Mrowr.
Kyle visited me this week again.
I visited him two weeks ago,
Weird; I don't think anyone visits that often. I wonder how long its going to last.
School is a pain. So much work- too much to handle. I have a paper due this weekend and I haven't read the 300 pages I need in order to do it well. I also have a Spanish exam, and I'm just kind of getting by in that class.
I got a notice a few weeks ago that I made Tutorial- I get to live in this awesome dorm next semester. I hope it's a good time. I also tried out for the spring musical here and made it. It;s a Gilbert and Sullivan show, Princess Ida. I think it's going to be funny.. Matt's in it, too, after trying out last minute. I think I'll invite some of our high school arts teachers, I bet they'd enjoy it. It's the first weekend of March. I'll be happy if at least my family can come up. Spring break starts two weeks later for me. Seems like everyone else's is the week before. That sucks.. though it might be nice to have time for myself, and for the family.
I'm frustrated right now, even though I've been generally very happy, I think- save the school and work-related stress. I'm worried though, because I think I'm facing a problem that's going to remain a problem for a while. Should it even be a problem? I hate feeling pressured.
So last time Kyle visited we saw Underworld Evolution. Then he saw this play Falsettos and Falsettoland (which I was doing the lights for) and we both went to see some sketch comedy thingie afterwards. We ate breakfast at this place Saturday morning, and I think he must have left pretty early on on Sunday. I visited him the week after for fear I might not get a chance to see his school for a while- at least until after my play was over, at least. So I did. It was pretty nice. . much bigger campus than mine though. I suppose I would have liked to do a few more things, but it was nice just to visit, and see what life's like there. This time, Kyle and I went to the mall on Friday and then watched a movie on campus. We played Backgammon with Cara one evening, and chilled in my room otherwise. I was pretty busy this weekend with like 8-hr play practices, but Kyle stuck it out in the library. It was nice having him around, and I'm glad he didn't mind waiting around for me, though it seems kind of awkward to impose on your roommate like that. Matt helped us procure a ride to a restaurant last night, which was pretty nice, too.
Ugh, boring boring stuff. Kind of, right? I'm writing this but all along I'm still frustrated. I don't want to have to deal with things now. I want to just live and be happy and not have too many things to worry about. And I want to learn about things, and figure out what I'm going to do with my life. I have my whole life, don't I? Or do I? Carpe diem, live each day as if the next were going to be your last. . . but who really does that?
I'm happy.. . . why can't. . .
Hrmph.
Hello, role reversal.
I just reread the beggining there, and though this ruins the general mood of the entry, I wanted to clarify that school's not BAD by any means and reemphasize the fact that I am generally, and have been, happy. Content. Maybe I'll be that way when I wake up tomorrow. AGH! At 8:30, with yet another layer of under-eye grey circles. I've been looking so bad lately :o/
Okay, sorry guyzz. Goodnight.