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[krunchy67]

Is it weird that there are days that I miss cutting? And not in the rational, I actually miss it, kind of way... But in the, I miss the rush of endorphins/adrenaline and how for that short amount of time all the "bad" went away... No matter how temporary it was, that release was crucial for me... I'm so grateful that someone, who used to be a

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[beholdtheme]

Oh, Tiffy! I'm so sorry you have to deal with those urges still. I know you know this but don't give in to the urges! Its never a good idea even if it feels like it is. It makes you less and less able to cope in real life. I know near the end I couldn't even get through one class at school without cutting. I needed my "fix" and would cut while sitting in class or ask to go to the bathroom and do it there. That's not a way to live to not be able to handle your life without hurting yourself. You should find someone to talk to about it that can help you. Call me if you need to 906-399-3645. Love you.

[krunchy67]

Thanks Amber! I love you too! I haven't given in.. and I won't.. I have too much good in my life and too many people that rely on me to be a strong person. Sometimes it just gets to be a little too much. That's when those old feelings come back. I was really bad at the end too. I couldn't get through class, just really couldn't get through life without cutting. When my parents found out it was the worst. They completely flipped out (like all good parents would)... I was a complete wreck... Robert came over and helped calm me down, took all my razors, etc. He really helped me take a step int he right direction that night. If it wasn't for him I don't think I'd be here right now. It's crazy right?! But I won't give in. Some times I want to, but I know its not right. I'm old enough now that I'm not completely ruled by my emotions.. Back then I knew it wasn't right, but I couldn't make my brain over rule how I was feeling. At least I've grown out of that!!! Thanks for everything Amber! Love you!