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kristiebeepbeep

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Oct 17, 2005 13:38

i don't know.
i don't know.

i've been emotionally abused for years now.

if i wasn't so drugged up on anti-depressants all the time i would actually feel something besides disappointment right now.

but no, that's fine.

no one cares if i live like this
i sure as hell don't remember to.

all
i want
is a releasethat's all ( Read more... )

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tyroneshoolaces October 17 2005, 14:29:11 UTC

kristie.
let's move far away.

kristiebeepbeep October 19 2005, 13:21:30 UTC

gladly.
peru it is.

______blackout October 17 2005, 17:11:34 UTC

kristie, what kills me is that you have all the resources to do pretty much anything you want, and you don't take advantage of them. you are such a good person, you just need a tiny bit of motivation and you could go so so far. i hope everything with you is well, or gets better.

kristiebeepbeep October 19 2005, 13:22:26 UTC

thank you julie.
sincerely.

make sure you get in touch with me when you're back in town, i would really love to see you.

pancakerobot October 17 2005, 22:19:25 UTC

you don't need drugs. you have plenty of reasons to be happy that can help you without fucking your brain. seriously, I'm a very serious person now, no more drugs!

kristiebeepbeep October 19 2005, 13:24:46 UTC

drugs are good. trust me.
if i didn't have these i'd resort to alcohol only.
presently it's just a lot of both, which is superduper.

dangerkris October 19 2005, 22:49:05 UTC

kristie. were in the same boat.
except if she ever physically abused me, i'd probably kill her.
haha. it's more her & my mom than anything though.
and it's the most stressful thing in the ENTIRE world.
and i hold it all in. nobody knows what i go through.
& i think it's easier that way. but you're making me realize im not alone. thank you <3

kristiebeepbeep October 21 2005, 01:09:00 UTC

i don't want people thinking that she like beats the shit out of me or anything, although i really wouldn't put it past her.. she just pushes me around. but that's really way far past the line of "okay" and "not."

i just have deal with it till one of us leaves.
and normally, i'd say i hope it's me first..
but i like my house.
and i like my room.
she she can go live in a fucking box in a creek for all i care.

i hope i see you this weekend.