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jonghyun/iu – don't say a word – au michaelchang February 16 2016, 18:34:40 UTC
i don't even know what happened with this.

"i've been thinking lately. about songs that are meant to be apologies. sorry for hurting you, sorry for coming too late, sorry for not recognizing your love. when you think about it, there are many songs like that, aren't they? apologizing to the other person. but what about songs apologizing to yourself?"when they first meet, he is a guest on her radio show. it's late and it's live and he looks so, so tired, but he greets her with zest before they're even on air and maintains his jovial demeanour throughout the entire show ( ... )

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jonghyun/iu – don't say a word – au (cont.) michaelchang February 16 2016, 18:36:06 UTC
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(she says yes the first time, the second, and the third. she says yes when lunch changes to catching a quick cup of coffee at the cafe three blocks away from the station's building. she says yes when there's no food involved and it's one in the morning and he hasn't slept in hours and wants some company to keep him from going insane. she tells him it's already too late to save him from that, and he snickers like a kid that's just read a racy note in the middle of class.

they manages to keep it up for a good year before they start to drift. he gets busier, has another mini-album to work on and eventually promote. she starts hosting here and there, is approached for a songwriting gig by a new company grasping at straws to try and have something, anything, that'll help their upcoming group's single stand out a little bit ( ... )

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jonghyun/iu – don't say a word – au (cont.) michaelchang February 16 2016, 18:37:15 UTC
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"sorry for not allowing myself to feel the joy of love, or the sting of something unrequited. sorry for not having enough faith in my sincerity, sorry for not believing they'd see it. sorry for lacking courage. sorry for waiting too long and realizing all of this too late. i've been wondering if there's a song like that. so i decided to write one, and i'm sharing it with you today."the next time she sees him, they try to write a song together. a song about love, because those are what he's best at. he tells her she's good at them too and the smile he gets from her is wry, like his compliment is some big joke. he means it, of course. he always means everything he says. that's what she finds so funny about all this; it's all the things he hasn't said. all the things she hasn't said, either ( ... )

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jonghyun/iu – don't say a word – au (cont.) michaelchang February 16 2016, 18:38:28 UTC
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"jieun," he greets, grinning as he rests his hand on her shoulder. his touch feels like it's burning through her clothes and scorching her skin. she struggles not to to shrug it off. "it's been a while."

it's been a year.

she remembers he sent her a message after their writing session, asking if she'd like to meet for coffee and try and finish the song. their song, he called it, like he actually believed that was true. the message is still somewhere in her inbox, rotting away like all the other insignificant texts he used to send her.

she never replied.

standing in front of him now, she hides one more truth from him and smiles.

"have you been well?"

the last time she relapsed and made the mistake of searching up articles about him on the internet was six months ago. the hot topic was the confirmation of the relationship he had with a member of rookie group alicestar. they'd already broken up. schedule conflicts, their companies said. when jieun looked at the dates provided, something lurched inside her stomach ( ... )

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jonghyun/iu – don't say a word – au (cont.) michaelchang February 16 2016, 18:39:20 UTC
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"so i'm asking you to make a call tonight, to whoever it is, and tell them what you feel. you won't be alone, and if you feel like you are, just think about all the other people who will be joining you tonight. let's all find strength in each other and free ourselves from the shackles of fear and wistfulness. fighting."she leans away from the microphone with a sigh as she pulls off her headphones. hwang pd smiles, the two of them quietly listening to jieun's voice filling the air around them, and the look of pride on the normally eccentric woman's face seems a little out of place, but jieun appreciates her support all the same, won't forget to thank her again for helping her do this. still, she finds that she can't meet hwang's eyes. she feels shy, anxious, exposed ( ... )

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RE: jonghyun/iu – don't say a word – au (cont.) kaleid_scopic February 17 2016, 16:55:45 UTC
OH MY GOD NASVDMBKZSBbfsznV

ok I didn't know what I wanted but this is probably much more than that ;__; I like that the ending is ambiguous in that it can go the 'happily ever after' way or it can go the other way.

this line

the pieces were all there, but they never tried to make them fit, just bared their souls and kept waiting for something

is so uuughhhh /cries

sobs I miss jongiu fics so much so thank you so so much for this!!! <3

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RE: jonghyun/iu – don't say a word – au (cont.) michaelchang February 24 2016, 19:46:07 UTC
i hadn't realized how much i wanted more jongiu in my life, so thank you too, and i'm so, so glad you liked this. ;-;

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RE: jonghyun/iu – don't say a word – au (cont.) xkayye February 28 2016, 16:20:04 UTC
HI THERE.
AAAH THIS IS REALLY REALLY NICE
Songwriting and JongU are just perfect for each other. <3
I love the tone of this fic and I also love the detail of Jjong's honesty here about really wanting to write a song with IU.

he means it, of course. he always means everything he says. that's what she finds so funny about all this; it's all the things he hasn't said. all the things she hasn't said, either.
THIS LINE TOO

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RE: jonghyun/iu – don't say a word – au (cont.) michaelchang February 29 2016, 15:41:46 UTC
SOBS, thank you so much.
writing this may have broken me, so i'm glad i could share a little bit of that feeling with you. ;_;

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