1. I first ran across you on the SeaGoth mailing list and then later when it morphed into the EZBoard mess. I appreciated your notifications and comments on political and social events around the world. You often stood in stark contrast to the myopic narcissism that seemed to permeate that small little group. I friended you in order to read what you had to say in a forum where you weren't constantly having to defend your right to exist as a person, much less have a viewpoint.
2. She can kill with a smile She can wound with her eyes She can ruin your faith with her casual lies And she only reveals what she wants you to see She hides like a child, But she's always a woman to me3. I think you are one of the most persistent and consistently hopeful people I know on this weird little internet world
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1. I noticed a certain person kept appearing in the comments sections of various journals I read at the time (and some I still do). Their comments were usually cutting in the wonderful Juvenalian manner so hard to do well in online writing, where an arched eyebrow is impossible. This may also sound odd, but I really appreciated your grammar. I friended you after finding out from your public entries you were into clowning and circus arts. I thought to myself, "well how could she be boring?"
2. The good books says we must suppress. The good books says we must confess. But who cares what the good books says, 'cause now she's taking off her dress!
Catholic school girls rule!
3. You're not afraid to look at yourself and do something. A lot of people spend their lives in introspection, patting themselves on the back for insights they never move beyond. From what I know of you, you seem to be a person who builds up a head of steam and then acts.
4. 5. Since friending you, I've seen a lot of pictures where you appear to be one of
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Yes and yes. I'm a pretty spontaneous and impulsive person, so doing things that become routine (like the cirkus or being the mascot for Grave Dagner) can kind of get me down and take the fun out of it for me.
1. Honestly, I friended you because you were seeing some one we both know at the time and would post in his journal. He's famously close-vested with personal things so I took the opportunity to find out more about you. Since I wasn't hitting the Merc at the time, I thought it was the best way.
2. Jane says, "Have you seen my wig around? I feel naked without it." She knows they all want her to go. But that's okay, man, she don't like them anyway.3. With all you've been through in your life, you manage to not fall into a self-referential spiral of woe somehow. I still don't know how you manage to not just curl up into a ball of pity more often and just tell everyone to f**k off because you don't care about their problems
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I associate myself with those lyrics as well, rather unsurprisingly. :)
Honestly, I try not to think too much about my difficulties, past and present. I'm forced to deal with the hearing loss and the fact that it makes things hard on an everyday basis, but there's no point in dwelling or feeling sorry for myself. I really have no choice but be strong and deal.
With the ex-boyfriend in question, the other girl was the friend who'd introduced us. The three of us were pretty close, but they'd been friends for a much longer period of time. And actually (I just checked for the first time in a lonnnng time), I'm at 135 photos as opposed to her 113. Heh.
And I like that your favorite is "content rose." :)
I know it was somewhat obvious, but sometimes those are the best. ;)
Those're my feelings about it as well. It only gets frustrating when people I care about forget and assume I'm ignoring them or purposely being obtuse when in fact I just really didn't understand or hear them at all.
I thought it was either something like that or his other shots of you were "not for public consumption." It was just something I noticed at the time but never got around to asking.
1. Henh ... I first friended you because you are an amazingly beautiful woman and I saw your pictures referenced on the SeaGoth board. I think it was the Bellingham series where you were in a mud puddle (and probably freezing off your toes) that caught my eye. You had/have a very good look for emotive compositions. At the time I was toying with the idea of starting some photography classes and projects as a creative outlet and thought it would be good to get to know you a little prior to asking you to pose. I never actually got around to working with models (other than Kowgirl) because things got a tad dicey between Kowgirl and myself for a while. I wanted to reduce unnecessary complications and not increase them. Of course by that time I knew something about you and found/find you fascinating.
2. Got on a lucky one; Came in eighteen to one. I've got a feeling, This year's for me and you. So happy Christmas. I love you baby. I can see a better time, When all our dreams come true.3. You came back, but didn't start right up again
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5. Why did I stay on the East Coast? Both. But mostly the boy. Why did I return? I guess I thought I liked it here and that I'd do well here if I came back. I was wrong.
6. The blue hair was only on inside. But probably you're referring to the black hair photos... I had on red and black outside, but the red ones all looked like I was a crazy alcoholic crack whore O.o
6. Ah, for some reason I thought your hair was blue in that shot. Odd how memory can play tricks on you. The red hair in the kitchen was a decent shot as well, but it didn't speak to me as much. Which is odd because I usually have a soft spot for crazy alcoholic crack whores, or at least one would think so based on my dating history prior to Kowgirl. ;)
1. I met you on Sia's board and responded well to your caustic wit and seeming ability to stay above the fawning and frippery without resorting to superiority. I then found out you were from Portland and resolved to look you up on my next visit. Of course then you moved and the board sort of collapsed in upon itself. I followed you to LJ from there and now have you friended in probably every place one can be friends without actually having met in real life. 2.
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I didn't actually "hook up with" anyone. I did meet Sia, Jonni, Budgie and Sio during a visit. What began as attraction turned into really great friends with Dave, but otherwise I wasn't into anyone in that way from the board. So you guys weren't the only ones.
So far the only people from there I've met in person have been Karl and Jonni. I'd previously met Dan through a mutual friend and John found the board through me. It's odd that I haven't met Vaysha yet seeing as she lives about two hours away, but there you go.
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2. She can kill with a smile
She can wound with her eyes
She can ruin your faith with her casual lies
And she only reveals what she wants you to see
She hides like a child,
But she's always a woman to me3. I think you are one of the most persistent and consistently hopeful people I know on this weird little internet world ( ... )
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2. The good books says we must suppress.
The good books says we must confess.
But who cares what the good books says,
'cause now she's taking off her dress!
Catholic school girls rule!
3. You're not afraid to look at yourself and do something. A lot of people spend their lives in introspection, patting themselves on the back for insights they never move beyond. From what I know of you, you seem to be a person who builds up a head of steam and then acts.
4. 5. Since friending you, I've seen a lot of pictures where you appear to be one of ( ... )
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Yes and yes. I'm a pretty spontaneous and impulsive person, so doing things that become routine (like the cirkus or being the mascot for Grave Dagner) can kind of get me down and take the fun out of it for me.
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2. Jane says, "Have you seen my wig around? I feel naked without it."
She knows they all want her to go.
But that's okay, man, she don't like them anyway.3. With all you've been through in your life, you manage to not fall into a self-referential spiral of woe somehow. I still don't know how you manage to not just curl up into a ball of pity more often and just tell everyone to f**k off because you don't care about their problems ( ... )
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Honestly, I try not to think too much about my difficulties, past and present. I'm forced to deal with the hearing loss and the fact that it makes things hard on an everyday basis, but there's no point in dwelling or feeling sorry for myself. I really have no choice but be strong and deal.
With the ex-boyfriend in question, the other girl was the friend who'd introduced us. The three of us were pretty close, but they'd been friends for a much longer period of time. And actually (I just checked for the first time in a lonnnng time), I'm at 135 photos as opposed to her 113. Heh.
And I like that your favorite is "content rose." :)
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Those're my feelings about it as well. It only gets frustrating when people I care about forget and assume I'm ignoring them or purposely being obtuse when in fact I just really didn't understand or hear them at all.
I thought it was either something like that or his other shots of you were "not for public consumption." It was just something I noticed at the time but never got around to asking.
And congrats on passing her up, the slattern!
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2. Got on a lucky one;
Came in eighteen to one.
I've got a feeling,
This year's for me and you.
So happy Christmas.
I love you baby.
I can see a better time,
When all our dreams come true.3. You came back, but didn't start right up again ( ... )
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4. I'm tired of that sort of "posse."
5. Why did I stay on the East Coast? Both. But mostly the boy.
Why did I return? I guess I thought I liked it here and that I'd do well here if I came back. I was wrong.
6. The blue hair was only on inside. But probably you're referring to the black hair photos... I had on red and black outside, but the red ones all looked like I was a crazy alcoholic crack whore O.o
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