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kruszer

God Thoughts part 2

Jun 02, 2010 02:17

Wasn't it just a week ago that I wrote that last entry in the midst of brokenness and confusion, seeking God in the midst of all the pains and sufferings of my life, crying out with these questions....

"God why are you hurting me so much?? Do you love me at all? Why have you taken everything I could ever want and made it impossible to acquire? ( Read more... )

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despair and doubt crookedfingers June 4 2010, 12:05:08 UTC

I have been thinking about what you wrote concerning your spiritual troubles. I do not know you so it is impossible really to give you any spiritual advice. But I do know Christians do go through a spiritual stage called by some as "the dark night" or the stage of purgation. We meaning Christians all have to come to a place where we live by faith even when we are hanging on a cross. We have to believe in God's love even when we feel totally forsaken. We need to pray for mercy when we go through the fires of purgation. In the end we know as Christians life is only to be found in loving and serving the Lord Jesus. The Lord hears the cries of His blood bought children. Cry continually for mercy at the throne of grace-I can only tell you life is short-our sufferings will seem nothing in the end when we see the Lord Jesus in the new world-my prayers are with you in your struggle-your dark night-peace

Re: despair and doubt kruszer June 17 2010, 19:46:26 UTC

i just feel like my ENTIRE life has been a "Stage of purgation" I grew up in a hostile home environment and the pain doesn't relent. And the illnesses get worse and God stays silent.

Nothing makes sense if God is supposed to be good and loves me.

God velvetelvis June 6 2010, 10:12:03 UTC

Hey kiddo ( ... )

Re: God kruszer June 17 2010, 19:50:47 UTC

"Perhaps your own children will need a mother who has walked with God through despair and doubt, someone people will meet and know, in a small way, who Jesus is."

Except that's not the case, my faith is breaking. I've had 31 years of non-stop crisis and pain and Jesus hasn't shown up. I'm supposed to just trust this invisible friend even more when I even less reason than ever to believe he's there?

Re: God velvetelvis June 21 2010, 09:08:37 UTC

Hmmm ( ... )

What if... anonymous July 16 2010, 10:10:41 UTC

Dear Kristina,

Sorry for just replying to your blog without knowing you. I just stumbled upon it and your story touched me. As a christian we all struggle with the question why bad things happen to good people, and the various biblical answers are so emotionally unsatisfying.

However, what is the benefit of giving up your faith? If you no longer believe in higher powers, how will that make earthly suffering different? If not God, who else could you blame? Even if faith does not give an answer to your questions or prevent you from suffering, doesn't it give you other benefits like a life's purpose and peace of mind? Personally i find that enough reasons to have faith.

I realize this may not be the answer you're hoping for (it's just putting a different perspective), but maybe it helps.

Good luck and all the best, Martin

Re: What if... kruszer July 16 2010, 20:41:13 UTC

I only want to believe something if it's the truth. I don't need a placebo deity to blame, to comfort me, to make everything make sense if it really doesn't. If God doesn't exist, I can deal with it. I can accept that shit happens because shit happens.

It's the truth that I'm after, one way or another.

Re: What if... anonymous July 18 2010, 14:34:34 UTC

Kristine,
Thanks for your answer. Do you really think you will ever find the truth? Religion might not provide the strongest answer, or at least requires a strong belief. But so do non-theistic rational explanations: the deeper you dive into science, the more flaws and gaps you can find. Honestly, since we can't know the truth, isn't it just a matter of choice? Now you're just in a place of doubt, like many, but hopefully you'll get out of there. Please let us know what you will decide or what happens, as you've seen there are many people caring about you.
Best, Martin

filthy_lily August 18 2010, 17:03:11 UTC

I think coming to terms with that fact that god doesn't exits (or at the very least doesn't exist as you have come to understand him) has to be really hard for someone who's invested so much in that belief. But yeah, there's no god. Just events that happen and that we interpret.

Have faith in YOU and invest time and energy in YOU. It's usually when you stop looking that things become clearer as time moves on. Stop stressing god.

Faith velvetelvis August 25 2010, 19:55:53 UTC

I hate to be so terribly contrary here, and so negative, especially considering the original post, and Kristine's broken heart ( ... )