HEY LOOK I'M NOT DEAD.

did you know that no one is going to read this :)

but anywho.

i thought i missed my friends like crazy. don't get me wrong, i do. but just talking to them get s me sooooooo depressed.

i don't know what to do with myself anymore.

i'm so wasting my own time writing in this.

love you all. if you're even reading this

yeah ( Read more... )

so i really enjoy how no one, no one at all bothers commenting any of my journal entries, ever. so today i had a huge huge huge breakdown because, i just cant handle things anymore. its valentines day, pretty much the day of love. but all it did was show me how few friends i have anymore, how little they care about me, and how much it sucks having ( Read more... )

mysnswickedcool: wanna know the truth? i hate talking about my problems because i like bottling them up inside me so no one worries. so no one sees the sad side of me. i dont even really want anyone to see me. i like being alone and i like not having to deal with people. i have a lot of friends yeah, but none, not one of them, know everything i've ( Read more... )

so today was alright ( Read more... )

i've been up to nothing really lately. more and more breakdowns. i'm seeing the phyciatrist next wednesday. kinda nervous kinda anxious. i wanna go, tell her everything and get it over with. other than that. kohls is having a sale on purses and i'm forcing my mom to bring me tomorruh after drivers ed. and i need a blowdryer. i want a different mp3 ( Read more... )

today i had the hugest breakdown. i wanted to drop math, but it worked out that i don't have to anymore and i can get a credit but not actually go to math class. i'm just gonna get all my work, read how to do it from the book, and do all my work and tests in guidance. so i'm pretty much teaching myself math. yeah ( Read more... )

SO. my new schedule is better than yours. here it is ( Read more... )

hmm lets see. friday was my last day of having four studies. oh, and i got switched out of my history class into romano's F block class. i'm happy because sarah grace toner lili jess and rob?[by] are all in there. i have to make mister romano know i really want to learn though. and i really want to be in class. so i can't bullshit my way through ( Read more... )

today i went to school. i don't know why, but i did. i think the only reason i went actually was for my C block study in the cafe. i love that study, soooo much. that was the highlight of my day. then i got pissed off and decided i'm switching out of history. [i'm sorry meghan] but i'm gonna be in jess and sarah's history class [yay]. after that my ( Read more... )