I should be sleeping but I have PTSD and every little noise jars me and gets my heart beating. Right now I'm listening to the hum of my landlady's daughter's Hummer (yellow to be exact) backing out of the driveway. No easy task for a tank. And now that's she's gone and no longer stomping around or slamming doors or playing loud music I feel like I ( Read more... )

I only feel slightly bad about posting this but I say if the guy was willing to post it on my wall for all the world to see then he's kind of setting himself up isn't he?

True message:
Hi [my name here] i would like to say you something it'is very emportent, if i was by your side i went to feel good because you are number one girl for me in i would ( Read more... )

I was hoping it wouldn't come to this, but it has.

Most of you probably have inklings of this but I am depressed. I get situational depression and it almost always has to do with my living space. If my living space is crappy, it's more than likely I'm depressed.

I've been trying and trying to make things work but they just aren't. I'm crying almost ( Read more... )

I had an interview today for my book and it went really well. She LOVED my book and said as much. She even went so far as to say she hopes everyone reads my book(!!). But to be fair she is my target audience: a woman between the ages of 18 and 35 who has been meditating for a few years and is interested in spirituality. I finally feel at peace. It' ( Read more... )

“Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another: "What! You too? I thought I was the only one.”
― C.S Lewis

Does anyone else find the years are blending together? That you don't really remember what happened when? I think it's because when you get out of school there aren't the same markers anymore. Instead of, "I did that as a junior," now it's "That's the year I was laid off." The major events now define a year. So for instance, for me ( Read more... )

Since the Monday after I came back from vacation (March 19) I've been depressed. It's been for many reasons, but I think a big one is I tried to convince myself something was the right decision when it wasn't.

I looked at an apartment in Bernal Heights (the lesbian neighborhood for those of you who don't live in SF) that was two bedrooms for $1,200 ( Read more... )

It's cold and rainy and I only have 20 minutes left of work anyway so I'd much rather do a trip recap. This is more for me than for anyone so I'll do an LJ cut. This will also probably turn into a blogpost but I wanted to chronicle it here first.

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I f-ing hate hostels. I know that's not the popular view and probably makes me really uncool but there we are. I hate hostels because it's all the bad things about living with other people with very few of the benefits. Or I should say I hate doing the traditional hostel thing of sharing a room with other people. Inevitably you're in a room with a ( Read more... )

A part of me wants to post this on facebook but I also think that's a bit too public. This won't mean much to many of you but I completed my 12th step in my 12 step program today! And of course it's in February, my anniversary month!