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*sigh* just keeps getting worse...
shaun: why havent you been around? your logged in, wont chat or raid or anything
me: i was doing my school work
shaun: did you really send me money =-/
me: yes
me: why do you think i'm soo pissed over you not getting it?
shaun: why couldnt you gotten delievery comfirmation or something?
shaun: i cant come see you because of this shit.. and i dont know what to believe now.. i was hoping to work on things with you, but i mean.. this doesnt make sense
me: what its my fault that the post office fuck up?
me: i sent you the money so we could make things work.. you think i would just send you money for no reason to cover a month i wont be there?
shaun: who would send 400 cash without some sort of delivery comformation or something?
me: i didnt think about it ok
shaun: i'm fucked because of this
me: my parents were with me, they dont know i sent you the money... they think i have it still
me: why are you doing this... i tried to help you, i didnt have to send you the money its not my fault they fucked up and didnt get it to you.
shaun: why am i doing what? you say you tried to help me but i'm still fucked.. i dont know
me: your making it seem like its all my fault
me: i did try to help you...
shaun: i wanted to come see you only to find i'm more fucked then ever
me: what am i suppose to do?
shaun: i wanted to have kids with you.. this is fucked up.. i'm hurt really
me: i cant get another 400 to try to get to you...
me: why isnt me trying good enough for you..
shaun: trying? i dont know.. all i know is i dont have the 400 dollars
me: what am i suppose to do about that? i sent it to you
shaun: all i know is 400 dollars is alot of money and i dont see how you sent it like that
me: i'm not lieing about it if that is what your thinking
shaun: well i'm fucked... and you didnt work at anything when you were here.. i dont understand you
me: i tried to get a job
shaun: i wanted everything with you... and all you could do is sit there.. saying you couldnt do anything
shaun: you were being picky.. and only going out like once a week at the end
me: i was going out every dam day!
shaun: pisses me off had we both been working we would be engaged and thinking about a family
shaun: and now i'm losing everything
me: i went all over the dam mall, walmart, toys r us, petsmart..
me: the fact that i was trying should have been good enough..
me: everyone else thinks that if you are trying its good enough
shaun: well when your 22 and you want a real relationship sometimes you need to try harder
me: what was i suppose to do? i turned in soo many dam applications, went back and got told they werent hiring over and over and over
me: i did more for you then i done for anyone
shaun: dicked me over on rent.. you could of had everything with me
me: i didnt bother looking for a job for 6 months with my ex, and i was out lookin for a job the next day after i got there
shaun: i wanted to give it to you, but you wouldnt go get your GED or lisence
shaun: no ambition at all.. and all i wanted was that.. and then you would of been so happy... i wanted to love you
shaun: if i dont have the money by friday.. i'm fucked... and i'm done... you had very minimal responsibility and than im the one that gets dicked over.. i let you into my house.. i wanted it to be ours.. i would have married you
me: all i did was try to make you happy.. i tried getting a job, i was looking around to find a way to get my ged
me: why would you have married me when you just kept telling me over and over that you just wanted to be friends with me?
me: i cant get another 400...
shaun: i wanted to be friends because i cant be married to a couch potato.. fuck everyone.. my mom, dad, grandparents knew.. that when you got a job.. we were going to go out
me: i was trying
shaun: my feelings are being overcome by whats going on
me: just cuz i was home when you got off work doesnt mean i wasnt trying
shaun: i couldnt offer myself in the open like that.. i wanted a 2 way relationship... this must be a big game to you.. my feelings are sooo fucking deep... i wanted everything and i feel like my dream is crushed
me: it wasnt a game to me..
shaun: and if its a game your fucked up.. cuz you wont get any better than i wanted to offer you.. i wanted to make you so happy.
me: i wanted to be with you.. i wanted to marry you and have a family... its killing me that i wont get that..
me: this isnt a fucking game to me, it never was!
shaun: well you are ruining my life
me: your the one that told me to get out.. you would have gotten the money from my parents.. i even sent you the money... how am i ruining your life?
shaun: i wouldnt of told you to get out if you hadnt told me i wasnt getting the money
me: you think i randomly send 400 dollars to someone? you meant everything to me.. i just wanted you happy.. i was trying to get things so we could have a life together...
shaun: and thanks to you.. your parents hate me
me: they dont hate you, they were looking forward to you coming to visit so they could get to know you..
me: they havent judged you at all, they dont know you well enough for that
shaun: i never got the money, and the post office doesnt have a xray machines to look for money.. and i didnt get it so fuck this.. this is a game to you.. and my credit is getting fucked
me: its not a game! i even went to the post office to find out wtf happened
me: if it was a game i wouldnt be crying soo much over you
shaun: i got till friday to get the money, if i dont i am not going to deal with this anymore, it felt like a game when you were here and it feels like one now.. you made me fall in love with you.. you were nice to me and made me feel special
me: you are special
me: i dont play games with people i love
shaun: your sick.. made me think you were honest and true.. and now you make me want to go into drugs and shit
me: do you even know what i gave up for you?
shaun: you fucked me over with love and money.. i cant trust anyone
me: how did i fuck you over with love?
shaun: because its a game.. you wanted everything handed to you
me: it isnt a fucking game! i dont want everything handed to me
shaun: you have till friday to make this right.. if you cant do that than dont bother me.. because i will be filled with such hate you have no idea.. my life is fucking going backwards
me: i had everything with my ex.. i could have been married and having a family.. and i ended up giving that up to be with you...
me: how am i suppose to get another 400?
shaun: not my problem... if you want me it wont be so easy this time
shaun: hate to make it sound like your buying love.. because your not.. i feel it was your responsibility.. your everything i wanted in a girl as far as loving/caring/beautiful... but thats not all i need... i need someone that will work at me to have a future
me: i was tryingl...
shaun: well you know what i need.. so its up to you.. it will take along time for me to get over it.. but i wont have a choice
shaun: i'm loggning i dont know what else to say
me: i dont know how to get another 400...
shaun: than dont.. and months from now.. i'll get over you.. and ill find someone responsible.. and hope they can make me feel the way you made me feel..
me: =(
shaun: this is a dam joke to you.. and i'm hurt.. i'm fucking crying..
me: its not a joke...
shaun: i'm fucked but oh well its not your life
*shaun logs off*
shaun: why havent you been around? your logged in, wont chat or raid or anything
me: i was doing my school work
shaun: did you really send me money =-/
me: yes
me: why do you think i'm soo pissed over you not getting it?
shaun: why couldnt you gotten delievery comfirmation or something?
shaun: i cant come see you because of this shit.. and i dont know what to believe now.. i was hoping to work on things with you, but i mean.. this doesnt make sense
me: what its my fault that the post office fuck up?
me: i sent you the money so we could make things work.. you think i would just send you money for no reason to cover a month i wont be there?
shaun: who would send 400 cash without some sort of delivery comformation or something?
me: i didnt think about it ok
shaun: i'm fucked because of this
me: my parents were with me, they dont know i sent you the money... they think i have it still
me: why are you doing this... i tried to help you, i didnt have to send you the money its not my fault they fucked up and didnt get it to you.
shaun: why am i doing what? you say you tried to help me but i'm still fucked.. i dont know
me: your making it seem like its all my fault
me: i did try to help you...
shaun: i wanted to come see you only to find i'm more fucked then ever
me: what am i suppose to do?
shaun: i wanted to have kids with you.. this is fucked up.. i'm hurt really
me: i cant get another 400 to try to get to you...
me: why isnt me trying good enough for you..
shaun: trying? i dont know.. all i know is i dont have the 400 dollars
me: what am i suppose to do about that? i sent it to you
shaun: all i know is 400 dollars is alot of money and i dont see how you sent it like that
me: i'm not lieing about it if that is what your thinking
shaun: well i'm fucked... and you didnt work at anything when you were here.. i dont understand you
me: i tried to get a job
shaun: i wanted everything with you... and all you could do is sit there.. saying you couldnt do anything
shaun: you were being picky.. and only going out like once a week at the end
me: i was going out every dam day!
shaun: pisses me off had we both been working we would be engaged and thinking about a family
shaun: and now i'm losing everything
me: i went all over the dam mall, walmart, toys r us, petsmart..
me: the fact that i was trying should have been good enough..
me: everyone else thinks that if you are trying its good enough
shaun: well when your 22 and you want a real relationship sometimes you need to try harder
me: what was i suppose to do? i turned in soo many dam applications, went back and got told they werent hiring over and over and over
me: i did more for you then i done for anyone
shaun: dicked me over on rent.. you could of had everything with me
me: i didnt bother looking for a job for 6 months with my ex, and i was out lookin for a job the next day after i got there
shaun: i wanted to give it to you, but you wouldnt go get your GED or lisence
shaun: no ambition at all.. and all i wanted was that.. and then you would of been so happy... i wanted to love you
shaun: if i dont have the money by friday.. i'm fucked... and i'm done... you had very minimal responsibility and than im the one that gets dicked over.. i let you into my house.. i wanted it to be ours.. i would have married you
me: all i did was try to make you happy.. i tried getting a job, i was looking around to find a way to get my ged
me: why would you have married me when you just kept telling me over and over that you just wanted to be friends with me?
me: i cant get another 400...
shaun: i wanted to be friends because i cant be married to a couch potato.. fuck everyone.. my mom, dad, grandparents knew.. that when you got a job.. we were going to go out
me: i was trying
shaun: my feelings are being overcome by whats going on
me: just cuz i was home when you got off work doesnt mean i wasnt trying
shaun: i couldnt offer myself in the open like that.. i wanted a 2 way relationship... this must be a big game to you.. my feelings are sooo fucking deep... i wanted everything and i feel like my dream is crushed
me: it wasnt a game to me..
shaun: and if its a game your fucked up.. cuz you wont get any better than i wanted to offer you.. i wanted to make you so happy.
me: i wanted to be with you.. i wanted to marry you and have a family... its killing me that i wont get that..
me: this isnt a fucking game to me, it never was!
shaun: well you are ruining my life
me: your the one that told me to get out.. you would have gotten the money from my parents.. i even sent you the money... how am i ruining your life?
shaun: i wouldnt of told you to get out if you hadnt told me i wasnt getting the money
me: you think i randomly send 400 dollars to someone? you meant everything to me.. i just wanted you happy.. i was trying to get things so we could have a life together...
shaun: and thanks to you.. your parents hate me
me: they dont hate you, they were looking forward to you coming to visit so they could get to know you..
me: they havent judged you at all, they dont know you well enough for that
shaun: i never got the money, and the post office doesnt have a xray machines to look for money.. and i didnt get it so fuck this.. this is a game to you.. and my credit is getting fucked
me: its not a game! i even went to the post office to find out wtf happened
me: if it was a game i wouldnt be crying soo much over you
shaun: i got till friday to get the money, if i dont i am not going to deal with this anymore, it felt like a game when you were here and it feels like one now.. you made me fall in love with you.. you were nice to me and made me feel special
me: you are special
me: i dont play games with people i love
shaun: your sick.. made me think you were honest and true.. and now you make me want to go into drugs and shit
me: do you even know what i gave up for you?
shaun: you fucked me over with love and money.. i cant trust anyone
me: how did i fuck you over with love?
shaun: because its a game.. you wanted everything handed to you
me: it isnt a fucking game! i dont want everything handed to me
shaun: you have till friday to make this right.. if you cant do that than dont bother me.. because i will be filled with such hate you have no idea.. my life is fucking going backwards
me: i had everything with my ex.. i could have been married and having a family.. and i ended up giving that up to be with you...
me: how am i suppose to get another 400?
shaun: not my problem... if you want me it wont be so easy this time
shaun: hate to make it sound like your buying love.. because your not.. i feel it was your responsibility.. your everything i wanted in a girl as far as loving/caring/beautiful... but thats not all i need... i need someone that will work at me to have a future
me: i was tryingl...
shaun: well you know what i need.. so its up to you.. it will take along time for me to get over it.. but i wont have a choice
shaun: i'm loggning i dont know what else to say
me: i dont know how to get another 400...
shaun: than dont.. and months from now.. i'll get over you.. and ill find someone responsible.. and hope they can make me feel the way you made me feel..
me: =(
shaun: this is a dam joke to you.. and i'm hurt.. i'm fucking crying..
me: its not a joke...
shaun: i'm fucked but oh well its not your life
*shaun logs off*