Books, Glitter and Hearts of Foam 32/35+
Title: Books, Glitter, and Hearts of Foam 32/35+
Rating: R
Summary: Adam and Gage finally meet again.
Warnings: cussing, M/M sex suggested
Notes: Here it is! The moment everyone’s been waiting for. Or at least I have. :) Next chapter probably won’t be up for a while.
Kris stared for a moment before he looked away and breathed out, the breath ending on a growl. “Did he say-”
“No.” Adam twisted his hands around the phone before setting it down. Kris looked livid. Why’d this have to happen now? Everything was so perfect. “Baby, you okay?”
He was quiet for a few moments, hard hazel eyes staring holes through the chair across the way. Then he melted back and sighed. “I’m just so sick of all this drama.” He held a hand up as Adam started to speak. “I know, not all of our problems can be solved so easily. It… doesn’t make me hate it any less.”
Adam closed his mouth and nodded, before sweeping Kris back into his arms. He tried to push back the thoughts of Gage, go back to their little bubble of peace. After a few moments, Kris relaxed against him, turning his face into Adam’s shoulder. “He could’ve had better timing, too.” Kris grumbled.
Adam chuckled and petted him, flattening the brown tuffs off hair before bringing his hand down Kris’ back to the dip just above the curve of his ass. “Agreed.”
Kris sighed. “And I was so looking forward to breaking in my new bed…” He paused and adopted a sly smile. “And table, and counter… and maybe a few of the walls.”
Damn. Every thought about everything else was thrown out of his mind and Adam smirked, turning to slide both hands down to Kris’ ass and hauling him up at the same time he stood. “Well, what says we can’t do that, now?”
Kris stared at him for a while, looking a little worried - caring and sweet maybe, too - before he broke into a mischievious grin identical to Adam’s and pulled himself up a bit to nip at his jaw, using his foot to hit his ass. “Get on it, lover.”
Adam licked his lips and carried Kris far enough to the wall separating the kitchen from the living room before pressing him against it, smashing their mouths together and getting to work.
Okay, it’s fine, everything’s going to be fine. Adam took a breath, willing himself to calm down, for his heart to stop hammering in his chest. It’s just a little talk, it’s not like he’s going to try anything.
“You sure about this?” He looked over at Kris in the booth beside him looking just as nervous as Kris felt, but… he was more protective than anything; his arm curled around Adam’s side, a determined set to his jaw, his eyes going between watching the door and the clock on the diner wall. It’s gonna be alright.
Adam nodded and smiled slightly. “Yeah, I’m sure.” He breathed out again. “I just… wanna put all this behind me.”
Kris nodded his head, then straightened up as the door opened. Adam braced himself and looked up.
A man with sand-color hair walked in, his teeth turning his lip ring back and forth, dark eyes scanning the diner until he saw Adam, then Kris. When he saw the younger man he hesitated walking toward them, and Adam looked over to see Kris glaring daggers at him. He placed a hand on Kris’ thigh, squeezing until Kris seemed to relax a bit.
When Gage finally came up he stood awkwardly by the table for a moment, still looking over at Kris. “I didn’t know you were going to have someone else here…”
“Is that going to be a problem?” Adam arched a brow over at Kris. He can be all protective like that for me, now we just have to make him as stubborn when it comes to himself…
Gage paused a moment. “Well, if you’re going to have that attitude…” He trailed off when Kris glared, holding his hands up. “Look, I just wanted to make amends…” For the first time since Adam had seen him he looked truly guilty. Huh… “That’s a little difficult when you’re jumping at everything I do or say.”
“Well considering your past I have good reason, don’t I?”
Gage shrunk back a bit before biting hard into his lip. Adam remembered those days during practice when everyone was arguing back and forth about something, seeing him do something exactly like that when he was trying not to say something. Maybe this will be easier without Kris here…
Adam nudged the younger man, trying to convey everything with his eyes so he would understand. “Babe, maybe you should go off for a bit?”
Kris opened his mouth to argue, then quickly closed it, sending a warning back with his eyes - "Anything happens I am not responsible for how I react." - before standing up out of the booth and walking off to a seat at the bar a few feet away. Adam breathed out a sigh and looked back at Gage.
He looked a bit more comfortable now, the threat of a smile just barely there - not harsh or burning with hate and negativity like before, but almost friendly. “You’re new… boyfriend?”
Yeah, I’m not going to do small talk. “So…” Adam dropped his eyes to the table top, playing with his rings as he spoke. “You said something about amends?”
“Oh, right.” Gage stumbled over the words a bit then huffed. “I… What I did, it was fucked up, man.” He shook his head. “I had no right reacting like that, but…” He paused for a minute, chewing his lip before he let out an explosion of rushed words. “I mean, I never knew that about my brother, and then you come back to practice with him dangling on your arm. I admit, what I did was an overreaction but I did have some of a right to react negatively toward something like that. I mean…” His face reddened a bit, as Adam sat back, letting him get everything out before he started in. “I kinda always thought you were, but Silas? No way. And, just… so you know, I never… I was pretty much on the fence for the whole… gay, thing.”
Adam huffed. “Mmm, so you go from on the fence to beating the shit out of me in an alley for it?”
Gage looked away. “Fuck, I know, I was stupid.” He threw his hands up. “I’ve always been an impulsive little shit! You know that-”
“That doesn’t excuse you for-”
“I’m not using it for an excuse!” They both slumped back in the booths, Gage grimaced and shook his head. “God, I’m trying to apologize and you’re being a stubborn ass like always.”
Adam was quiet for a while, then he sighed and sat up again. “You know, when you did that to me… it… it really messed me up.” He held his hand up when Gage opened his mouth and shook his head. “Part of your apology is letting me get this off my chest, alright?” He waited until Gage nodded and sat back before continuing. “I thought for years that I had to close myself off from everyone, that if I got too close… I’d be broken like I was that night.” He dropped his eyes to the table again, seeing Kris tensing up by the counter and Gage’s face looking even guiltier by the word. I have to finish this. “I couldn’t get close to anyone… and I was afraid to even sing anymore. This huge rift was made between all my friends and my family that… I don’t know if it will all ever be alright again.”
He said the last sentence in a whisper; he could feel the huge weight lifting off his shoulders with every word, and he felt the knot that had been in his chest for years loosen. He looked back up at Gage, seeing him staring down at the table, picking at the granite with a pained expression before looking back up. “I’m so sorry… I-I didn’t know… I didn’t think…”
Adam huffed. “What? You thought that I’d just have a few bruises and broken bones and walk away perfectly fine after all that?” Adam shook his head. “I thought you were my friend. After that I lost trust in a lot of people.”
It was quiet for a few moments, then Gage let out a shaky breath. “I’m sorry…” He looked up to Kris. “For everything.”
Adam paused for a second, before shaking his head and stepping out of the booth. “You really fucked me up, Gage. I can’t forgive you for that.” He walked over to Kris, grabbing the younger man by the arm and pausing for him to match Adam’s pace before walking out of the dinner.
He let out a breath, feeling all the tension and regret from the past six years drain out of him. With a small smile, Adam curled an arm around Kris’ shoulders, pressing his lips gently to Kris’ temple as they walked down the street back toward their apartment.
Everything’s going to come together, again. Adam grinned to himself; his life was finally back to normal, like before. No, it’s not like before. He squeezed Kris closer to him. This is better.
Rating: R
Summary: Adam and Gage finally meet again.
Warnings: cussing, M/M sex suggested
Notes: Here it is! The moment everyone’s been waiting for. Or at least I have. :) Next chapter probably won’t be up for a while.
Kris stared for a moment before he looked away and breathed out, the breath ending on a growl. “Did he say-”
“No.” Adam twisted his hands around the phone before setting it down. Kris looked livid. Why’d this have to happen now? Everything was so perfect. “Baby, you okay?”
He was quiet for a few moments, hard hazel eyes staring holes through the chair across the way. Then he melted back and sighed. “I’m just so sick of all this drama.” He held a hand up as Adam started to speak. “I know, not all of our problems can be solved so easily. It… doesn’t make me hate it any less.”
Adam closed his mouth and nodded, before sweeping Kris back into his arms. He tried to push back the thoughts of Gage, go back to their little bubble of peace. After a few moments, Kris relaxed against him, turning his face into Adam’s shoulder. “He could’ve had better timing, too.” Kris grumbled.
Adam chuckled and petted him, flattening the brown tuffs off hair before bringing his hand down Kris’ back to the dip just above the curve of his ass. “Agreed.”
Kris sighed. “And I was so looking forward to breaking in my new bed…” He paused and adopted a sly smile. “And table, and counter… and maybe a few of the walls.”
Damn. Every thought about everything else was thrown out of his mind and Adam smirked, turning to slide both hands down to Kris’ ass and hauling him up at the same time he stood. “Well, what says we can’t do that, now?”
Kris stared at him for a while, looking a little worried - caring and sweet maybe, too - before he broke into a mischievious grin identical to Adam’s and pulled himself up a bit to nip at his jaw, using his foot to hit his ass. “Get on it, lover.”
Adam licked his lips and carried Kris far enough to the wall separating the kitchen from the living room before pressing him against it, smashing their mouths together and getting to work.
Okay, it’s fine, everything’s going to be fine. Adam took a breath, willing himself to calm down, for his heart to stop hammering in his chest. It’s just a little talk, it’s not like he’s going to try anything.
“You sure about this?” He looked over at Kris in the booth beside him looking just as nervous as Kris felt, but… he was more protective than anything; his arm curled around Adam’s side, a determined set to his jaw, his eyes going between watching the door and the clock on the diner wall. It’s gonna be alright.
Adam nodded and smiled slightly. “Yeah, I’m sure.” He breathed out again. “I just… wanna put all this behind me.”
Kris nodded his head, then straightened up as the door opened. Adam braced himself and looked up.
A man with sand-color hair walked in, his teeth turning his lip ring back and forth, dark eyes scanning the diner until he saw Adam, then Kris. When he saw the younger man he hesitated walking toward them, and Adam looked over to see Kris glaring daggers at him. He placed a hand on Kris’ thigh, squeezing until Kris seemed to relax a bit.
When Gage finally came up he stood awkwardly by the table for a moment, still looking over at Kris. “I didn’t know you were going to have someone else here…”
“Is that going to be a problem?” Adam arched a brow over at Kris. He can be all protective like that for me, now we just have to make him as stubborn when it comes to himself…
Gage paused a moment. “Well, if you’re going to have that attitude…” He trailed off when Kris glared, holding his hands up. “Look, I just wanted to make amends…” For the first time since Adam had seen him he looked truly guilty. Huh… “That’s a little difficult when you’re jumping at everything I do or say.”
“Well considering your past I have good reason, don’t I?”
Gage shrunk back a bit before biting hard into his lip. Adam remembered those days during practice when everyone was arguing back and forth about something, seeing him do something exactly like that when he was trying not to say something. Maybe this will be easier without Kris here…
Adam nudged the younger man, trying to convey everything with his eyes so he would understand. “Babe, maybe you should go off for a bit?”
Kris opened his mouth to argue, then quickly closed it, sending a warning back with his eyes - "Anything happens I am not responsible for how I react." - before standing up out of the booth and walking off to a seat at the bar a few feet away. Adam breathed out a sigh and looked back at Gage.
He looked a bit more comfortable now, the threat of a smile just barely there - not harsh or burning with hate and negativity like before, but almost friendly. “You’re new… boyfriend?”
Yeah, I’m not going to do small talk. “So…” Adam dropped his eyes to the table top, playing with his rings as he spoke. “You said something about amends?”
“Oh, right.” Gage stumbled over the words a bit then huffed. “I… What I did, it was fucked up, man.” He shook his head. “I had no right reacting like that, but…” He paused for a minute, chewing his lip before he let out an explosion of rushed words. “I mean, I never knew that about my brother, and then you come back to practice with him dangling on your arm. I admit, what I did was an overreaction but I did have some of a right to react negatively toward something like that. I mean…” His face reddened a bit, as Adam sat back, letting him get everything out before he started in. “I kinda always thought you were, but Silas? No way. And, just… so you know, I never… I was pretty much on the fence for the whole… gay, thing.”
Adam huffed. “Mmm, so you go from on the fence to beating the shit out of me in an alley for it?”
Gage looked away. “Fuck, I know, I was stupid.” He threw his hands up. “I’ve always been an impulsive little shit! You know that-”
“That doesn’t excuse you for-”
“I’m not using it for an excuse!” They both slumped back in the booths, Gage grimaced and shook his head. “God, I’m trying to apologize and you’re being a stubborn ass like always.”
Adam was quiet for a while, then he sighed and sat up again. “You know, when you did that to me… it… it really messed me up.” He held his hand up when Gage opened his mouth and shook his head. “Part of your apology is letting me get this off my chest, alright?” He waited until Gage nodded and sat back before continuing. “I thought for years that I had to close myself off from everyone, that if I got too close… I’d be broken like I was that night.” He dropped his eyes to the table again, seeing Kris tensing up by the counter and Gage’s face looking even guiltier by the word. I have to finish this. “I couldn’t get close to anyone… and I was afraid to even sing anymore. This huge rift was made between all my friends and my family that… I don’t know if it will all ever be alright again.”
He said the last sentence in a whisper; he could feel the huge weight lifting off his shoulders with every word, and he felt the knot that had been in his chest for years loosen. He looked back up at Gage, seeing him staring down at the table, picking at the granite with a pained expression before looking back up. “I’m so sorry… I-I didn’t know… I didn’t think…”
Adam huffed. “What? You thought that I’d just have a few bruises and broken bones and walk away perfectly fine after all that?” Adam shook his head. “I thought you were my friend. After that I lost trust in a lot of people.”
It was quiet for a few moments, then Gage let out a shaky breath. “I’m sorry…” He looked up to Kris. “For everything.”
Adam paused for a second, before shaking his head and stepping out of the booth. “You really fucked me up, Gage. I can’t forgive you for that.” He walked over to Kris, grabbing the younger man by the arm and pausing for him to match Adam’s pace before walking out of the dinner.
He let out a breath, feeling all the tension and regret from the past six years drain out of him. With a small smile, Adam curled an arm around Kris’ shoulders, pressing his lips gently to Kris’ temple as they walked down the street back toward their apartment.
Everything’s going to come together, again. Adam grinned to himself; his life was finally back to normal, like before. No, it’s not like before. He squeezed Kris closer to him. This is better.