FIC: Choices 5/?
Title: Choices
Rating: R for this chapter NC-17 overall
Summary: The first time they met Kris knew Adam was different to everyone else, he just never realised how different.
Genre: AU
Disclaimer: I know none of these people, nor do I own them, they own themselves. This never happened.
Previous Parts
Part 5
Since vampire politics was the motivation for Adam’s attempted murder Simon knew whatever clan was behind it would try again soon. The fact that Ms Kelly was a driver employed by the network spoke to him spoke of a long-term carefully orchestrated plan. Whoever the clan was would have someone else well placed, probably someone involved some way in the show to carry out the next assassination attempt. Simon knew the only way to ensure Adam’s safety was to conduct thorough background check on everyone Adam had close contact with, starting with the contestants since they were around Adam the most. He knew Adam would not like him snooping around but tough. It was up to him to protect his brother, even if Adam hated it. Booting up his computer, Simon started typing knowing that the rest of his siblings were busy talking to others in the underground or harassing their friends within the court for information. Soon they would have more information and would able to rip apart whoever was trying to kill Adam.
Across town, Kris had just arrived at the hospital relieved that he would be able to spend a lot of time there since the producers had said rehearsals would start after 13:00. Kris knew the time was only changed because the network were trying to think of some way to salvage the show with Adam and Matt being unable to perform for at least another week. Kris didn’t care what idea they came up with since there was nothing he could do to change it. He was happy to go along with it, providing they took it easy on Adam. He knew no one from the network knew Adam was dying because they were still treating him like normal, he was sure if they knew the truth the judges would be taking it easy on him.
With a wave at the nurse he remembered from the night before, Kris headed for Adam’s room, one hand clutching the rock star bear he had made earlier. It was the reason why he was only pulled up outside the hospital at 11:00, he had been determined to make the teddy pair as much like Adam as possible. He had toyed with making a Kris bear but had decided it was a bit too stalker like and would probably just confuse or scare his friend.
He opened the door to Adam’s room, only to find that the bed was empty, he was confused since he hadn’t been called to say Adam was coming home. Spying a nurse nearby, he walked over I the hope that she would have any more information.
“Excuse me, but do you know where Adam Lambert is? He was in that room,” Kris asked pointing at the room in question.
The nurse nodded saying matter-of-factly, “Oh, he’s gone, dear. I reckon it was around forty minutes ago.”
“What? How? He was okay last night,” Kris said in disbelief, feeling tears welling up.
A mortified look on her face the nurse said quickly, “Oh god, no. He hasn’t died. He’s just been moved to another room. The doctor said he should be able to leave after rounds this afternoon.”
“Thank god, where is he?” Kris said with a shuddering breath.
The nurse said blushing, “He’s in room 143. Just carry on down this corridor, take the second left, then the first right and he’s in the second room on your left. I am so sorry for confusing you earlier, Sir.”
“Okay, ...er thanks,” Kris said eventually, not really seeing why he should thank her when she had terrified him and almost brought him to tears but he knew it was only polite.
Kris quickly followed the woman’s instructions, eager to see Adam and reassure himself that the man was alive. Today, he would tell Adam that he knew the truth and hope the man didn’t flay him alive with his words for eavesdropping.
Pasting a smile on his face, Kris opened the door to Adam’s room, surprised to find the man lying in bed with his eyes closed and i-pod on. Seeing the rhythmic movement of Adam’s chest, he wasn’t sure if the man was asleep and he should come back. He quickly pushed aside that thought, he loved Adam and needed to be there even if he was just watching Adam sleep. He knew this could be one of his last chances to see Adam’s masks and armour thrown aside.
Since Adam didn’t react when he walked into the room, Kris quickly made his way to the uncomfortable looking brown faux-leather chair. The chair squeaked as he sat down, causing him to dart a look at Adam, pleased to see the man hadn’t stirred. Holding Adam’s lax hand in his, Kris was shocked by how cold it was, Adam was never cold. He quickly pulled the blankets to cover more of Adam’s body. Since Adam was asleep, Kris decided to take the chance to put his thoughts in order because he didn’t want Adam to feel ambushed.
Kris said softly, “Adam, I love you and I always will, were I not married I would take you into my arms and never let you go. I want you so much but I can’t cheat on Katy. I need to talk to her about everything. It’s weird really, I’ve never looked at another guy and wanted to be with him.”
Although no one was around Kris blushed admitting, “When we met, all I could think about was what it would be like to kiss you, would our first kiss be shy and tentative or passionate and needy. As we spent more time together, I started to think about being in bed with you, tasting every inch of you, feeling your powerful body against mine. It’s not just about sex, I want to spend every day with you, sharing every moment of joy and pain. I want to wake up to your face and go to sleep with your kiss on my mind. I want to do boring things like, go out shopping together, argue over what we’re watching on TV, and go to boring parties and amazing clubs. I want to take you to meet my family and feel your arms around me as we watch another boring vacation slide show.”
Adam lay still as Kris’s words washed over to him, unable to believe what he was hearing. He didn’t want to know this, didn’t want to know how deeply Kris felt for him when the man could not be in his arms. Since he couldn’t listen to Kris’s heart wrenching words any longer, Adam made a point of fidgeting slightly before slowly opening his eyes.
“Good morning Adam, I heard you’ll be leaving after the doctor comes back to see you.”
“Yeah. I can’t wait to go home, have a long hot shower, and get changed into some fresh clothes.”
“I can’t do anything about the shower but I’ve brought some new clothes for you and I’ve got you a little present.” Kris said holding up the teddy bear with a nervous smile.
Adam grinned widely at the bear, it was amazing, and not the kind of present he would have expected Kris to pick. Taking it from Kris, Adam carefully looked at it, loving the spiked hair and the microphone in hand. He marvelled as he realised the bear had a pair of spiked heeled boots on and a black choker.
“It’s amazing, really amazing. Thank you, Kris.” Adam said squeezing the man’s hand tightly.
With a Kris said softly, “I'm glad you like it. I was on my way back to your room last night when I heard you talking to Simon and I know everything. It doesn’t change anything between us and I'm not going to abandon you. I'm here for you 24/7.”
Adam froze, desperately trying to remember if he had mentioned his nature the previous night because he couldn’t see Kris accepting his vampire status so well. Most people ran for their nearest church, synagogue, or mosque once they found out. It was a reaction Adam could understand and probably would have had if he had found out about vampires before he was turned.
Kris’s voice cracked as he said, “I know you are dying and you need a donor. Adam, I don’t know how you feel about it but what about seeing if I could be your donor?”
“Kris, it’s not that easy.”
“Yes it is, Adam. I'm not going to let you die if I can help it, I can’t lose you.”
Relieved that the cameras in his room had been disconnected thanks to Adrian, Adam tried to think of a way to explain everything in plain English. He wanted, needed Kris to know what he was letting himself in for, so that the man would realise just how much it would change everything.
“Kris, just listen to me and do not say anything until I am finished,” Adam said eventually, fumbling around for a way to start the conversation.
“Kris, being my donor could be dangerous for you and I don’t want you to be hurt. Being a donor isn’t as easy as it sounds, it will seriously disrupt your life. Can you honestly say you won’t freak when you realise what a commitment you have made? Kris, vampires are brutal and there are many who would happily tear every donor limb from limb. Kris, look at me and tell me it doesn’t scare you.”
Kris stared at his friend in worry, he had no idea why Adam was suddenly thinking he was a vampire, clearly, the concussion was more severe than he had imagined. Before he could say anything Adam’s face changed before his eyes; Adam’s eyes became a deep green colour as long white, sharp fangs descended. He couldn’t believe what his eyes were showing him, how Adam’s appearance had changed. Kris quickly pinched his arm to make sure he wasn’t dreaming.
Satisfied it was happening Kris looked at Adam and instead of the expected overwhelming fear, all he felt was concern, hope, and curiosity. He had been fond of vampire tales as a child but he had never heard of a vampire having green eyes.
As crazy as it seemed Kris knew it was true so he said quickly, “You’re really a vampire!”
Adam arched his eyebrow saying with a sigh, “Yeah. Now do you want to hear my sorry story?”
Kris nodded quickly, needing to know how Adam had been made into a vampire and what he could do help, that wasn’t that something he had never imagined thinking.
Watching Kris move into a more comfortable position Adam said softly, “I was turned in 1903 by Paul and became part of the Lambert clan. My clan has always used willing donors instead of indiscriminate hunting. It’s not like just anyone can be a donor, it has to be someone the vampire is compatible with, it’s a bit hard to explain, but a vampire knows if a human is compatible. We make sure that any donor is told everything so they know just what they are letting themselves in for. Just because a human is compatible doesn’t mean they can be a donor, we have to choose carefully who to tell about us because if the wrong person found out it could mean our death. Kris, if you become my donor then we will be spending a lot of time together and I can’t let you tell Katy about us because if anyone finds out, we will all be killed. It is permitted for a vampire to tell a donor about their nature and vampire world but that’s it.”
A quick look at Kris told him the man wasn’t about to freak out so Adam continued, “I’ve had many donors over the years who I have had different relationships with, there has really only one donor I have had a serious romantic relationship with, so you don’t have to worry that I'll pounce you. Isaac was a donor I found almost as compatible as you. We were lovers for a long time and I can honestly say that he was only love. How often a vampire needs to feed from a donor depends upon how compatible they are. I only had to feed from Isaac twice week, with other donors I’ve had to feed every three hours. Joe was my last donor and had been since we met four years ago. I only had to feed from him every two days.”
“So you haven’t got any donor at the moment?”
“Nope but I can hold on until I find someone else, Kris.” Adam said reassuringly.
Kris said wryly, “Right. Adam, how long have you been without blood and how long can a vampire survive?”
Adam said calmly, “I haven’t been able to drink any human blood since the day you confronted me about acting strange. I managed to get blood from a sanctuary and it was a onetime only deal. I got a drink from them called blood wine that I’ve been using. Adrian gave me a blood transfusion, which has given me probably another day. As for how long a vampire can live without blood, it depends on the vampire. I think the record is twenty days before going insane and having to be killed.”
“Adrian knows about you?” Kris asked jealous since Adam had only jut met the man.
“Yeah. He’s a friend of my brother Simon and one of his relatives was a donor for my older sister, Katarina before she died.”
Satisfied with Adam’s explanation Kris said, “Okay. Adam, the obvious solution is to use me as a donor and we can sort everything out with Katy and living arrangements later. Now do we do this here?”
“Are you sure about this, Kris? I don’t want you to freak out about it later or accuse me or pressurising you.”
Slightly insulted at the idea that he wouldn’t be able to handle it Kris said passionately, “Adam, I'm sure. I wouldn’t still be offering if I didn’t want to. I love you Adam and if I am not going to watch you die when I have the power to stop it.”
“We can do it at home. Adrian said he’ll be discharging me soon.”
Kris answered, “Great. Wait, how can you go out in the sun?”
Adam explained thoughtfully, “There is a form of sun block created to give vampires protection from the sun which works wonderfully. It can last for 24 hours at a time but if possible, I reapply it every eight hours. It’s the same sun block that Matt was helping me put on earlier. I’ve got two versions of it, one stored as a moisturiser and one as a sun block, which one I carry around depends on the circumstances.”
“So the sun can’t hurt you but can you still be hurt by crosses and garlic?”
Adam laughed softly, “Neither of those can hurt us, Kris. The vampire nation just encouraged the old rumours to give us more protection should anyone discover the truth. The sun can still kill us if we’ve got no protection. We can be killed by being stabbed by silver in the heart, being burnt until there is nothing left, by decapitation or massive head trauma.”
“You’re lucky the crash didn’t do you more damage then.” Kris commented thoughtfully.
Adam was just about to explain that the crash had all the hallmarks of being an assassination attempt when there was a knock on the door. He grinned when the door opened to reveal a smiling Adrian.
Walking into the room Adrian opened the chart he was carrying saying, “Afternoon Adam. You’re doing well so you can go home. If you to get any headaches come straight back.”
Adam nodded, “So when can I leave? Please say soon, Adrian. As much as I love your company, I hate this place.”
“I'm pleased to announce you can leave now providing you’ve got transport. Your discharge papers are at the desk.”
“Wonderful, let me get changed and I'll be out of your hair.” Adam said getting out of bed.
Adrian smiled, “I think that’s my cue to leave. Bye Adam and I mean this in the nicest possible way, I don’t want to see you soon.”
Once Adrian had left the room, Adam threw off the hospital gown and unconcerned about his nakedness, changed into the clothes Kris had brought, amused to see that they were his favourite. Once he was dressed, Adam looked over at Kris, swallowing at the hungry look on the man’s face.
“Let’s go then,” Adam, said picking up the bag on the floor and his rock-star teddy.
Kris nodded and the pair headed to the front desk to get Adam signed out and home where he belonged. As he watched Adam signing the discharge papers, Kris realised that Adam’s skin was always warm and that didn’t make sense. It was something he would have to ask Adam about later, once he knew that his vampire was okay.
End Part 5