Kid just gave me my Christmas presents...my presents for him are not even that good. Looks like it's back to the mall for me!

I really wonder at times what's going on in my head and what causes me to be so stupid at times. I nearly lost the best friendship I have ever had and probably will ever have. I did something so horribly cruel, and I would take it back so very fast if I could. Well, maybe I wouldn't take back the action, but I would prevent the pain. Seeing him so ( Read more... )

I am so lucky. Lucky and stupid. Better update coming soon.

I am really sick of fighting with everyone in my life right now. It seems that that's all I can do nowadays. I'm really starting to think that I'm not meant to have any good relationships with anyone or get close to any of my friends and stay close to them. I knew it would just make things worse if I stayed around, so I flew to Indiana today and I' ( Read more... )

Today is two months. Seven to go. I cannot wait for this child.

I must be destined to never have lasting relationship with anyone. I am such a fuckup.

I am one of the most selfish people I know. Selfish and jealous. The second I think someone is moving in on my territory I throw my sheilds up and try to keep the person away. I really need to stop. It's not going to get me anywhere but sitting alone crying because I pushed everyone away. Going off of what Claire said about feeling left behind when ( Read more... )

I can't even keep a platonic wife. That makes me very sad. Very, very sad. I should have known things wouldn't have worked out. I mean hello, I took her on Jerry Springer to confess my love to her and she threw a chair right upside my head. Well, I guess all good things do come to an end. Can we still be friends?

Last time I got in a fight with Kid, I passed out and wound up in the hospital. Last night we were fighting again and he started coughing really bad. Then he said "ew" and I asked what was wrong. He said he tasted blood that time. I forgot everything that made me mad at that moment and dragged him outside and grabbed a cab. I told the driver to go ( Read more... )

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Anyone who's heard our old music would know why I am so incredibly excited right now.

( And for anyone who hasn't heard the song )

You really want to know what's wrong? Fine, I'll tell you. I go so far out of my way to make you happy that my wife gets fucking pissed off at me for spending too much time with you. Then you go and say that when she shows up, she'll make you much happier than you have been. Thanks a whole fucking lot. Don't come to me to make you happy again. Jerk