I have never felt so fat in my life.

I'm so tired I feel constantly on the verge of vomiting. It doesn't help that everyone (including my boss) is like ZOMG LET'S GET IN-N-OUT BURGER AT 11:30 WHEN WE'RE NOT EATING DISGUSTINGLY RICH FOOD AT GALA EVENTS ALEX YOU'RE COMING NO QUESTIONS. Seriously, this morning I forced down a peach for breakfast then ran downstairs before I had to ( Read more... )

And thusly shall this entry be titled: Joshua Bell is a Dirty Old Man who Can't Hold his Liquor ( Read more... )

I'm allowing myself a few seconds to feel sorry for myself, and then I am snapping out of it ( Read more... )

I'm tired of not liking myself, and striving for a level perfection that I'll never achieve. I don't think I was a perfectionist until I reached college, and now I can't help but set these unattainable goals for myself, whether it's the way my body looks, or what grades I get, or what internship hires me, and then I just upbraid myself until I ( Read more... )

just get through this week just get through this week just get through this week then DONE.

I want to stay here this summer. I don't want to go home, where there is nothing to do, where I have to work at Fahnestock. I want a tiny apartment in the West Village and any job at all that isn't fahnestock. I want to magically have an extended network of friends, to be able to have dinner parties and go to jazz clubs and concerts with people ( Read more... )

Every time I come back from a weekend away, the kitchen is a disaster ( Read more... )

We buried my grandmother today. It was a lot easier than a lot of the other funerals I've been to. Mostly cause she was 95 and I knew that she had a good life and that, really, her life wasn't cut short in any way ( Read more... )

It's amazing how my opinion of the city makes a 180 the moment it starts to get warm out. The trees are budding, the daffodils are blooming, and I even see some hints of pink on the magnolia and plum trees. The Greenmarket is bustling with people and there are more and more vendors each weekend. It makes me remember why I love this city so much ( Read more... )