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Tell me I'm pretty...
Ok not really, that would be awkward and unbelievable anyway. I am a frumpy mom. I am always covered in food or milk or drool. When I'm at work I'm covered in product. I haven't had a haircut since before I got pregnant (which for those of you doing the math was WELL over a year ago). I don't know how to fix this. I just look tired and frumpy. I ( Read more... ) -
Ugh
It's one of those days where I can't stop bursting into tears. It's of course due to money woes and my wonderful depression/self esteem issues. I'm tired of complaining, I know you're tired of reading it. I'm just waiting for it to all come crashing down. I'm just waiting...
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Stress
First off let me say, I'm not looking for sympathy, I just need to vent ( Read more... ) -
WOW...
So I just go home from visiting my family in California which was...interesting. My grandmother is dying and all of her children are in denial. She is always in so much pain, and her heart valves are like 85% blocked. Yet because she "changed her diet and lost TEN pounds!" One aunt thinks she'll make it another TEN years. My grandmother is 82 and ( Read more... ) -
Strange
Strange thing this whole parenting business... So far it comes to me rather easily, which is nice since I was in quite a panic towards the end of my pregnancy. I think we will make it through the young years relatively unscathed. Now when it comes to the teen years... Well, lets just hope I teach Albert how to be a sweet loving boy with less eye ( Read more... ) -
Really?!
Its a miracle! Two posts in the same week! Mostly because I have a sad little complaint. Its rather personal so don't read on if you want to preserve your virgin eyes. No I'm not putting this under a cut. My touchpad hates them ( Read more... ) -
weird.
I've been having the most interesting (presumably pregnancy induced) dreams. Most of them have to do with people whom I've recently had contact. Last night I had one where I was having sexual relations with two of my friends... I also had a dream that there were parachuting gorillas at the zoo. My brain is a terrifying wonderland ( Read more... ) -
sorrow
I was planning on writing more often. I wanted to post all the happy things going on in my life, as well as the fears I'm experiencing with the prospect of raising a human being... then the world went into a tailspin and all I can feel is sadness ( Read more... ) -
Well I'm knocked up
I guess after my last hissy fit some omnipotent being out there decided to just make a decision for me and my body. Jerry and I are expecting our first (and ONLY) child together some time in early may. I am excited and terrified. There are many words, but I don't really feel like putting them out there. We'll see how this all goes ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
It's been a while since I've posted and there are many words floating around in my head that should have been put to "paper" a long time ago.
I am depressed. This is no shock to anyone who has had the misfortune of reading my writings in the past. For once I have very specific reasons for feeling this way.
I feel like a failure as a woman. My body ( Read more... )