Lover's In The Dark (Part 3)
Title: Lover’s in the Dark
Author: krystalkatz
Rating: NC17
Length: chaptered
Genre: Au,
Pairings: Matsumoto Jun/Ninomiya Kazunari, all of Arashi as brothers
Disclaimer: I only own the plot
Warnings: Incest,
A/N: Written for Yumi_Usagi who kindly donated for the help_pilipinas auction xD
Kazu finished the rice balls and settled back to the game he was currently obsessed with, while Jun pulled out his laptop to do some work, he had taken the week off but there was still some work that he had to finish before he could completely finish, which reminded him of something
“Kazu, did you tell Tanaka-san that you wouldn’t be in for the week?”
“No” Kazu answered slowly not looking up from his game,
“What? I told you to tell him” Jun said and then noticed the light in Kazu’s eyes that told him he was being teased “You’re joking ne?”
“Yes… I’m... no-t a k-id, J” Kazu mumbled still keeping his eyes on his game, and Jun gave a laugh going back to the office designs he was working on. The train ride was pretty uneventful and he managed to finish everything he had to do, and sent it to his boss. He was working part time as waiter while doing an internship at an architects, although his art wasn’t a match for Satoshi’s he had always had an eye for design and was enjoying it. He couldn’t afford to go to college so the internship was heaven sent. Kazu had been given a job in a magic/game shop by the owners when he had been able to give more information about the games and tricks than they had. It suited him perfectly although there were sometimes when he would have to sit in the store room. Kazu suffered from high functioning Asperger’s syndrome and had always found it difficult to deal with social situations and the owners had been completely understanding towards him, mostly allowing to do his own thing while watching over him from afar.When they arrived at the station Kazu told him that he needed the toilet and Jun went ahead to meet his brothers, it was easy to spot them, they hadn’t changed since last year he thought “Nii-chan, Aniki, Masaki-nii” Jun said looking at his three brothers with a smile,
“Where’s Kazu?” Masaki asked hugging him tightly
“In the bathroom” Jun answered as he was let go,
“You’ve gown”
“You say that every time” Jun rolled his eyes “I’m 21 now I’m not going to grow anymore”
“Kazu-chan!” Masaki shouted happily and Jun turned to watch Kazu coming towards them with his yellow suitcase. Masaki threw his arms around him hugging him tightly before being pulled into another tight hug by Sho and then finally by Satoshi, Jun tried to stop himself from himself from tensing and getting jealous. They piled into Masaki’s work van (that had a black and white dog and cat painted on it) and drove back home , their mother and father wouldn’t be back until later and Jun took their cases upstairs, putting his in his old room before taking Kazu’s to his. It hadn’t changed at all he thought with a sigh putting the case down and sitting on the bed running his hand over the pillow remembering everything they did in here.
7 years ago
It was a few days after the kiss and although they hadn’t done anything else Jun couldn’t forget it and sometimes he would find himself just touching his lips in a dazed way unable to believe that he had done that with his brother much less that Kazu had kissed him back. Kazu had a meeting with his worker so Jun was leaving school he was surprised to see a ring of bullies circling someone that Jun was horrified to recognise as Kazu
“What do you think you’re doing?” He yelled dropping his bag and pushing his way through, the crowd and going to his brother, Kazu was covered with mud and a small amount of blood and he looked up at him and Jun wanted to kill someone, he took a handkerchief out of his pocket and wiped Kazu’s mouth gently, growling when he felt a lump of soil hit his own back,
“Hey what the fuck do you think you’re doing to my brothers?” He heard Sho shout and when he turned he saw Masaki and Sho running towards them. Jun was strangely angry that they were the ones that drove the crowd away while he couldn’t do anything, he knew he loved Kazu more than anything but he couldn’t stop people from hurting him while he was so small.
“Jun, Kazu are you okay?” Sho asked while Masaki wiped the mud from his back
“Kazu are you okay?” Jun asked and Kazu nodded smiling at him soothing his heart a little and he helped him to his feet. “Why weren’t you with your case worker?” He asked annoyed when Kazu shrugged knowing that when he was in this mood it was pointless to try and ask questions. The four brothers walked slowly out of the school meeting Satoshi from college, Satoshi almost went paper white when he saw the cuts and bruises on Kazu’s face and the mud splatter that was on Jun’s pale blue blazer. Masaki gave him a quick rundown of what had happened and Satoshi bit his lip angrily Jun watched in amazement as his elder brother forced his anger away to look at Kazu and say
“Mum’s not at home tonight, do you want to go for hamburgers instead of going home?” Kazu’s eyes shone happily and Jun wondered if he was always going to lose out to Satoshi when it came to Kazu. That night when the rest of them were asleep Jun snuck into Kazu’s room and sat on his bed looking around at the walls that were decorated with paintings by Satoshi, pictures of animals with details from Masaki and random lyrics that Sho sometimes wrote down. He realised that there was nothing from him in here,
“Ju-n… Is… So-met-hin-g wr-on-g?” Kazu asked touching his shoulder and Jun shook his head quickly, trying to smile,
“I just wanted to know you were okay” He said and Kazu smiled
“I’m fi-ne… J, lo-oke-d aft-er me” He said softly and Jun frowned
“I didn’t do anything, Sho and Masaki…” Jun froze as Kazu kissed him quickly, and although he was smiling there was a little sadness in his eyes. Every night for a week after that Jun crept into his room and they had make-out sessions. Jun almost hated himself for doing it but he couldn’t stop he wanted Kazu so much. Then one night he came into the room and he heard Kazu sniffling slightly and guilt stabbed at his heart “Kazu…Are you okay?” Jun whispered climbing into the bed beside him and Kazu turned to look at him wiping his eyes with surprise, a small amount of fear in his eyes
“I’m fine…”
“Liar… Do you… Do you hate… doing this… Being like this with me?” He whispered carefully so his voice wouldn’t carry into the next room were Masaki was sleeping, Kazu didn’t answer for a while and Jun could hear and feel his heart beating against his ribs.
“J… Why… With someone like me?”
“What do you mean?”
“I know… I’m not normal…” Kazu whispered and Jun wanted to kill everyone that had made Kazu feel like he wasn’t normal.
“You’re completely normal” Jun said quickly and almost loudly, in the next room he heard Masaki cough, in the small amount of moonlight Jun saw the smile that captivated him so much and without thinking pressed their lips together. His hand trailing over Kazu’s side until he reached his stomach and Kazu shivered “Sorry” he said pulling his hand away, until Kazu stopped him putting it back on his side “Kazu?”
“It tic-kles… Bu-t fee-ls nic-e” Kazu said in a shaky whisper that caused Jun’s mind to go blank and he pressed their mouths together again while pushing Kazu onto his back. Kazu looked up at him his eyes shining with some unshared emotion. Jun almost trembled as he pushed the t-shirt up revealing Kazu’s flat stomach
“Is it okay?” Jun asked and Kazu nodded slowly. The shock was almost electric when he touched the skin for the first time, his heart was thudding painfully against his ribs and he stared down at Kazu making sure that he was okay, he traced the smooth outlines of Kazu’s hip bones and then the faint trail of hair that were just below the belly button and then further up the lines of his chest, towards the adorable nipples, Kazu’s breathing hitched as Jun ran his fingers over the first tiny nub and Jun stopped straight away “I’m sorry…” He said his own breath catching at the expression in Kazu’s eyes
“I’m… um my…” Kazu said his cheeks flushing hotly, and it wasn’t until Jun felt something probing at his leg that he realised that his brother was as hard as he was.
“Kazu…” he said and Kazu went a bright red looking almost ashamed “It’s okay… See I’m the same…” Jun whispered rubbing his own erection against him, Kazu blinked in surprise, more so when he positioned himself against Kazu's and slowly ground his hips “Is this okay Kazu?” he asked as he continued to thrust, and Kazu nodded biting his lip as he tried to match Jun’s movements , the act was so cute to Jun that he almost came undone right then, he stopped himself from releasing and gripped at Kazu’s hips increasing the pace of his thrusting while trying to stop the breath from escaping to loudly by pressing his lips to Kazu’s. It wasn’t much longer before Kazu came in his pyjamas and Jun followed quickly afterwards, they lay panting against each other’s ears before Jun went to fetch a bowl of warm soapy water to clean them. Kazu was staring up at the ceiling a dazed look on his face, and Jun felt another tight knot of guilt in his chest praying that there was a way that they could be together happily.
A/N: Kazu in this suffers with high functioning Asperger’s, it means that although he is able to understand social situations he doesn’t do so as quickly as other people so people tend to think he’s slow or backward… I’m not sure if I’m portraying it right I’m just basing his character on my nephew and a close friend who both suffer with it. hope you're liking it ^.^