So, now, it's may 2019...literally a year later after you left us.. Christina...i love you, im mad at you, and i miss you, how is all that possible,  you were my anchor...IM so gratefeul for every day we had. every conversation.. you reminded me of so much, so many things....girly your life was short, and WE all need you, we miss you, i was better ( Read more... )

So, yea, it's March 2019, my anniversary is coming up in 7 days, and this month im 48 years old. Lord knows i think i have aged pretty well, BUT this year started with the shingles, nerve issue from shingles, and high blood pressure... NO LIE, the high blood pressure made me nervous, scared...the chest pain i thought was from being sick, and then ( Read more... )

So, its 2019, Sandra, i miss you, i miss your windsom, you been gone since NOV omg , wow. already? i feel like you shoudl be coming back from vacation, how funny, right?   i took your lemon home, cuz i didnt want anyoen to take, it LOL, and yoru book with prices and notes,  i gave to Terre, cuz  i didnt want anyone to destory, etc....

I am so ( Read more... )

Sandra - you were the inspiration that reminded me i was worth something. - That i had a brain, that i was worth something. Years of experience, years of me, giving, and you picked me out.....momths of not having a job, and then Insta like their name, INSTANTLY pick me out....you had a vision, a purpose, and i was part of that....you SAW me.. you ( Read more... )

so im working again, AND feeling useful which is great - MAYBE getting a new car, got  loan and insurance - get to test drive for a week, so lets see, new job has insurance so i can start going to the dr. WOOT...so feel like life is finally giving us a break. so lets see, hubby might have anew job so again CHANGES

BUT this last year has kicked us ( Read more... )

so, i found out my brother, sold my dads house. OMG... the place i thought i could go to, the place my brother said was MINE. and now not...and myother dumb ass  brother found his birth sisters and told me im garbage. SO again i am feeling like im nothing, lie no one cares, like yeah "DUH   - wish my dad was here or my mom, or someone who would ( Read more... )

So, Today i live. I breathe, I smile, i laugh, i live,  BUT something is missing....i have alot of people missing in my life....My adopted dad (Lloyd Mcintire), my Uncle John Plummer, My good friend Dan Marsubian, and my Niece (Christina Williams)...This all in 6 months...AND topper - day b4 my dad died, my 10  year old lab died (Velvet), then my ( Read more... )

So, today, is nearly June 16th, a month after your passing, You left us May 16th, 2018.....hard to believe, my heart still hurts, i try not to think about it, or talk about it, cuz it makes me sad, AND i know you wouldnt want me sad...i know you want me to smile, to laugh, to shake it off,  and i know i should - I more than anyone understand that ( Read more... )

Christina, my beautiful niece, you have been fighting, you have fought the fight, and i would love to see you WIN that fight... BUT if you cant, it's ok....i LOVE YOU ENOUGH, more than enough, to say it's ok....if you and ur body are tired, if you cant fight, if it's too much, it's ok.. i love you more than enough to say ok.. BUT im not going to ( Read more... )

Hey Super fav niece of mine... i have called every day, i have prayed more than i have ever in my life, i have thought of you every minute i can during the day. I wish i was there to hold your hand, to see your beatiful eyes, .....Christina, you must know how much you mean to me...you make me a better person, you know that, i know you do....we talk ( Read more... )