could sell this in the worst scenario, I stuff my overcoat for winter in the briefcase.
[Even so, I'm still somewhat sensible aren't I? At a place where many would live in the barracks, I even got a house]
Teruaki, leaning against the door to Mitsunobu's bedroom, was still looking exasperated while keeping his hands crossed.
[...That miserable shack?]
[I am quite fond of it, though?]
When I found out that Norizane's house, escaping air-raids, was offered for sale was a few days ago. Buying it, I decided to reside there.
The public magazine that was reorganized during the war too, showed signs of slowly coming back to life. As long as I'd write something that was acknowledged by Mayumi who returned as an editor, 'he'd be ok with publishing it'.
Which reminds me, he still hasn't thanked me for helping him but since I made him work hard for the part, I guess I can make it even.
Thanks to Azusa also returning safely somehow, Mayumi's mood lately has been pretty good so he may let my manuscript pass surprisingly quickly. ...At least, I wish that was the case.
[Yes, I guess this is ok]
Finishing gathering some of the tools, clothes he favoured and only the books he treasured, Mitsunobu stands up.
Teruaki changed his face expression.
[Father, will have me by his side so...]
[Yeah, since he seems completely exhausted. Do look after him properly. ...I'm counting on you]
[You look cheerful. Sometimes, I, find nii-san to be utterly detestable]
Teruaki is showing a wry smile.
Though it's not that being told that wouldn't feel awkward, the one who said to do as I like was father.
---Nagasaki and Hiroshima, the air-raids at various places just before the cessation of hostilities. If he thought of the people that died overseas, even Mitsunobu was tortured by the feeling of helplessness.
However even so, that time was that time, I did everything I could come up with using my head.
Even if the circumstances are far from the country settling down, gradually I couldn't stay still anymore.
The chaotic society, mixed with lethargy and hope. The hammer-sounds of reconstruction and grieval towards the ones who passed away--Inside that, the many writers who lost the order of silence started to act.--I too, have come to gradually desire to join that table. No, if posibbl,e I'd like to promote to leading its vanguard.
I wish to face the paper and let my pen run wild, even right now. In a more free place without constraints. Which is why I decided to leave the house.
After Teruaki had silently gazed at Mitsunobu for a short moment, he spoke up in a quiet voice.
[...In the end, I, hold attachment to this house. I can't become like nii-san]
It was the first time, I heard my little brother say something like this.
[Though it's a great help to me, that you're that kind of man]
[...You really are an irritating person, nii-san]
As I'd speak in a light manner, Teruaki once again let's out a wry smile.
--Thinking about it, rarely have I spoken with this little brother of mine while exposing what we truly think on both sides. I also feel that at some deep corner, there was always some distance kept.
Mitsunobu, lightly hit Teruaki's back.
[Come visit from time to time.It may as you say be a miserable shack, but I can at least serve some tea]
After being done with greeting mother and father, I went to also inform Hikaruko that I was about to leave.
She, without any pretense, reponded with a bright ''I'll come visit next time'' on her own.
Even when it comes to the wounds in her heart she displayed right after her husbands death, she won't let out a sign of it now. The ones most strongest in this house, may be the female-side that included mother, is what I think when I look at Hikaruko.
--And so...
Although I said I don't need to be sent off as I left the house, there was nothing I could do if I was anticipated by the gates. 'Geez, he really doesn't let pass an oversight', I smile wryly
[Tokieda]
Tokieda silently lowered his head.
[I really, am much indebted to you]
During the war, after it too. The one to tell me that Norizane's house was put up for sale before others, was also this man.
During the time Mitsunobu was still young, and his body was weak. He assisted him since the time the still young (in many ways) father and his relatives at the time, would find faults by Mitsunobu as an heir.
[Though you probably had expectations...I'm sorry, that I can't reward them]
Tokieda shook his head at Mitsunobu, who had spoken meekly.
[Even if it's presumtious of me, I had thought of Mitsunobu-sama as my own little brother so...]
[...I see]
Being told that, it's quite embarassing. Tokieda displays his rarely seen smile.
[Today is the last day, you can act like a noble bocchan y'know? Though I do think there will be hardships, do you best]
[Hey Tokieda. Just how old, do you think I am?]
I laughed without thinking.
--It's at a time like this, when leaving the house, I get to know just how many people had supported me in my life. I realize how much did I love the people here, and how much they had loved me.
The several months after that, generally speaking was filled with endless writing.
After many books that had been rejected, the novel that was finally published is reasonably popular.
...though saying that, currently it's the age where people accept anything as long as it's entertainment. The issue is if I survive after this or not and, although I have talked as if I'm an experienced writer, thruthfully I'm honestly happy.
Concering Mizukawa Hougetsu who had left for Great Britain too, there are rumors of him contributing a new work in some magazine, I think that even if just little by little, peace may be returning.
When it comes to the household, it does seem there was trouble some time ago about blocking bank accounts because of agrarian reform or some such but, what is lost is lost as it seems momentum is something that spreads. It seems Terunobu, who had been exausted for a while, has lately started to work on rebuilding more vigorously than before.
Teruaki and Hikaruko, suddenly show their face from time to time.
Hikaruko would appear with a supply of provisions, and there have also been times she's stayed the night when asked about what she'd do. I was told that nearby lives a friend of hers from the all-girl school times, so this house was convenient or somesuch.
Opposite of that, the one to always find something to complain about as he'd appear would be Teruaki. However that he'd properly appear 1-2 times per month in contrast to that was also amusing.
Today being today, he'd appear even though it was close to deadline, he was acting bored inside the narrow house.
[...I do think it everytime, but-]
[What?]
[Why, can't you write more after setting up someking of schedule or something? I do think the nii-san during the time he was helping father, was a bit more of a planner]
[That is mostly what people who don't write say, however it's not something that easy to divide y'know? This kind of thing]
After I'd scratch my face while holding a cigarette in my mouth, Teruaki's grimace would increase as he fell silent.
A period of time would pass like that, inside of the room only the sound of a pen and Teruaki turning the pages of a book.would cut a mismatched rhythm. Sun setting, Teruaki turned on the light.
[...Teruaki]
[What is it, nii-san]
[What, is the time right now?]
[...6:38, and?]
[...Please turn on the radio]
Mitsunobu says without even looking at Teruaki. There was the presence of Teruaki standing up, shortly after the familiar singing of a woman was heard. Following that,
「It's time for demobilisation recourse. The people landing today at Hakatakou are--」
[...I see, so it's about that]
[Keep quiet]
Sullen at Teruaki's exasperated voice, I answered.
Though saying 'without failt' would be going too far, I can't settle down if I don't listen to it in the end.
When buying this house, I did contact Norizane's family and reported to them that I'd be glad to surrender it when he returned.
From Norizaneš mother, along with a polite expression of gratitude, I also received the response that since I'm the one who purchased it I should do as I like without minding him even in the case of Norizane having returned.
Aside that, instead it seemed to be quite a surprise to Norizane's family that, be it a person that attended the funeral who called himself a friend, a complete stranger was waiting for him.
Waiting...---is he really...?
Mitsunobu himself, doesn't really know. The fact that the other had died, he doesn't believe even now. However, it's also not the same as before when he was running away by thinking like that.
Just, doing what he wishes to do, he humorously lives out his days like this.
It's not that I'd just passively yearn for Norizane, in my own way I live my life to the fullest. I also think that his words that told me to live freely, are slowly becoming my own being.
To a lifestyle like that, the words ''I'm waiting', feel somehow mismatched.
No, if I was to express this situation into words it may become the single 'I'm waiting' but, is it ok to say that when it also feels like there is stuff that wouldn't be conveyed with just that?
As a novice writer, I do try finding the words that'd express it however, unable to find them it feels frustrating.
And, once again at a time after again several months had passed. There was a single call in the Kaneko house.
The one to receive the call, was a maid who just by chance was near the telephone booth. Since her reply didn't seem to the point, Hikaruko who passed by would demand for it and took the receiver with a smile.
A short moment later, Hikaruko blinks. Putting a hand to her mouth, she shook her head.
[Oh my...Oh my!]
She would nod countless times. And looking happy, she'd squint her eyes.
[Right now, brother isn't in this house. Living alone, he...yes, I'll give you the adress and number immediately]
TBC - Grand finale
Otherwise - It's almost silly how easily I'm plowing through Crimson Empire. It's like...I can 1 character is just a day.
[However, nii-san is quite an odd person]
[Is that so?]
[Indeed. To be able to leave the house at a time like this. As a person who is a member of the Kaneko household, are you intending to frequent the black market?]
At a time close to spring, after a while had passed of postwar. Mitsunobu laughed while placing his clothes in a briefcase.
The war ending, the nowadays when the new laws are gradually put into place. Though I had no idea how long this estate would last, however, even escaping air-raids, it's still fit to eke out a living.
Leaving the house at this time is certain to be eccentric.
After calculating if I could sell this in the worst scenario, I stuff my overcoat for winter in the briefcase.
[Even so, I'm still somewhat sensible aren't I? At a place where many would live in the barracks, I even got a house]
Teruaki, leaning against the door to Mitsunobu's bedroom, was still looking exasperated while keeping his hands crossed.
[...That miserable shack?]
[I am quite fond of it, though?]
When I found out that Norizane's house, escaping air-raids, was offered for sale was a few days ago. Buying it, I decided to reside there.
The public magazine that was reorganized during the war too, showed signs of slowly coming back to life. As long as I'd write something that was acknowledged by Mayumi who returned as an editor, 'he'd be ok with publishing it'.
Which reminds me, he still hasn't thanked me for helping him but since I made him work hard for the part, I guess I can make it even.
Thanks to Azusa also returning safely somehow, Mayumi's mood lately has been pretty good so he may let my manuscript pass surprisingly quickly. ...At least, I wish that was the case.
[Yes, I guess this is ok]
Finishing gathering some of the tools, clothes he favoured and only the books he treasured, Mitsunobu stands up.
Teruaki changed his face expression.
[Father, will have me by his side so...]
[Yeah, since he seems completely exhausted. Do look after him properly. ...I'm counting on you]
[You look cheerful. Sometimes, I, find nii-san to be utterly detestable]
Teruaki is showing a wry smile.
Though it's not that being told that wouldn't feel awkward, the one who said to do as I like was father.
---Nagasaki and Hiroshima, the air-raids at various places just before the cessation of hostilities. If he thought of the people that died overseas, even Mitsunobu was tortured by the feeling of helplessness.
However even so, that time was that time, I did everything I could come up with using my head.
Even if the circumstances are far from the country settling down, gradually I couldn't stay still anymore.
The chaotic society, mixed with lethargy and hope. The hammer-sounds of reconstruction and grieval towards the ones who passed away--Inside that, the many writers who lost the order of silence started to act.--I too, have come to gradually desire to join that table. No, if posibbl,e I'd like to promote to leading its vanguard.
I wish to face the paper and let my pen run wild, even right now. In a more free place without constraints. Which is why I decided to leave the house.
After Teruaki had silently gazed at Mitsunobu for a short moment, he spoke up in a quiet voice.
[...In the end, I, hold attachment to this house. I can't become like nii-san]
It was the first time, I heard my little brother say something like this.
[Though it's a great help to me, that you're that kind of man]
[...You really are an irritating person, nii-san]
As I'd speak in a light manner, Teruaki once again let's out a wry smile.
--Thinking about it, rarely have I spoken with this little brother of mine while exposing what we truly think on both sides. I also feel that at some deep corner, there was always some distance kept.
Mitsunobu, lightly hit Teruaki's back.
[Come visit from time to time.It may as you say be a miserable shack, but I can at least serve some tea]
After being done with greeting mother and father, I went to also inform Hikaruko that I was about to leave.
She, without any pretense, reponded with a bright ''I'll come visit next time'' on her own.
Even when it comes to the wounds in her heart she displayed right after her husbands death, she won't let out a sign of it now. The ones most strongest in this house, may be the female-side that included mother, is what I think when I look at Hikaruko.
--And so...
Although I said I don't need to be sent off as I left the house, there was nothing I could do if I was anticipated by the gates. 'Geez, he really doesn't let pass an oversight', I smile wryly
[Tokieda]
Tokieda silently lowered his head.
[I really, am much indebted to you]
During the war, after it too. The one to tell me that Norizane's house was put up for sale before others, was also this man.
During the time Mitsunobu was still young, and his body was weak. He assisted him since the time the still young (in many ways) father and his relatives at the time, would find faults by Mitsunobu as an heir.
[Though you probably had expectations...I'm sorry, that I can't reward them]
Tokieda shook his head at Mitsunobu, who had spoken meekly.
[Even if it's presumtious of me, I had thought of Mitsunobu-sama as my own little brother so...]
[...I see]
Being told that, it's quite embarassing. Tokieda displays his rarely seen smile.
[Today is the last day, you can act like a noble bocchan y'know? Though I do think there will be hardships, do you best]
[Hey Tokieda. Just how old, do you think I am?]
I laughed without thinking.
--It's at a time like this, when leaving the house, I get to know just how many people had supported me in my life. I realize how much did I love the people here, and how much they had loved me.
The several months after that, generally speaking was filled with endless writing.
After many books that had been rejected, the novel that was finally published is reasonably popular.
...though saying that, currently it's the age where people accept anything as long as it's entertainment. The issue is if I survive after this or not and, although I have talked as if I'm an experienced writer, thruthfully I'm honestly happy.
Concering Mizukawa Hougetsu who had left for Great Britain too, there are rumors of him contributing a new work in some magazine, I think that even if just little by little, peace may be returning.
When it comes to the household, it does seem there was trouble some time ago about blocking bank accounts because of agrarian reform or some such but, what is lost is lost as it seems momentum is something that spreads. It seems Terunobu, who had been exausted for a while, has lately started to work on rebuilding more vigorously than before.
Teruaki and Hikaruko, suddenly show their face from time to time.
Hikaruko would appear with a supply of provisions, and there have also been times she's stayed the night when asked about what she'd do. I was told that nearby lives a friend of hers from the all-girl school times, so this house was convenient or somesuch.
Opposite of that, the one to always find something to complain about as he'd appear would be Teruaki. However that he'd properly appear 1-2 times per month in contrast to that was also amusing.
Today being today, he'd appear even though it was close to deadline, he was acting bored inside the narrow house.
[...I do think it everytime, but-]
[What?]
[Why, can't you write more after setting up someking of schedule or something? I do think the nii-san during the time he was helping father, was a bit more of a planner]
[That is mostly what people who don't write say, however it's not something that easy to divide y'know? This kind of thing]
After I'd scratch my face while holding a cigarette in my mouth, Teruaki's grimace would increase as he fell silent.
A period of time would pass like that, inside of the room only the sound of a pen and Teruaki turning the pages of a book.would cut a mismatched rhythm. Sun setting, Teruaki turned on the light.
[...Teruaki]
[What is it, nii-san]
[What, is the time right now?]
[...6:38, and?]
[...Please turn on the radio]
Mitsunobu says without even looking at Teruaki. There was the presence of Teruaki standing up, shortly after the familiar singing of a woman was heard. Following that,
「It's time for demobilisation recourse. The people landing today at Hakatakou are--」
[...I see, so it's about that]
[Keep quiet]
Sullen at Teruaki's exasperated voice, I answered.
Though saying 'without failt' would be going too far, I can't settle down if I don't listen to it in the end.
When buying this house, I did contact Norizane's family and reported to them that I'd be glad to surrender it when he returned.
From Norizaneš mother, along with a polite expression of gratitude, I also received the response that since I'm the one who purchased it I should do as I like without minding him even in the case of Norizane having returned.
Aside that, instead it seemed to be quite a surprise to Norizane's family that, be it a person that attended the funeral who called himself a friend, a complete stranger was waiting for him.
Waiting...---is he really...?
Mitsunobu himself, doesn't really know. The fact that the other had died, he doesn't believe even now. However, it's also not the same as before when he was running away by thinking like that.
Just, doing what he wishes to do, he humorously lives out his days like this.
It's not that I'd just passively yearn for Norizane, in my own way I live my life to the fullest. I also think that his words that told me to live freely, are slowly becoming my own being.
To a lifestyle like that, the words ''I'm waiting', feel somehow mismatched.
No, if I was to express this situation into words it may become the single 'I'm waiting' but, is it ok to say that when it also feels like there is stuff that wouldn't be conveyed with just that?
As a novice writer, I do try finding the words that'd express it however, unable to find them it feels frustrating.
And, once again at a time after again several months had passed. There was a single call in the Kaneko house.
The one to receive the call, was a maid who just by chance was near the telephone booth. Since her reply didn't seem to the point, Hikaruko who passed by would demand for it and took the receiver with a smile.
A short moment later, Hikaruko blinks. Putting a hand to her mouth, she shook her head.
[Oh my...Oh my!]
She would nod countless times. And looking happy, she'd squint her eyes.
[Right now, brother isn't in this house. Living alone, he...yes, I'll give you the adress and number immediately]
TBC - Grand finale
Otherwise - It's almost silly how easily I'm plowing through Crimson Empire. It's like...I can 1 character is just a day.