Stupidity
Author: koya_ka
Pairing: Myungyeol
Rating: PG
Disclaimers: I don't own Infinite. (for the moment)
Summary: Myungsoo can't bear this stupid game anymore.
Note: I guess there's still some mistakes, sorry. =/
STUPIDITY
I know I love him, like crazy. I can do anything for him. I know he loves me too, it's so obvious. Everything could be simple. Just an "I love you" and a "me too" and we could be happy, like in these children's stories. But no. We're two idiots. We know that and we don't even try to change.
That morning was like any other. These days are boring. But still, I will always go very early in high school, because I know that he will be there. The one who brightens my days. He's the only one who can do it. I run out of breath from my home to our school, I want to see him, quickly. But once arrived at the gate, I reduce my pace considerably. I don't want him to think that I run for him, even if it's the case. It's stupid, but it became a habit. My steps become slow so I can resume normal breathing and my brain screams to continue to run. My dark face brightened when I pass the doors of our class. I do not want him to see the sadness in which I am immersed for months. So I smile, I play the game I sit next to him as if nothing had happened.
" Good morning Yeollie!"
He smiles too, but I can see that his smile is not as usual. It is wrong, I know. I know because I see no glimmer in his eyes. When Sungyeol is really happy his eyes sparkle like real diamonds. Not this time. He greets me, pretend to be cheerful. He filed his business and turned to me.
"So, this new prey? Have you managed to take Hoya into your nets? "
He laughs. His laugh is also fake. It looks like he's ready to burst into tears at any time. No one can see it but me. And this view hurts, compresses my heart. Why can't we just admit our feelings? Tell me Sungyeol. Why do we constantly hurt ourselves? Tell me you're jealous, that you can't bear my behavior and everything could be fine.
"Complete failure. Since he is dating Woohyun hyung he only has eyes for him. But don't worry I always have Sungjong if I need company. "
I am a monster Sungyeol, forgive me. I know that name makes you suffer more than anything else. But I have to talk about him. React. That's all I ask of you. Please Sungyeol, react. Stop playing the best friend role. I'm tired of your kindness. Be selfish for once. You should know that I do not care about all these boys that I can talk to you. Hoya Sungjong, they are nothing to me. To me you're the only one. You're my best friend, you know everything about me and yet you are unable to see that. Are you blind?
"Yes, and then in any case you will come to find others. All gay guys in this school are chasing you. "
If only you knew how much I hold back to sigh, cry, scream and hit you. I am the bastard in this story but I'm fed up of you and your blindness. Do you think I'm fooled? I know you not looking for anything in your bag, it's just a way to hide your emerging tears. Sungyeol, open your eyes. I bit my lip until the blood but I did not pay attention. My eyes are on your face. If you knew how much I want to kiss you right away. Your trembling lips are tempting me.
" Tell me you love me."
The words escaped my lips but I have no regrets. This game has lasted too long, I'm tired of playing. You look up suddenly. You seem surprised ... it's cute. I feel a smile on my face, real this time.
"I know your feelings for me Yeollie. I just want you to tell me, so I can answer you that I feel the same. "
Pairing: Myungyeol
Rating: PG
Disclaimers: I don't own Infinite. (for the moment)
Summary: Myungsoo can't bear this stupid game anymore.
Note: I guess there's still some mistakes, sorry. =/
STUPIDITY
I know I love him, like crazy. I can do anything for him. I know he loves me too, it's so obvious. Everything could be simple. Just an "I love you" and a "me too" and we could be happy, like in these children's stories. But no. We're two idiots. We know that and we don't even try to change.
That morning was like any other. These days are boring. But still, I will always go very early in high school, because I know that he will be there. The one who brightens my days. He's the only one who can do it. I run out of breath from my home to our school, I want to see him, quickly. But once arrived at the gate, I reduce my pace considerably. I don't want him to think that I run for him, even if it's the case. It's stupid, but it became a habit. My steps become slow so I can resume normal breathing and my brain screams to continue to run. My dark face brightened when I pass the doors of our class. I do not want him to see the sadness in which I am immersed for months. So I smile, I play the game I sit next to him as if nothing had happened.
" Good morning Yeollie!"
He smiles too, but I can see that his smile is not as usual. It is wrong, I know. I know because I see no glimmer in his eyes. When Sungyeol is really happy his eyes sparkle like real diamonds. Not this time. He greets me, pretend to be cheerful. He filed his business and turned to me.
"So, this new prey? Have you managed to take Hoya into your nets? "
He laughs. His laugh is also fake. It looks like he's ready to burst into tears at any time. No one can see it but me. And this view hurts, compresses my heart. Why can't we just admit our feelings? Tell me Sungyeol. Why do we constantly hurt ourselves? Tell me you're jealous, that you can't bear my behavior and everything could be fine.
"Complete failure. Since he is dating Woohyun hyung he only has eyes for him. But don't worry I always have Sungjong if I need company. "
I am a monster Sungyeol, forgive me. I know that name makes you suffer more than anything else. But I have to talk about him. React. That's all I ask of you. Please Sungyeol, react. Stop playing the best friend role. I'm tired of your kindness. Be selfish for once. You should know that I do not care about all these boys that I can talk to you. Hoya Sungjong, they are nothing to me. To me you're the only one. You're my best friend, you know everything about me and yet you are unable to see that. Are you blind?
"Yes, and then in any case you will come to find others. All gay guys in this school are chasing you. "
If only you knew how much I hold back to sigh, cry, scream and hit you. I am the bastard in this story but I'm fed up of you and your blindness. Do you think I'm fooled? I know you not looking for anything in your bag, it's just a way to hide your emerging tears. Sungyeol, open your eyes. I bit my lip until the blood but I did not pay attention. My eyes are on your face. If you knew how much I want to kiss you right away. Your trembling lips are tempting me.
" Tell me you love me."
The words escaped my lips but I have no regrets. This game has lasted too long, I'm tired of playing. You look up suddenly. You seem surprised ... it's cute. I feel a smile on my face, real this time.
"I know your feelings for me Yeollie. I just want you to tell me, so I can answer you that I feel the same. "