i just got a cigarette put out on my arm.

ouch.

school tomorrow.

even more ouch.

i love my updatingness ( Read more... )

yesterday was such a shitty day. matt and i came to my house after school and my mom wasn't home.. we walked in the door and about a minute later my mom calls me. she asked if i had any homework and whatnot and i said yeah and i had to memorize 2 songs and she said she wanted me to get those done before she got home ( Read more... )

band camp was a lot of fun.. like always. i always said i wouldn't cry thursday night at the bonfire my senior year and guess what.. i did. it was so saddening though ( Read more... )

yesterday was definately a day of reminding me of the past... definately made me think a lot ( Read more... )

went college hunting.. it was fun. went to grand valley, michigan state, central, and western. im sending apps to grand valley, michigan state, western, and lawrence tech. didn't so much like central ( Read more... )

so i woke up yesterday morning crying.. i was crying in my sleep. what the fuck. i was having a dream about paul. my 2nd one in 3 days. what the fuuuck. i think i'll say it again.. what the fuuuuck ( Read more... )

so i like... never get on the computer anymore. its crazy. i used to be on it 24/7. but now im always doing other things.. and when im home im sleeping ( Read more... )

ah im such a failure in life ( Read more... )

yesterday was a terrifically horrible day ( Read more... )