Somethings hormonally wrong with me I think. I mean...maybe it's just being a teenager or something, but it's weird. Seriously one moment I'm about ready to die, and the next I can't wait for the next day. Like, now, with my LJ, I was pissed and sad and just like...at bottom when I posted before. Now, I'm happy! I'm not even affected by...anything ( Read more... )

I want to walk outside, take a deep breath, take ahold of my hair, and SCREAM! I learned today that some one that doesn't like me is reading my LJ, wonderful. So, I just want them to know, that if they're looking for more ways to beat me down, make me feel like shit, that I'm lower then shit. Okay? I've been beaten down to where I've hit bedrock, ( Read more... )

Tired, and lonely. I want to be in a relationship, or give my friend one. Make her happy some how...I hate my parents. Whenever I hear the door open and I know they're home, I just get this sinking sensation of hate and just...yuckness. I can't wait 'till I'm on my own. My parents don't help my stress levels at all.

Is it wrong for me to want to cut my wrists deep enough to kill me, then go to Katie's door, knock and show her. Don't say anything, just cry and expose my slit wrists?

Sometimes, I wish I could trust people enough to talk about my problems. I hate keeping secrets about my own life. I want to tell my parents that I'm upset, and show them that. But, instead, I have to walk around like nothing happened or I'll get yelled at for being too emotional for 'no reason'.

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You find out the most interesting things about people while reading their LJ. Things you never thought them capable of just show up and shock you. It's so strange, but I guess it's to be expected. LJ is like an online diary, so it is actually. Then the reason, the purpose of its existance tries to worm its way through my freeway-type mind. Maybe it ( Read more... )

Alone.

Afraid.

Single.

No tears.

Where are they?

No pain.

Where is it?

Who is my 'guardian angel'?

I feel terrible right now. I honestly think that my dad is going to become abusive if I don't leave. He gets in these moods and he just snaps. He got in my face today and just screamed at me as loud as he could cuz I told him I had tried something with my printer before. He's normally such a great person, but now...he gets angry so easily. I'm such ( Read more... )

I've felt so alone since school started. I see my friends, but not on a one on one basis. They're usually talking to others and those others are usually people that don't talk to me. I want nothing more then to be able to sit down and complain to some one, let everything off my chest. But, as I said, I'm a listener not a talker. I just can't bring ( Read more... )