Why does it feel like everything is happening all at once around me? I feel overwhelmed with worrying about other people and their situations. I just want to make sure everyone around me is okay, but i can't, and i never will be able to ( Read more... )

bwaaahhhh group theRAPEy after school. im going to MTMA at the garage in a half an hour or so, ill be late but im waiting till darren gets home with the fucking car ( Read more... )

man i haven't cut this much since 9th grade...well at least this much in one night. or one time period. or whatever. but at least its where no one will ever have to see it. and this time i actually have a fucking reason for doing it...a sick sad reason, but a reason. even though i never get on scales unless im at the dietitian or at therapy, ( Read more... )

God I am pissed at Mike. He is just a jackass. On Thursday nite he picked me up and we went to IHOP (too bad nowincolor wasn't working), then we stopped at Best Buy so I could buy the new thursday CD which is awesome, and then we went to shooters and met Brian and Dave <3 and Mike W and Jake W and Graham and Chris H and a few other people that I didn't ( Read more... )

why am i up this early, you ask. or maybe you don't. i have a spoon stuck up my cunt and have to get it surgically removed at the doctor's office...minus the spoon up my cunt part. i have a doctor's appointment for 9:30 because of my stomach. but they won't find anything; they never do!

ah yes, plaidxstar: i mailed your letter this morning!
1104: im writing ( Read more... )

Today was amusing...so for my first SOLO DRIVE i went and picked up punkass4901 (Pat) and we went to starbucks. we played with straws, weee. but he doesn't like coffee. who doesn't like coffee??? and who doesn't believe in puffins???!??!! Then I drove to Carrie's house and hung out there with her and Tasha...we made her flour baby for child development ( Read more... )

Aaaagh! I want to pry open my third eye and have an enlightening vision/experience/conversation/whatever. Like Anne's many insightful words of wisdom:

"Dude, we should go. The ants are eating my asshole."

[While on the phone with me] "I have to go, Britta's chasing me with the vacuum cleaner."

"Sorry, I thought you were talking to the cat."

I passed my drivers test! woo. WHO'S THE BOSS? ...niggers get tossed to the side...oh wait shit im not singing MSI songs again. hehe. yeah i just called Mike and Tasha to tell them. But I can't go anywhere with my newly licensed self! Darren has the van and my mom is taking the car, so I'm stuck here. Oh well. Tomorrow I'll cruise the town ( Read more... )

Mike got back from Arkansas yesterday. God dammit when he was gone I didn't even care, and now he's back, and it's like...gah...i know i have to break up with him soon. well, i don't have to, but i want to, so in a way i have to. because i like dave. and john roland...but SHHH!!! hehe. going out with another one of my neighbours might not be ( Read more... )

I went driving downtown with meinen Vati...god driving dowtown is scary!!! Okay, I'm a pussy, shut up, but all those one way streets and fucking pedestrians scare me! But I'm taking my test on tuesday, so I need to get ready. I don't want to fail on some fucking wrong turn into a one-way or whatever. thats what Darren did because he's a dumbass ( Read more... )