Fic: The Tie [25/66]
“How about super talented?”
“It has to be more specific than that.”
“Well,” said Kris, “you’re good at lots of things…”
“Just pick one,” Adam said with a flat voice.
“Okay then, singing. You have an incredible voice. Your turn.”
“I guess I can cook pretty well.”
“You’re an amazing cook! I can’t remember when I’ve eaten better, Adam. Alright, I’ve got one. You know how to dress; you always look hot.” Kris heard the scratching of a pen. He lay back on his bed and shifted his phone to his other ear, waiting for Adam to take his turn. “Adam?”
“God, I hate this,” he said sulkily. “‘List 10 wonderful things about Adam Lambert’ …honestly.”
“Do you want to do it some other time?” I wish this weren’t so hard for him. I wish he could really understand how amazing he is. Kris was more than happy to help him with his therapy homework; he only hoped that Adam would be able to do it by himself someday.
“No. I was supposed to have it ready for Monday and she’ll kill me if it’s not done by our next session.”
“I doubt that.”
Adam sighed. “Okay I have one. I’m a decent brother.”
“I’m sure you’re more than decent. My turn. You have a very talented mouth…the way you make me babble incoherently when you bite me and--”
“I can’t put that on here!” Adam giggled, “Sheila is going to read this, you know.”
Kris chuckled, happy to have made him laugh when he’d obviously been feeling uncomfortable. “Awww, come on, don’t you want her to know how much I love your exceptional tongue? How I go crazy when you lick me right on my--”
“Kris Allen!” Adam laughed loudly, “you bad rabbit…how am I ever going to finish this when all I want to do now is jerk off to your sexy voice?”
“Well now you have something to look forward to when we’re done,” he said cheerfully.
“Promise?”
“You better believe it. And this time I’m going to come thinking of your cock in my mouth.”
“You little tease!” Adam groaned. “Okay, fuck, let’s get this over with. Go, go!”
Ha. He just needed a little more motivation! “You’re charming. I remember when we met at that Starbucks almost two months ago and you charmed the pants off of Katy. She still talks about you when I see her there.”
“Yeah, I have been known for my ways with women. Before I came out, girls used to want to date me all the time even though I wasn’t that good looking.”
“Oh I can’t imagine a time when you weren’t devastating, baby.”
“Trust me, I wasn’t. But let’s move on,” he said quickly. “Okay, how about…well I’m good with kids.”
“Are you really?”
“Yep, my little cousins all think I’m the coolest!”
“That’s awesome! I bet you’d be a great dad someday,” Kris said without thinking. Oh shit, that’s going to be awkward. “Um, I mean, if you ever, that is…”
“I used to dream about having kids,” Adam said quietly. “I just never thought it would happen, especially not after…” He cleared his throat. “Anyway, it’s your turn.”
Damn, way to put your foot in your mouth. “Well, you once told me that you’re very loyal to people you care about.”
“I am; that’s really true,” Adam said, sounding a little brighter. “Ummm, let’s see, my mom always tells me that I have pretty eyes.”
“Gorgeous eyes,” sighed Kris, thinking about the way he got lost in them so easily.
“Okay, how many is that? Eight! Thank god, we’re almost done.”
Kris knew exactly what he wanted to say for his last contribution. “You’re brave.”
Adam huffed.
“It’s true,” said Kris. He heard the pen scribbling again.
“Fine, I wrote it down. Last one, finally. Oh, I’ve got it! I have really great taste in men. She will obviously agree since she’s met you.”
Technically it was more of a compliment to Kris. “Then it goes without saying that I have great taste, too. You should just write, Adam Lambert is a hot, sexy wolf.”
“Ha! I will, too. Let’s just see what she has to say about that!” Adam said, laughing. “Okay, can we please get to the sex now that I did my homework like a good boy? Pleeeassee?” he whined.
“You have certainly earned it,” Kris responded. “Let me just give Matt the heads up.” As a courtesy to his housemate, Kris always gave him the chance to protect his ears from Kris’ loud moaning and cursing. Tonight Matt opted for headphones.
After Kris had been late to work that time a week and a half ago, they had agreed to try out a sort of schedule. When Kris had school on Monday and Wednesday nights, he and Adam would just talk on the phone when he got home. Tuesdays and Thursdays, Kris would visit Adam after work for a few hours and they’d spend most of Friday and all Saturday together. Kris had insisted that he would go home on Sunday mornings because he needed a day to himself to work on his music, do homework, hang out with Matt or just relax. It had been difficult to ask for this, knowing that Adam wouldn’t like it, but he had do it no matter how scary it felt. However, he’d been pleasantly surprised and relieved to discover that Adam had been completely fine with the idea. So far it had been working out, although Kris thought that he might need to cut out the Tuesday night visits since his boss had complained last Wednesday and today that he wasn’t focused enough and looked tired.
All in all, they ended up having phone sex about three times a week, and Kris was starting to become a little more directive, which he enjoyed immensely. Not only was it mind blowingly hot to make Adam come undone over the phone, but he also felt that it was another sign of how much Adam trusted him.
He returned to his room and shut the door. “Let’s go hands free, baby.” Kris had recently invested in a blue tooth earpiece and it made phone sex a whole lot easier and more enjoyable.
“You got it. I’m ready, angel, you have no idea how ready.”
“About as ready as I am to suck you down, gorgeous.”
Adam groaned in response and Kris heard the sound of him shifting on the bed.
“You’re already out of your pants, aren’t you?” Kris asked suspiciously.
“Couldn’t help it, lover, I’m so turned on.”
“Hmmm, you’ll have to pay the price for that. No touching until I say so.”
“Fuck, I love it when you get like this,” Adam said hoarsely, “tell me what else to do, angel.”
“Take off your shirt. Underwear stays on.” Kris was getting excited; Adam had never directly asked to be commanded and it was hot. He knew he’d have to be careful, though, not to get too demanding or it might be triggering. It was also extremely moving to know Adam trusted his judgment that much. Kris stripped down completely and stretched out on his bed. “Now I want you to sit on the side of your bed and lay back, but keep your feet on the ground.”
“Okay.”
“Close your eyes. You’re alone in your room, just relaxing, and then I walk in and see you lying there…beautiful, sexy. I’m walking over to you now, standing at the edge of your bed and looking down at you. Can you see me?”
“Yes,” Adam whispered.
“I’m running my hands down your naked chest, down your torso…” He heard Adam moan quietly. “I’ve got my hands all over you, touching your thighs, your hips…wiggle those hips for me, baby, right to the edge of the bed and spread those gorgeous legs of yours nice and wide.”
Adam was panting softly.
“I’m kneeling down between your thighs now and licking my lips at the sight of your hard cock just waiting for my mouth.”
“Baby…please let me touch…”
“No,” Kris said gently, “I’m doing the touching now. My hand is creeping up your thigh, then your hip, now it’s rubbing circles over your hot dick, over and over…”
“Ohhhh, Angel,” Adam moaned huskily.
“I’ve got my fingers under the band of your underwear and I’m pulling them off. Take them off, Adam.”
“Yesss,” he hissed.
“Now hands behind your head.”
“Angel…angel…angel,” Adam repeated, whining.
“Do it,” Kris said firmly, “put your hands behind your head.”
“Okay.”
Kris could tell that Adam was gritting his teeth. Just a little bit longer. God, this is so hot. He was having a hard time not touching himself, too. “Look at you, all laid out for me…I’m going to take that beautiful cock of yours right into my mouth. I’ve got my lips inches away from it now.”
Adam whimpered.
“Feel my warm breath, my tongue licking your hot skin…”
“Baby…angel…oh god…please, please…” Adam begged.
“Soon. I’m opening my mouth wide now, feel it close down around your cock, all the way down…feel the tip hit the back of my throat.”
“Please!!!”
“Yes. But don’t come until I say.”
“Uhhhh, god….s-so good,” Adam stuttered and moaned with relief.
“I’m swallowing you down…feel my lips wrapping around you, my throat squeeze your dick, up and down…up and down…” Kris grasped his length and began to stroke himself. Sweat broke out on his temple and he tried to keep it together, to make it last. He licked his lips and swallowed dryly. “You’re fucking my mouth…thrusting your long, hard cock up into my throat over and over again…”
“Yes…YES…shit…ohhhhh god….please, let me come!”
“Almost,” Kris croaked, panting now. “I’m sucking your dick…hard…harder…you’re so close…”
“OH GOD! PLEASE BABY!”
“Come.”
“OH…OH…YESSSSSSS!!!!”
“I’m…drinking you all up…” Kris squeezed his eyes shut and shuddered as he came quietly. “Every last…drop…so sweet…” he moaned, breathing heavily.
“Ohhhhhh, angel, my angel…so sexy…god…”
“That was…so hot,” Kris breathed, still trembling slightly from the effort it had taken not to cry out.
“Damn,” said Adam, “you need to direct things more often. That was fucking fantastic!”
Kris grinned, please with himself. I like taking charge. I wonder how far we’ll get with that, though. He yawned and stretched. “Mmmm, wish we could snuggle now.”
“Me too. You’re coming over tomorrow after work, right?”
“Yeah. Can’t wait. So I was thinking about Thanksgiving next week. Should I like, bring something? I mean, I can’t really cook, but I could get something.”
“Aww, that’s sweet, but you don’t have to do anything.”
“I just want to help out. Is your whole family coming?”
“Well, a lot of them. Not as many as Halloween, but it will be a decent show, I’m sure. You can help by letting me give you a tour of my house,” Adam said mischievously.
“Ooo, sounds like an adventure.”
“Oh it will be. Kris?”
“Yeah, baby.”
“Are you really going home for two weeks next month?” He sounded a little sad.
Ugh, this is going to get sticky. “Well, my parents are expecting me to. I always celebrate Christmas with them. Um, doesn’t your family have plans?”
“Nope. We’re Jewish.”
“You’re kidding! Wow, how did I not know that about you?”
“I guess it never came up. Plus, I’m not really that religious; it’s mostly about the traditions so we’ll be doing something in early December this year.”
“Oh.” There was an awkward pause. Kris had the distinct feeling that Adam wanted to get invited to Arkansas for Christmas break.
“Angel, how am I going to survive without you for two whole weeks? My right hand will probably fall right off,” he said, trying to sound light-hearted, but Kris knew better.
“Adam, you know I would love nothing more than to have you come home with me, but--”
“Really?” Adam said excitedly.
“Of course, but…it’s not that simple.” How am I going to explain this? “My family is…well, kind of strange.” That was putting it lightly. Although Kris’ parents and brother were openly supportive of Kris being gay, the rest of his relatives barely tolerated it. Sure, they all got along well, as long as Kris pretended to be straight when he was around them. Bringing a boyfriend to the family Christmas celebration would cause a riot.
“Strange? What do you mean?”
“Um, well, they’re not really big on homosexual couples,” Kris said, cringing.
“Are you kidding me?” Adam said, suddenly sounding outraged. “Your parents don’t--”
“No no, my parents are fine, totally fine and so is my brother. In fact, they’d probably love you to pieces. But everyone else, not so much.” He sighed heavily. “I essentially pretend to be straight during family get-togethers.” God, I feel like such an idiot. Here he is, being so brave about his trauma, and I’m this big wimp over something way less difficult. He’d always been ashamed for not standing up to his relatives, but his people pleasing ways were a barrier; he couldn’t handle the conflict. “Adam?”
Silence.
“I know…it’s awful. I’m so sorry. Please don’t be upset. Adam?”
“Kris. I’m just stunned here. How could you let them treat you that way?”
“I don’t know. It’s always been like that. Remember how I told you that I never used to be assertive?”
“Listen, this is totally not okay, not at all. You’re my rabbit, but no one else’s, you got that?”
“Adam, you don’t understand. I…” Shit. Just be honest with him. He’s been so open with you. “Can I tell you something about me?”
“Please do.” Kris would have bet a million dollars that Adam was crossing his arms at this very moment. He got up and wiped his hands on a towel, then threw on his pajama bottoms and flopped back down on the bed. “When I was little, somehow I got this crazy idea in my head that if I was perfect, if I did what everyone wanted and never got mad, then people would love me.”
“Angel, oh my god. How could you think that? You have every right to be angry about things, Kris, to do what you want no matter what the fuck other people think.” Adam sounded indignant on his behalf and Kris loved him for it.
“I know, I know…but I never really understood that until I met you. Adam, do you have any idea how many times I’ve had my heart broken because of this problem?”
“How many?”
“At least ten.”
Adam gasped. “Ten? Oh my poor angel! Why? Who in their right mind would do that to you?”
“It wasn’t their fault. They didn’t really know me; hell, I didn’t even know me. They all got tired of being with someone who resembled more of a doormat and less of a partner. Adam, don’t you understand how important you are to me? Because of you, I’m learning that I don’t want to be that person anymore.”
“Wow. Kris, I don’t know what to say. No wait, actually I do. You’ve helped me so much…let me help you with this Christmas thing.”
Kris shook his head sadly. “Adam you’re so lucky. There are so many people in your life who love you so much, no matter what. I…wish I had that.” He curled on his side, suddenly feeling small and insecure.
“Oh baby, I wish I was there right now to hold you,” Adam said soothingly. “Kris, your relatives don’t deserve you. You’ve got to show them what a kick ass guy you are! Come on, let me come home with you and we’ll shake them up good, and I’m not just saying that to be selfish because I’ll miss you.”
He’s right, you know he is. But it’s so scary! What will they say? Will my parents be mad at me for rocking the boat? Will my relatives ever speak to me again? Deep down inside he felt that he would deserve it if they never did. No, that’s not right! Fuck! “Adam…I don’t know…I mean, that sounds incredible. I want to do it, I do…it’s just…I’m scared,” he whispered. “I want them to love me.” He felt his throat tighten and let out a little sob.
“Kris, I’m coming over.”
“What? Now? But…but…”
“Yes, right now.”
“Okay,” he said, sniffling. He couldn’t deny that he really needed the comfort at the moment. “I love you.”
“I love you, too, angel. I’ll be there soon.”
Kris hung up and lay there crying, wishing he had a family like Adam’s. He remembered how they had kissed openly in front of everyone at Halloween, how they had all been so supportive. Why can’t my family be like that? He hugged his knees and rocked himself, weeping bitterly. It felt like hours had passed instead of minutes when he finally heard the doorbell. He dragged himself up and walked out of his room just as Matt was leaving his.
“Kris! Man, are you okay?” he asked, staring at Kris’ tear-streaked face.
He nodded. “That’s Adam at the door. He’s coming to help me out. I’ll be alright, Matt. Thanks.”
“Are you sure?”
“Yes. Don’t worry, really.” He kept walking until he reached the door and opened it to find a very concerned looking Adam standing there.
“Oh angel,” he whispered, and grabbed Kris up in a tight embrace. “Come on, baby.”
Adam led him back to his room and lay down with him. As soon as he had wrapped his limbs around Kris in the small bed, Kris let loose a fresh wave of tears. “W-why don’t they l-love me?” he sobbed.
“Shhhh, it’s okay,” Adam said, kissing the top of Kris’ head and squeezing him. “I’m sure they love you.”
“N-no, they d-don’t.”
“Baby, my sweet Kris, they just don’t understand. Shhhhh, it’s going to be alright.” He rocked Kris gently and stroked his head. “We just need to show them how awesome you are.”
“They’ll hate m-me.”
“Hey now…hey. Listen to me. Your parents love you; that’s the most important thing. If your relatives are going to be idiots, then it’s their loss, but don’t let them have the satisfaction of pushing you down. It doesn’t matter if I come with you or stay here, but you can’t let them make you someone you’re not.”
Kris sniffed and hiccupped a few times. “You’re right, I know you are. I…I don’t want to be that guy anymore. But, I don’t think I’ll be able to do it without you. Will you come home with me?”
“You better believe it, baby. They’re not going to know what hit them,” he said with a chuckle and kissed Kris on the temple.
Kris giggled a little. “Okay, but you can’t leave my side, and we’ll have to sleep in my old room…the bed is probably smaller than this one.”
“It’s going to be amazing; we’ll work it out. Besides, I like being cuddled up this close to you.”
Kris turned over to face Adam. “Thank you,” he said, gazing with watery eyes at his love. He’s incredible. I’m so lucky. He felt the tiniest bit of rebelliousness creep up inside him at the thought of shocking his stuffy, disapproving relatives.
Adam lifted Kris’ chin and looked deep into his eyes. “I love you, angel.”
Kris stared back, his heart overflowing with emotion. “Adam,” he said softly, “make love to me.”
Adam smiled and put his hand at the back of Kris’ neck, then kissed him tenderly, slowly, sweeping his tongue in and out of Kris’ mouth and nibbling lightly on his lips. He trailed his fingers softly up and down his naked back and gently pushed down his pajama pants to caress his soft curving backside. Kris shivered and surrendered completely, wanting to be taken care of. Adam left his mouth and kissed all the marks on his neck, shoulders and chest, lightly tonguing them while he continued to work Kris’ pants off. When Kris was completely bare, Adam wrapped his long fingers around Kris’ semi-hard length and began to stroke him slowly while nuzzling his neck.
Kris moaned and Adam kissed him again with more passion this time, rolling him all the way onto his back and continuing to work his flesh until it was hard.
“Condoms…in that drawer,” Kris said, pointing to his bedside table.
Adam chuckled softly. “Thank god. The one time I’m not prepared…I just wanted to get here fast,” he said and ran his hand down Kris’ cheek. He kissed the tip of his nose and got up.
Kris watched him undress and felt that whatever he and Adam had to go through to be together, it was worth it. I don’t ever want to lose him. He knew their relationship was still young, but he meant it. Adam laid down and went back to kissing Kris for a minute, then pulled back and hovered over him, resting on one elbow. “I’m going to take care of you, angel.” He sucked on Kris’ earlobe and gradually made his way down, mouthing and licking his soft skin until he reached the hard flesh and took it into his mouth.
“Ohhhhh….feels so good,” Kris groaned. He’s getting really good at that. He looked down and saw Adam smile with his mouth full. Adam hummed and began to massage Kris’ thighs as he sucked and licked. “Mmmm…baby, yesssss.” The little pricks of pain from Adam’s thumbs on his bruises swirled and mixed with the pleasure building in his groin. “More…” he said, starting to breath rapidly. Adam took Kris’ hands and placed them on the back of his head. Whoa, he wants me to… Kris was trying to stay still, but he twined his fingers in Adam’s hair, gently.
Adam popped off softly and gazed up at Kris. “Let go…do what feels natural, Kris.”
“But…”
“It’s okay, I promise. Let go, baby. Let me take care of you.”
Wow. This is… Kris felt his eyes prickle with tears and then relaxed his body.
Grinning, Adam returned to his task. It was hard at first, trying not to think about hurting Adam, but soon Kris forgot about everything except for the glorious feeling of Adam’s hot mouth sliding up and down him, taking him in deeper than ever before. He started to grip Adam’s hair tighter and couldn’t help but buck up into his mouth a little. Adam moaned and sucked harder, which only encouraged Kris to let go completely. He felt the tip of his length hit the back of Adam’s throat and cried out softly. Faster and faster went Adam’s mouth until the sensations were almost more than Kris could bear. “God…yes YES ohhhhh…Adam, baby…I’m so close,” he moaned, wanting to give him enough time to pull off. But Adam only clenched Kris’ hips and swallowed him right down. It was exquisite. Kris thrust hard into Adam’s mouth and felt like he might pass out with pleasure. “ADAM! OH GOD!” His orgasm erupted throughout his body, pumping his seed right down Adam’s throat.
Adam coughed several times, cum dribbling down his chin. But he was smiling. He wiped a hand across his mouth and beamed at Kris.
Kris had no words. His jaw hung open and tears streamed from his eyes as he stared at Adam, the love of his life who had just accepted all of him without reservation. He reached out and Adam embraced him, kissing the corners of his eyes and then his mouth. They entwined their arms and legs and kissed long and hard, tears and spit and cum everywhere. Eventually, Adam started moving against Kris rhythmically. Kris spread his legs wide Adam entered him, thrusting gently at first, then faster and faster.
Kris gave into the sensations, moaning, crying out as he fell apart for the second time and thinking that this must be what heaven felt like, vulnerable, broken open and adored...safe.
Chapter 26 Part 1