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Why? Why does this happen? Why do I always mess things up? Someone needs to just put me out of my misery already. Honestly, all I've been doing is making other people feel bad. I'm stupid. I'm a stupid, stupid fool.
I regret telling him. I do. I regret hearing that he feels the same way. I wish he didn't feel the same way because although it would be hard, I think this is worse. It's horrible knowing that he likes me too, but nothing can be done about it. He could never be with a stupid muggleborn. I hate being a muggleborn! Why can't I be a stupid bloody pureblood? I'm physically sick. I can't deal with this. I didn't think I'd have real feelings for someone so soon. Chad was a dumb crush, obviously physical. I don't know what Theodore is. All I know is that there's something there, for whatever reason.
Now Blaise wants to break up for him. Obviously, I want that to happen. But that would make Theodore more depressed than he is, and I don't want that. I am mental.
I regret telling him. I do. I regret hearing that he feels the same way. I wish he didn't feel the same way because although it would be hard, I think this is worse. It's horrible knowing that he likes me too, but nothing can be done about it. He could never be with a stupid muggleborn. I hate being a muggleborn! Why can't I be a stupid bloody pureblood? I'm physically sick. I can't deal with this. I didn't think I'd have real feelings for someone so soon. Chad was a dumb crush, obviously physical. I don't know what Theodore is. All I know is that there's something there, for whatever reason.
Now Blaise wants to break up for him. Obviously, I want that to happen. But that would make Theodore more depressed than he is, and I don't want that. I am mental.