i dont know where i am .. where im at .. all i know is, i cant handle anything now. dont come to me for help, my mind is not in place. dont talk to me, my mouth has a life of its own. dont expect me to listen, my ears only listen to the screams of pain inside of me. as much as i try to satisfy, i can never truly satisfy myself. why is it that i ( Read more... )

i cant love you anymore, my heart isnt strong enough. no doubt, im strong. why do you think im pretty much okay with this ? i cant say that this is what i wanted, but its sorta what i was thinking. where was my love for you ? dont know, really right now .. i really couldnt care. i fucking KNEW i was just another girl to you, knowing you.. come on ( Read more... )

in every relationship, theres a period of time where i have problems finding my love for you. i know its there .. its just we keep on arguing .. i think it'd better if you were here with me :( i dont wanna hurt you .. i dont wanna lose you. *sigh, help ( Read more... )

in past relationships, i have never felt so strong for someone. in past relationships, ive never trusted so much. why are you ruining that? whenever girls would get at my guy .. and he would flirt back, i wouldnt get mad at the girl. id get mad at my guy. im not mad at you. im mad at him. woow. "what now?" WHAT NOW?! fuck yooou ! how about that.

HM, where do i start? today at school was a pretty okay day. we played badminton alot, also got hit in the head by the birdie and on the back .. soo im in pain? woow, so many assignments due this week. why is this so hard? like really, test here, essay here, business letter there .. i dont like grade 9 :( well, work wise. bring back the old grade 7 ( Read more... )

another night with out hearing your voice. today was so mixed up, it was like a fucking roller coaster ride ( Read more... )

six o'clock, seconds feel like hours as i sit here, watching them tick away.
just the thought of seeing you again makes me wanna dance.
so ill be waiting :) patiently.

04/22/09

x; calgary has got to be on the top for the most messed city. i went to school in a t-shirt with the CHANCE of rain. next thing you know, it fucking snows. i told my dad that i ( Read more... )

funny cause at school, you're all that i talk about. my one, shouldve been only. but whenever i talk to you, its like you're always with her .. always thinking about her. bestfriends ? sometimes i think its a lie, i wish i could think the opposite. but why is it that im jealous ? lies ... a friend hurting you is more worse then a break up? then ( Read more... )

im dizzy, i cant stand anymore, it goes from up down up down. oh well .. hopefully we'll stay at the top of the rollercoaster ride with that un-ending suspenseful feeling that i LOVE. at least, now i can finally say i'm yours. i cant say we'll be like this forever, but it'll sure be nice to make it last until then. hmmm, i love you :) the sound of ( Read more... )

kristal's plan : survival mode for the rest of grade nine. im glad we're talking again, oh how i needed you. you made me realize what a dick i was to jeopardize our friendship. now i wish .. it was her in your position, *sigh. i love how everyone is just so caught up in this situation, along with their owns. again, they come to me for help. but ( Read more... )