Let's Return To The Good Times (Chapter 5)

Sep 21, 2012 11:44

The pain that he felt, the longing he felt, the sadness he felt. Did they feel it too? Will they be 13 again? Wil they be the brothers they once were?



“Ge, how’s he? Is Kui Xian awake?” ( 哥,他怎么样?奎贤醒了吗?)

Zhou Mi’s voiced echoed through the receiver.

Hankyung sighed. He was sitting on the bed, leaning against the bed, legs spread apart. He was calling the two other members that were in China. Despite them not being officially classified as Super Junior members, the bond between them and Super Junior is strong as the bond between the members themselves.

“Not. Not yet. Did you tell Henry?” ( 不。。。还没有。你有给 Henry 讲吗?)Hankyung asked.

Some shuffling noises were heard over the phone before a short “No” was given back. Zhou Mi then continued to explain in a mix of Chinese and Korean to prevent his parents from understanding. When Super Junior was in China, they had crashed Hankyung’s and Zhou Mi’s house. Zhou Mi’s parents had welcomed them with open arms, especially Kyuhyun.

“I don’t want Mochi to worry, so maybe I’ll tell him when Kyu wakes up.” ( 我不想要 Mochi 担心。 可能奎贤醒了后,我才告诉他。)

“What did he say?” Heechul asked as he walked into Hankyung’s room.

Hankyung put a hand over the receiver before mouthing ‘He didn’t tell Henry’. Heechul nodded and plunked himself onto the bed. Hankyung moved to make way for him and placed the phone on loud speaker.

They didn’t tell Henry because no one wanted to see him sad. Having a crying Ryeowook, a self-blaming Leeteuk, a sobbing Eunhyuk, and a frantic Donghae was bad enough, but having an emotional Henry was even worse than all four of them added together. Furthermore, Henry was sitting for his exams and they didn’t want him to ditch his exams and rush over to Korea. Kyuhyun wouldn’t want it either. He would probably skin his hyungs alive for doing that to Henry and ask them why they wanted to bother Henry when he was busy. No one had to heart to break it to the real maknae too.

“I have to go now. Henry is coming over for dinner and I have to help him revise. His exams will end in five days’ time and we’ll come over immediately after that.” Zhou Mi replied while clanking sounds could be heard, presumably him in the kitchen getting ready to make dinner.

“See you then.” Hankyung said.

“Stay strong, Seasoning.” Heechul chimed in.

Tutt.....

The sound continued monotonously as Zhou Mi hung up at the other end. Heechul stared at the phone that was lying on the bed between them - Hankyung and him, before reaching over and putting it on silent mode. With a sigh, he rested his head on Hankyung’s lap while the Chinese man ran his hand through the diva’s hair affectionately. The cat-like diva shut his eyes as he allowed himself to bask in his best friend’s warmth.

It had came as a rude shock to him when the news of Hankyung leaving SM Entertainment was all over the newspaper. He knew that Hankyung would be leaving SM Entertainment, but it didn’t occur to him that his best friend would be leaving Super Junior, would be leaving him. Maybe it did already but he was in denial. Only when Hankyung told them face to face was he then forced to accept reality. Having lived in the same dorm as Hankyung for a few years and having a special relationship with him, the stab Heechul had received in the heart was big.

The week Hankyung left Super Junior, the day Hankyung left him, the minute Hankyung walked out of the door and maybe walking out of Heechul’s life for forever, was the second that a part of Heechul had left with Hankyung, had died. After that, Heechul was never the same. He went into depression for days, no, not even weeks. The diva went into depression for three months and secluded himself from the rest of the members, his only friends being his two cats, which he had named after Hankyung and himself, along with some of his closest friends. He didn’t even attend the stage or year end award shows. Thankfully, SM Entertainment had been understanding enough to not pressure him and let time heal his wounds, which could never be healed by a doctor, even the most professional ones. He only wished that SM Entertainment could have been this understanding to Hankyung. Maybe even if they had showed half of it to the Chinese man, Hankyung wouldn’t have filed the lawsuit.

He had posted on his cyworld minihomphy pictures that they had taken together, the fun times they had, together with a statement - ‘I was in a big chaos. It was difficult for me to laugh on TV and dance on stage.’ And he even revealed in a interview, ‘I had some lingering emotions. Since I did not meet any people, depression got worse. I had lived with Hankyung, drank together and was really close. It was mentally difficult.’

Every day he would either lock himself in the room, not even coming out for meals or even going out for schedules. The only times he went out was to a bar where he would get himself drunk and had to get a member to drive him back. The minute he goes back, he would lock himself and the routine would begin all over again.

The wound the other members have received was painful too, but no one’s pain could be compared to Heechul’s, not even if they add all thirteen’s pain together. The pain the members felt would be intensified each day when they see Heechul in depression. They wanted to reach out to the diva and save him from sinking further. But the only person who’s capable of doing that is gone. And he would never be coming back. So imagine their surprise when they found a surprise waiting for them at the door step one evening around 7pm.

~ Flashback ~

“Rrrring.....”

“Rrrring.....”

The doorbell of Super Junior’s dorm rang incessantly. The members looked up in surprise. They weren’t really doing anything. Just lazing around and staring out of the window, looking at the world go pass. Things have changed since Hankyung have left. Laughter was hardly heard at all. Words were hardly spoken. Members were treading on thin glass whenever Heechul was around, which was hardly, as if any word about Hankyung could send the Cinderella into pieces. After Hankyung had left, the members had obtained permission to drag *ahem ahem.* Zhou Mi and Henry over to Korea and stay with them. They didn’t want anyone to experience this devastation alone. Anyway, they were at a loss at what to do when they heard the doorbell ring. They weren’t expecting any visitors that day, and no one would visit them at night, and their manager had left to attend a meeting. Super Junior had already given up all hope of Hankyung returning. For the first month, whenever the doorbell had rung, all of them, especially Heechul, used to rush down the stairs and fling open the door, expecting to see Hankyung standing there, with a smile on his face, only to sigh in disappointment when it was only a member or their manager. At times, it would be one of HoMin’s members who would come to check up on them and console them, since they had gone through the exact pain.

“Rrrring.....”

The doorbell rang for the third time before Donghae sighed in frustration and stood up, going to the door to open it. He stormed his way there, footsteps full of annoyance and irritation, but underlying it, with no one noticing, not even Donghae himself, was a small tint of hope, for somewhere in his heart, he was still hoping for Hankyung to return. They all were still hoping.

The members returned to their own business, only to turn their heads back in the direction of the door rapidly when Donghae screamed.

He had walked over to the door and flung it open, about to shout out a rather irritated ‘What’, which immediately died in his throat, not even succeeding making its first syllable out of his mouth when he saw the figure standing outside the door. A surprised scream made its way to his throat, this time succeeding leaving his mouth, before he quickly muffled it with his scream and stared at the figure with wide eyes.

A shuffling of feet was heard as the members quickly made their way to Donghae, their attraction drawn by his previous.
“Hae, what’s wron-” Eunhyuk was about to ask but his voice failed him when he saw the person who rang the doorbell. His eyes were filled with tears within a minute and he gulped heavily. Donghae took a deep breath, and turned to Eunhyuk, hugging him tightly. Sobs could be heard as Ryeowook latched himself onto Yesung’s shirt, crying. Shindong had ran off already, being the first one to react, possibly to find food to celebrate. Kyuhyun had leaned himself onto Sungmin and smiled a wearily, yet a genuine smile. Sungmin just stared and stared and stared, before jerking back heavily to his senses when Kibum nudged him sharply. Leeteuk was shaking with sobs as he hid his face in his hands, with Kangin as support. He was torn between standing there and running to hug the person. Luckily, Zhou Mi had already made that decision for me. He ran to the figure, before tackling him in a hug, with Henry following behind. A string of Chinese words followed, with Kyuhyun only able to make out ‘You. I no like you. You’re really back. Oh god. We missed you’ ( 你。我不喜欢你了。你真的回来了。天啊,我们好想你哦。)Of course, there were others words but Kyuhyun wasn’t able to make out due to his limited understanding of Chinese, possibly Zhou Mi and Henry screaming curses at the person before starting to cry and showering him with welcoming words. Siwon just stood there, smiling stupidly before moving to hug the ringer of the doorbell gently.

For standing at the doorstep was no other than their very own Hankyung.

He’s back.

He smiled at them wearily, but with eyes twinkling with love and care for his members before pushing past them gently and heading upstairs to a certain diva’s room, with his members following him. He paused outside the room and knocked gently on the door.

“Go away.” A muffled voice, hoarse from not using it for a long time, was heard.

The voice struck a chord in Hankyung’s heart. It was his first time hearing Heechul like hat and it pained him deeply. But he knew he only had himself to blame as he was the sole cause of his best friend’s state. Turning to Leeteuk with questioning eyes, the leader answered.

“He had been like that ever since you left.”

Three months. Heechul had been in the state of depression for three months. Hankyung knew, but he was still surprised. He had read it from the internet and even heard it on the interview. When he left, he wasn’t allowed to contact Super Junior. But there hasn’t been one day that Hankyung spend without thinking of his family in Korea. He missed them badly and always wondered how things would have been different if he didn’t leave. Everyday, he would check for updates on them without fail, like an obsessed fangirl, but his sincerity being much more.

“Do you have the key?” He asked in a soft voice. Oh, how the members had long to hear his voice and they wanted to hug him right there, right now. But they knew that it wasn’t the time for that. It was the time for Heechul to come out of his depression and for Super Junior to be a happy family again.

Ryeowook nodded and disappeared, only to come back after a few minutes, with the key to Heechul’s room in his hand. He handed the key to Hankyung, who inserted it into the lock and turned it. The lock unlocked with a ‘click’, and the Chinese man slowly pushed the door opening, with the members bracing themselves for the sight. No one had actually seen Heechul in the light properly before since when he comes out to go to the bar, it’s always night, his face often being shadowed.

The room was dark. The curtains were drawn and even if the sun rises, hardly much sunlight would be able to enter the room. There was depressing suffocating aura in the room, making the Super Junior members suffocate and gag. It was surprisingly well kept though, with Hankyung’s side still intact. Not one of his belongings which he had left behind were removed. Instead, they were kept in a good condition. His bed was nicely made, only with a lonely, once hyperactive, figure lying on it, facing the ceiling with his arms over his eyes.

“Heechul.” Hankyung’s voice came out as a whisper, voice ricocheting about the room, amplifying it.

The figure on the bed didn’t even move, not even when Kibum on the table lamp, dim light flooding the room, causing the members to blink rapidly for their eyes to adjust to the sudden brightness, no matter how dim it was. They feared for the diva’s eyes for he had been in the dark room for longer time then them, but the mentioned person didn’t even twitch a muscle. Fearing the worst, the members hurried to the bed, only to be stop when the hoarse voice responded.

“What do you want?”

“Heechul --” Hankyung repeated again.

“Great. Now I’m going crazy. I am even beginning to hallucinate his voice.” The diva spoke once more, cutting Hankyung off, without even moving. He then started to cough, his thin frame shaking profusely. Just by saying three sentences, he had strained his voice which hasn’t been properly used for three months.

Hankyung couldn’t stand seeing his best friend in such a state, moved over to the bed, and pulled the person lying there into a hug.

“You’re not, Chullie. I’m so sorry. I’m here now. I’m so sorry. I won’t ever leave again. I promise upon my soul.” Hankyung mumbled in a broken voice. It cracked his heart to see how much Heechul had been affected by his leave. Never in his life would he want to see any of the Super Junior members like that, especially Heechul. He continued to whisper calming words into Heechul’s ears, speech often filled with apologies, that was also directed to the rest of the members who were standing there.

Heechul finally broke down, crying heavily as he buried himself into Hankyung’s chest, murmuring ‘You’re back. You’re really back.’, like a broken recorder. Unable to handle it anymore, Eunhyuk ran to them and hug them both. Soon, it became a group hug with Hankyung and Heechul stuck it the middle.

Kyuhyun felt a pang in his heart, even though Hankyung was back. It’s not really pain, more like fear, more like the dread that Hankyung was going to leave again. Staring at the happy scene in front of him, he pushed that thought to the back of his mind and joined the hug.

“Yah! What are you bastards trying to do? Are you trying to suffocate me?”

Heechul’s annoyed scream vibrated through the dorm, along with the members’ laughter. The Heechul they knew was finally back.

The next day, the manager opened the door to a rather empty dorm, only to find all fifteen of them squished into one room - Hankyung’s and Heechul’s, sleeping together peacefully, all with a genuine smile that hasn’t been seen for more than a few months on their faces. (remember? Super Junior was falling apart even before Hankyung left, so they weren’t really smiling during that time. so they haven’t smiled genuinely for more than three months. but now they did yay!)

~ Flashback ~

Heechul chuckled at the memory, only to find Hankyung looking down at him with a questioning smile. He reached up and pinched his roommate’s cheeks, only to be slapped away gently in annoyance.

“Nothing. Just thinking of how I had been when you left.”

“You’ve been acting like a girl who got dumped by a boyfriend.”

“Hey.” Heechul smacked Hankyung on the arm playfully. “Having your best friend leave you isn’t any different.”

“I’m sorry. I won’t do that again. I promise.” Hankyung apologized immediately, knowing that he had caused Super Junior great pain during that time.

“You better not. Else I’ll grab Zhou Mi and Kangin and go to China to drag you back.” Heechul said jokingly as he sat up.

“Kangin and you can’t even speak a proper sentence of Chinese.” Hankyung replied casually.

“Sure I can. Watch. 韩庚, 你这个大笨蛋。(Hankyung, you idiot.)” The diva replied, smirking.

“That’s not even a proper sentence.” The Chinese man replied, amused.

“Fine. That’s why for that sole reason, I’m dragging Seasoning along.” Heechul retorted immediately, as he stood up with Hankyung and stretched.

“He’s not going to be pleased.”

“Don’t care. He doesn’t have a say in this.”

They would have gone on forever, back to their typical argument-yet-not-really-an-argument if not for Ryeowook’s shout, “Dinner is ready.” and a flurry of colors ran past their room’s door.

“We better hurry unless you want to get screamed at by Ryeowook.” Heechul said as he grabbed Hankyung’s hand and led him downstairs. The eternal maknae, and the Chinese chef at times, was famous for his wrath when it comes to members skipping food and meals.

Walking down the stairs, they saw their members talking happily, despite the tinge of sadness in the atmosphere which they decided to brush aside. Shindong saw them and signaled for them to join in and they sat together as family.

All was well now. All they have to do is to wait for Henry to finish his exams and then him and Zhou Mi will come and join them together.

And of course, all that was left was for Kyuhyun to wake up for them to be a happy family again.

A/N.

yay! zhou mi and henry appeared. only for while though. sorry. haha. i’ll bring them in properly when kyu’s awake. :) the scene requests are this:

changmin as kyuhyun’s best friend
suju hyungs showering kyuhyun with love
and henry being all cuddly towards kyu.
super junior throws Kyu a surprise party

anything else? i’ll post the questions i wanna know like every few chapters. and again. Hanchul here is only brotherly love. so no romance. *feels like i’m writing romance thought. shudder* haha. i guess that it is to make up for the depressing stuff i wrote afterwards. Information taken from here. why so emo? was writing this while listening to W by JYJ on replay *cries again* sorry. some of the stuff here has been exaggerated and altered to fit the context. at my deskmate/schoolmate/bestfriend: yes i know that i cry easily like Tao. So sorry. *dodges slap.* stop smirking. oh and take this opportunity to improve your chinese. :P

btw, was the suspense nice? i know that it’s kinda obvious who the ringer of the doorbell was though. i suck at suspense, a reason why i could never write mystery. sorry! AND YAY! happy (and lame) ending haha.

on a side note, this chapter may be a little confusing with the first chapter. basically, hankyung came back to drag heechul out of his depression. of coz kyu was happening but the damage on him had been done and he was afraid of experiencing the same pain again. i hope that this clears confusion up. had to make this big coz some ppl don’t read the a/n.

fandom:superjunior, genre:angst, fic:let'sreturntothegoodtimes

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