What brought me to Xanga was the untimely death of one of its bloggers, a woman named Stephanie Chau who died from an overdose of extasy in early November 2001
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Well, sounds cynical, but I know that after about the first year, Serge and I didn't really "grow" or fall in love more. Time just kind of went by, and I felt I knew him after two years the same as after only one. So maybe these people just honestly get so used to having the relationship, and wake up one day and realize they don't really love this person anymore, they're just so used to them.
yeah.. thats true. It is not cynical at all and I think many people experience that, stagnation after a while. I know I experienced that with Brian.. 5 years is so long, I guess that the length doesn't matter but it still seems odd to me. The part of me that wants to believe in fairy tale romances and true loves has a hard time accepting the reality.
I'm not sure if I ever loved Brian. I think he and I were in a state of comfort the entire relationship but it worked for what it did.
How are things between you and Serge? Is he responding to you better or what?
Hmm...we don't talk. I IM'ed him once or twice, sent him an email once, and his responses were just so bland and impersonal. So basically, I'm just gonna leave him alone. If he wants to be in touch, be friends, he can contact me. He's known from day one that I want to be, and will put all the effort necessary out there to remain friends, but if he can't hold up his end of the deal, it's pretty pointless.
His birthday's in 3 weeks, so I'll probably just shoot him a quick email then, which he will probably lamely respond to, and then I'm just going to let him go. I think I just have to accept that our two years was a learning experience, nothing more, as much as I wish that wasn't true.
I was in a similar situation like that with my best friend from high school. I treated her the same way Serge has been treating you and like you, she stopped trying.
Hm.. well I think I know what you mean by learning experience because thats how I think of my relationship with Brian but would you care to elaborate on that?
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I'm not sure if I ever loved Brian. I think he and I were in a state of comfort the entire relationship but it worked for what it did.
How are things between you and Serge? Is he responding to you better or what?
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His birthday's in 3 weeks, so I'll probably just shoot him a quick email then, which he will probably lamely respond to, and then I'm just going to let him go. I think I just have to accept that our two years was a learning experience, nothing more, as much as I wish that wasn't true.
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Hm.. well I think I know what you mean by learning experience because thats how I think of my relationship with Brian but would you care to elaborate on that?
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