I hurt right now. It sucks. I try to be happy, if did not feel the pain i could fool myself. But i do and everytime i fake a smile my heart aches. Its what i am good for though. My whole life i have pretended. I have tried to be what i am not. What am i though? Thats the question because i have no flippin idea. Its like i dont know i cant explain

Working both jobs is tiring but I really like the bank job a lot. It is fun, there is a lot of stuff to learn though. Dairy Queen is ok. Rob called me today when I was at work at the bank, and I was like how did you get this number? He was like when I want something I will find a way of getting it. Whatever. Then he called me twice at Dairy Queen ( Read more... )

I started me new job this morning. I like it. I hate Rob. I hate what he did to me. I hate myself even more for letting him. I know one thing for sure, I wont be able to trust another man ever. They are all evil and liars. Why is it every relationship, I am in I get hurt? I get used or mistreated. Am I not a good person?

Today would have been our six months anniversary, it stunk. Kye, however, must have known it was a rough day because all night at work he tried cheering me up and succeeded at the end of the night. He followed me to the bank to take the deposit and then he got out of his car and we talked for about twenty mintues. He makes me laugh. He is a good

They say everyday will get better but it seems the days are just getting worse. I try not to call you but I do you usually answer and we talk about our day even though we dont spend them together anymore. However tonight you dont even answer. The days must be getting easier for you I guess. I wish mine would.

So before I went to Libby's funeral I was having these reoccuring dreams of my mom coming over and having Libby with her. I would be like what? I thought she was dead. My mom would say no we found her, they lied and put her in a nursing home. I would be so happy and hug and kiss her. OR I would go to my mom's house and she would be sitting in her ( Read more... )

You think you know someone but do you really? Can any one person truly know another? To a certain point I guess so but there is no way of knowing what goes on the inside of a person's mind. I have been feeling lost lately, doing things that probably are not the smartest but makes me feel good. Afterwards I think about it and will be like Krystalia ( Read more... )

My Aunt Libby died today. I am sad even though I knew she was ready to go, she was 98 years old. I am angry because she was taken from my mom because supposedly my mom was abusing her, so her son took her away from us so she would be safe. One week later she is dead. What do you think? I think I want to fucking kill him and everyone that had a ( Read more... )

that pretty much sums me up

I pretty much hate everyone and every thing right now!