The Voice I Left (15\?)
Title: The Voice I Left
Pairing: Pikame(slight Akame)
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Angst
Summary: "I can hear you and love you.. I'm blind but it seems like you're the one who can't see me now. Now I want my voice to reach you again.."
Disclaimer: I only own the plot
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He successfully reached those lips. His arms tangled with the other guy’s neck although he got no response. It felt so painful and plain with just him doing all the work to deepen the kiss. He just can’t help his self but to cry while feeling the moment between them.
Kame stopped and moved his face away. He was still crying. They can feel each other’s breath at that very precious moment.
Yamapi didn’t move. “Are you finished?” A blank expression crept into the older man’s face as he looked down on the cold floor.
That was the worst reply Kame can get. The cold atmosphere combined with their emotionless hearts. Even the wind was blowing their hair on that rooftop, that rooftop where they first made a great memory.
‘Will it end here?’ He smiled pathetically to his self as he slightly pulled on the other’s leather jacket. They were both standing there, motionless.
Yamapi on the other hand can feel the tears of Kmae that were falling on his hands and Kame’s head resting on his chest. His heart gave him a crumpling feeling inside him. It’s hard to talk that time.
He held on to Kame’s shoulders and pushed him off, harshly away from him. Now, he saw how his eyes swollen because of crying.
“Okay, let’s end this..” He walked away leaving the other guy sitting helplessly on the ground. Yamapi bit his lips as he got in touch with the doorknob.
“Why?” Kame whispered. “Why are you leaving me?!” He shouted with all his power but his voice was feeble and low.
Yamapi took in a deep breath. “You’re…” It’s time to continue this. He looked at Kame with plain eyes. “..becoming an interruption to me..”
That sentence struck his heart really awful. It broke his heart into pieces. So that was it? All he concluded was true.
He fisted his hands. Kame stood up as he walked near Yamapi.
The older guy was waiting for it. What will happen now? What is he going to do?
Kame chuckled although pain was so obvious on his face. He just continued to laugh. “Is that so? Then you should’ve said it..Y-you stupid guy…” Kame beamed.
‘What the hell?’ Yamapi was talking to his self while looking at the other.
“.. If I’m a burden to you, then you should have thrown me away. You’re not thinking a-at all….” He now announced within a dry tone. “Why didn’t you tell it earlier? If I already left you long before then maybe your life didn’t get destroyed that much..” Now tears were obviously falling from his eyes again.
The older one just stared at him emptily.
“.. And also in that way this trash won’t get so sad like this..” Kame added referring to his self. He fisted his hands. Tears just continued to fall.
He bit his lips.
Silence.
And then the door went bang. He was all alone.
Again, this is the time where the only thing he can hug is his knees for crying. It started to rain again. He hates it so much, because it’s too obvious that it just gives him the reason to weep even more.
He bit the sleeves of his clothing as drops of water clung to his hair. Kame breathed heavily, luckily the door opened.
“Ka-“ Ueda was too surprised of what he is seeing right now. Of course it also pains him. “Kazuya!” He hurriedly rushed to his side and guarded him from the rain.
“Why the hell-Why are you crying?!” He nagged the other as he hardly wiped Kame’s tears away. “Let’s go now, it’s raining so hard.” He held Kame’s hand that has been obviously froze by the wind.
Kame just let his body follow the force that was pulling him away. He walked with his best friend, spineless. It’s like the whole world crashed into him. When did he felt something like this before?
“No.. I’ve never felt like this..” Kame softly and leisurely rubbed his eyes with his icy hands. “It’s the first time… I’ve become so destroyed..” A revelation was said as he was talking to his self.
“Kame what are you uttering there? Tell me..” Ueda said those gentle words but even the half of it didn’t reach Kame. Tears just kept on generating in his eyes.
That look just gave Ueda the sign to stop talking. He just hugged Kame, really tight. The unaffected and cold body didn’t give him a reaction.
After hours, they reached Kame’s apartment. Also Ueda decided to stay there with his bestfriend.
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The man just let his body fall on the noiseless bed in his apartment. He touched his eyes that were closed for seconds.
Suddenly, his cellphone beeped.
“I’m sorry.. : ( “
-Kazuya
“Why is he still texting me?! DAMN!!!” He banged his cellphone on the bed as tears started to drop from his puffy eyes.
“What was that? Why the fuck are you still texting me?” -Yamapi
Kame closed his eyes. ‘Pi is this really you?’ He asked mentally as he touched his heart. He bit his lips and sobbed.
“I’m just.. I can’t live without you..” - Kazuya
Successfully, he sent that one. He really means it.
Yamapi’s eyes widen, that was a very fragile reply. It’s easy to break but you can’t realize how it reached and touched your heart.
“Goodbye..” -Yamapi
He already sent that but he was waiting for minutes with Kame’s reply. He was so dumb. He seized the phone in his hands as he stared at the ceiling.
Kame was crying. That is the worst word he wants to see now, especially from Yamapi.
“If you really hate me that much and you want to break up with me, then why did you reply at my first message after all? You’re really not giving me a reason to move on.. : ( I’m really sorry..I can tell you a thousand ‘sorry’ but I can never give you a single ‘goodbye’!! :’( “ - Kazuya
Yamapi threw his cellphone away. He knows he’s not mad. He just doesn’t want this anymore. If only he can have amnesia now, he will gladly take it. He punched the bed harshly with all his force.
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The next thing he knew, he woke up in his bed and Ran-chan kept licking his face.
He got up dumbfounded. Still, no sign of the person he wanted to be with. “G-good morning R-ran-chan..”
“KAZUYA! You’re already awake?” The door opened with a busy voice of his bestfriend.
“Tat-chan?”
He received a pat from the other guy. “How are you?”
Kame just nodded half-heartedly. He started to pat Ran-chan, too, who was sitting on his lap.
“It’s been two weeks since you’ve been acting so weird Kazuya. And yet you don’t share it to me..” Ueda mocked at him.
“Did you cook breakfast, Tat-chan?” He immediately changed the subject. Ueda just sighed in defeat.
“Yes…” He answered not really amused.
“Arigatou ne?” Kame beamed. Who could resist that one? His bestfriend sighed again but now an amused sigh. He guided Kame towards the kitchen.
“Uhn! This is really good Tat-chan!!”
Ueda just chuckled at his cute best friend and stared at him for a while. He missed this image so much. Kame smiling truthfully.
“Oh I remember..” Ueda stood up as he got some drink for Kame. “…I can’t be with you tonight. I got a serious appointment at home..” He announced worriedly.
Kame smiled to his self. “It’s okay..” He took a spoonful of food. “I’m fine by myself..”
“Just promise me, you won’t do anything reckless and you’re gonna text me if something happens, OKAY?” The older guy commanded to assure his self.
“Yes sir!”
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It’s evening. The moon shined so bright and everything around him was, as always, dark.
“Now you really took your job as a slut?” Kame heard that husky and scary voice just a millimeter away from him and his body felt those unfamiliar hands again. It sent shivers towards his spine and his body felt so cold and used.
“I-its for Yamapi..” He bit his lips to prevent his self for crying.
The hands roamed all over his body. As usual he was hand cuffed and blindfolded.
“Did he already said, how you ruined his life?”
“Please stop that already… Just do it..”
The man smirked at him with lust.
‘I’m sorry Tat-chan… I broke my promise..’ He announced mentally as he clutched the sheets of the bed.
His heart was aching and his body felt so numb that it didn’t even respond to the touches. ‘..It’s for you Yamapi… I hope you can hear me…’
He remembered that guy again. After all, everything that he is doing now is for Yamapi. To pay his debts.
‘At least I can do something for you.. even if you hate me so much… Just like what I said.. I want to protect you, too..” Tears uncontrollably fell from his eyes. And the night ended like that.
Even if he felt so helpless and dirty and used, the love he has for that person can cover it all.
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“Really.. good.. Everything’s going in a nice hard way..” he boss of Johnny’s entertainment smirked as he looked intently at his phone.
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Kame. Where is Kame? He looked all over inside those white walls. On that apartment, but no one was there.
“Kame?”
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The man stepped inside the hotel room. His nerves didn’t move that time. His eyes were glued on that person. Who was sitting on the ground?
Kame was embracing his laps as he started sniffing in pain.
A hand caressed him and it made him jump on his spot.
“Who are you??” His eyes broadened.
He didn’t get a response but a jacket met his freezing body. “Let me get out you here..”
He pitied him. Really. That hoarse voice and that weak body. It gave him the will to hug him, but he needs to resist it.
“Wait… Don’t take me anywhere else…Please…” That voice made his heart stay crappy as ever.
Kame was pleading to the stranger.
“What the hell are you doing there? Naked?!” Kame jumped on his spot as his mind went completely blank.
“WHAT?!” The other repeated.
“J-jin?” Tears were dipping from his feeble eyes.
A black car stopped in front of them. The guy inside of it was about to enter the hotel for some appointment but the shadows reached his eyes. ‘Kame?’ Yamapi asked his self as he narrowed his eyes to find out who was he with.
His eyes widened when it reached him. His eyes knew it and realized it was his best friend.
That time Jin kissed Kame, without reason. It’s just that he wants to kiss him and cheer him up.
A/N: Oh myyy so Jin came back?? Hahahaha. Comments are loved!