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krimsen_tear

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May 26, 2004 22:39

Well I haven't written in here...in forever. It seems like it anyway. I guess everytime I get on here to write I always end up looking at everyone else's journal and not having time to write in mine. So, I'm writing today. On our way home me and my sister saw a drunk driver...so many emotions go along with that. I dunno it was crazy...b/c they ( Read more... )

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i la la la laaaave you! bleachin_bnw May 26 2004, 20:57:32 UTC

sorry, the subject titles something else. lol. but yeha i had a good time today Kels! really i did! but yeah that whole drunk driver things CREEPY, honestly who gets drunk on a wednesday?! i dont. gosh i save it for the weekends;) lol j/playin' but yea. i know what you feel about hurt. and it's undescribable. i mean really, when ya get down to it hurt is hurt. and you can't really help it. no matter how much of it there is, it doesn't seem to go away... and it ALWAYS creeps up at night, AlWaYs! night's are HARD, b/c you're by yourself, and you reflect, then get thoughts. and it's not cool. but yeah tonight's marked 2 weeks of not cutting, and i'm just waiting for the fall ya know? i mean i know it's coming...(and ewwwwWWWWEEwwwewwewweww a bug was just on my screen!ick,vomit,gag,spu, aahhhh) but w/e i guess! night night
luv luv
-bnw

Re: i la la la laaaave you! lacey_05 May 27 2004, 11:19:46 UTC

Well if ya'll would just keep close to God maybe you wouldn't hurt so much. Give all your crap to him. I just don't understand why it feels so wonderful to freakin cut yourself. I mean wouldn't it be so much easier just to fall on your knees and pray and have God help you???? I just get so irritated and frustrated when I read these entries and all you can do is talk about waiting for the fall and you just know that it's coming. How could anyone long to cut themselves? Just Pray!
I love you guys

heh krimsen_tear May 27 2004, 14:12:31 UTC

Umm, well I dunno, i think you got the wrong impression. i don't hurt as much anymore. i don't WANT to cut b/c i hurt. its not like that anymore. i did talk to God. and me and God are cool now. the whole cutting thing is just a stupid thing that i FEEL like I need to do. its not b/c I'm hurting anymore...thats not how it is anymore. I mean....i haven't done it again. its hard to explain. but i wanted you to know that its not b/c I hurt so much. i mean yea, i have my good days and my bad days and the hurting i have no is for the world...not for me. i can't explain it...

I Hear Ya anonymous May 27 2004, 21:14:55 UTC

Hey Chicka ( ... )