[one-shot] I Wish You Were Gone
Title : I Wish You Were Gone
Author : A-chan
Pairing : RyoTego (Ryo x Tegoshi)
Genre : Angst, AU
Rating : PG-13
Summary : Ryo hates Tegoshi, Tegoshi adores Ryo.
Disclaimer : Everything not mine, except the plot
Warning : BAD english. English is not my first language. BETA-LESS.
Ryo hates Tegoshi.
A lot.
Tegoshi and his mother were the cause of misery to Ryo. His mother commited suicide because of the affair going on between Ryo's father and Tegoshi's mother.
And since the very moment Tegoshi stepped inside the Nishikido's household, together with his mother, Ryo sworn that he'll get even with the two of them later on.
And he did. He succeeded. He drove Tegoshi's mother to madness. Without anyone knowing, Ryo has been torturing Tegoshi's mother mentally, for years untill the time she finally gave up on life.
Tegoshi's mother never tell anyone about the torture her stepson gave her. She could have say a word to Ryo's father and the boy will be send to the attic and lock for weeks. But she didn't.
Cause she felt guilty.
So she just decided to let him be. If that's the only way Ryo would forgive her sins. With one condition ;
"Do not do anything towards Tegoshi."
The lady's request somehow were kind of hard for Ryo to oblige, but then the eagerness for revenge overpowers him and he agreed.
That's the reason why Tegoshi remains untouched. Ryo never shows any signs of dislike in front of the younger boy. Not once.
Well, not untill the moment Tegoshi's mother passed away.
*****
Tegoshi adores Ryo.
Since the first time he entered the Nishikido household, that black-haired boy always got his attention. Especially when Ryo treats him good. Just like how a normal brother should act towards the younger ones.
When his mother was declared having mental sickness, Tegoshi was so sad, but Ryo's always by his side, comforting him. Ryo never left his side, always tried to make him laugh or at least, happy.
There were times, when Tegoshi's mother seems like she wanted to tell something to her son, but then she didn't. She never did. And Tegoshi couldn't help but to wonder what is it tha she had always wanted to tell.
Even when his mother passed away, Ryo was there, together with Tegoshi. Muttering comforting words, wiping the tears that rolled down the younger's face.
And Tegoshi really respects Ryo. With all his might.
But little did he know that this situation will change.. the moment after the funeral.
*****
"Tegoshi!" Ryo screamed loudly that the whole house could hear his voice.
"Yes, Ryo-nii chan!" Tegoshi rushed to Ryo as soon as he's called.But he received a slap on his delicate face
"Who's your brother? I never have a brother! Call me Nishikido-sama!" Ryo snapped
"Hai~ Nishikido-s-sama.." mummbled Tegoshi, wiping the blood that oozed out from the corner of his lips.
Ryo just smirked and left. The maids shook their heads. They pitied the younger boy but this is a normal scene in that house. Well since Tegoshi's mother passed away, Ryo's attitude towards Tegoshi changed completely.
He treated Tegoshi as a slave..a punchbag.
And they saw the tears streaming down the boy's face.
*****
"Ark! Itai, Nishikido-sama!" yelped Tegoshi as Ryo pulled his hair harshly.
"SHUT UP! YOU DESERVES THIS! YOU SON OF A BITCH! YOUR MOTHER RUINED MY LIFE! SHE KILLED MY MOTHER!" yelled Ryo on top of his lungs
And the infamous tears started rolling down the boy's face again. Now he know why, the sudden behaviour changes.
PANG! A slap on his left cheek. Then another on his right. A punch right on his torso. A kick on his back.
Ryo's torture seems endless. But Tegoshi decides to let him be. Its not his fault after all. Ryo deserves to feel that way.
Besides,..
Tegoshi loves Ryo too much that he couldn't say no to him.
*****
Ryo slumped hard on the soft material of his mattress. His breathing not normal, gritted teeth. Clearly, he just finished 'treating' Tegoshi.
But he's confused about his own self. Confused of why, everytime he hurts Tegoshi, he always ended up hurt too. Like the moment he slap that small boy, he could feel the stinging pain too, not at his cheek,.. but his chest.
His heart.
And due to that, he'll hit harder and harder, at the same time, bearing the very same pain he felt himself.
Everybody knows, Ryo always hits Tegoshi and Tegoshi will always ended up crying. But what other don't know is,
After he hit Tegoshi, Ryo often found himself crying too the moment he's out of anyone's sight.
The moment like this.
*****
"Tegoshi-kun.. Daijoubu?" the head maid asked the petite boy as she sits down just beside him.
Tegoshi lifted his face up and forced a smile. "D-daijou-bu yo.. "
But the head maid know he's not okay. She helped the young man to stand and assisted him back to his room.
"Tegoshi-kun.. why don't you just run away? Escape from this living hell of Nishikido-sama!"
Tegoshi just stared at the older lady in front of him. Her eyes shone with concern and pity but slowly, he shool his head.
"No, Maria-san.. I cannot go.. I do not have any other place to go if i ever leave this mansion... and... it's my fault-my mother's fault, that he lived in misery... " he sighed before he continues, "..So for now.. just let me, pay for the sins my family has brought to him..."
Let me stay by his side eventhough i'll only receive harsh treatment from him... Just..
I want to stay by his side... Just like how he stayed by my side years ago..
*****
Ryo just stared at the broad ceiling above him. His body sprawled against the king sized bed. His mind lost in deep thought.
All these years, he kept on reminding himself that Tegoshi is a threat, an enemy that need to be destroy no matter what.
But somehow, he just couldn't help but to feel this sort of feelings, where his heart clenched at the sight of Tegoshi's tears.
Guilt.
Ryo could feel the very same feeling spreading in his body, at that moment, his heart clenching, and its getting harder and harder to breathe.
Finally, he made up his mind. He have to end this right away.
With that, he yelled for the servant.
*****
Tegoshi walked slowly towards the familiar direction; Ryo's bedroom.
Few minutes back a maid told him the master is looking for him. When he finally reached the room, he reached out for the doorknob and slowly twisted it, and the door creaked open.
"Y-you called me, Nishikido-sama?" he said, when he found the other man was standing withhis back facing the door, facing Tegoshi too.
"..........Hmm.." was Ryo reply. And the next second Ryo turned around and approaches Tegoshi, staring at him with daring eyes.
Slightly afraid, Tegoshi backed off, till he had his back flat against the cold wall.
"Tegoshi..."
"H-Hai..Nishikido-sama..."
"Do you know how much i hate you?"
Ryo's words were like daggers, slashing, stabbing right into the fragile heart of Tegoshi. His eyes teared up and he slowly nodded his head. And with every nod, fresh tears rolled down his chubby cheeks.
Ryo narrowed his eyes slightly, there he goes again. The same guilt feeling struck him again. His temperature rises all of a sudden. He gripped Tegoshi's shoulders hard and yelled;
"STOP CRYING!!! YOU WOULDN'T KNOW HOW MUCH I HATE YOU!! YOU DIDN'T KNOW HOW MANY TIMES I FEEL LIKE ENDING YOUR LIFE!! DO YOU KNOW HOW I WISH YOU WERE GONE??!!!"
Ryo's chest rises up and down, with an unsteady pace. Tegoshi's was way beyond scared. But the last sentence made him sadder than ever.
"Y-you wished for me to-" his words were cut off as he felt the soft flesh of Ryo's lips were pressed hard against his. Ryo's forcing a kiss on him.
"I wish you were gone..." muttered Ryo as soon as he ended the kiss, staring right into Tegoshi's eyes.
He then stepped back, and again turned his back against the other. He went to the table at a corner of the room and reached for a knife and an apple. He began peeling off the apple while saying;
"You may go.. and please disappear from my life.. make sure you won't appear in front of me..ever again or else.."
He couldnt continue when suddenly he felt a hand on his shoulder, which caused him to twirled around. There, he found the little Tegoshi Yuya staring back at him, with rather indescribable expression.
Ryo was beyond puzzled when suddenly Tegoshi leaped forward, crushing their lips together. But the shock only last for a few seconds and Ryo started kissing back.
The apple rolled off his left hand and he began caressing the back of Tegoshi's neck. He was about to place the knife back on the table when he felt another hand covering his.
Are? Ryo's eyebrow twitched but he just let it be. As their kiss grew intense he didn't realized when did Tegoshi's hand moved, together with his, which is holding the knife.
Until,
"Herk!" Tegoshi made a sound, and Ryo broke the kiss, only to find his own hand, covered with blood,
Tegoshi's blood.
"T-Tegoshi??!!" and Ryo looked up, and their eyes met. Ryo's anxious ones and Tegoshi's in-pain ones.
But they have one thing in common.
Both pairs were all teared up.
"Why, Tegoshi??" asked Ryo, almost inaudible but due to their proximity, Tegoshi heard it, clearly.
He smiled, although he's in deep pain, he smiled to his Ryo. He lifted his right hand and caressed Ryo's face, gently.
And with all his might, he leaned forward, planting a soft peck on Ryo's lips.
"..I h-ope..now.. you'll be hap-py that im gone.." and with that, he pushes Ryo's right hand further in his stomach.
"..N-NO!!!! TEGOSHI!!! YOU IDIOT!!!.."
But it's too late.
**********************
O-kay, my second fic posted here~ ^^ RyoTego angst since im emo-ing and a friend wanted an angst fic.
So, how was it? @.@ i bet it's not that good.. and again, i apologized for all the grammar mistakes, typos and stuff, cause i have no beta and time is kind of envious of me. T.T
comments are love<3
Author : A-chan
Pairing : RyoTego (Ryo x Tegoshi)
Genre : Angst, AU
Rating : PG-13
Summary : Ryo hates Tegoshi, Tegoshi adores Ryo.
Disclaimer : Everything not mine, except the plot
Warning : BAD english. English is not my first language. BETA-LESS.
Ryo hates Tegoshi.
A lot.
Tegoshi and his mother were the cause of misery to Ryo. His mother commited suicide because of the affair going on between Ryo's father and Tegoshi's mother.
And since the very moment Tegoshi stepped inside the Nishikido's household, together with his mother, Ryo sworn that he'll get even with the two of them later on.
And he did. He succeeded. He drove Tegoshi's mother to madness. Without anyone knowing, Ryo has been torturing Tegoshi's mother mentally, for years untill the time she finally gave up on life.
Tegoshi's mother never tell anyone about the torture her stepson gave her. She could have say a word to Ryo's father and the boy will be send to the attic and lock for weeks. But she didn't.
Cause she felt guilty.
So she just decided to let him be. If that's the only way Ryo would forgive her sins. With one condition ;
"Do not do anything towards Tegoshi."
The lady's request somehow were kind of hard for Ryo to oblige, but then the eagerness for revenge overpowers him and he agreed.
That's the reason why Tegoshi remains untouched. Ryo never shows any signs of dislike in front of the younger boy. Not once.
Well, not untill the moment Tegoshi's mother passed away.
*****
Tegoshi adores Ryo.
Since the first time he entered the Nishikido household, that black-haired boy always got his attention. Especially when Ryo treats him good. Just like how a normal brother should act towards the younger ones.
When his mother was declared having mental sickness, Tegoshi was so sad, but Ryo's always by his side, comforting him. Ryo never left his side, always tried to make him laugh or at least, happy.
There were times, when Tegoshi's mother seems like she wanted to tell something to her son, but then she didn't. She never did. And Tegoshi couldn't help but to wonder what is it tha she had always wanted to tell.
Even when his mother passed away, Ryo was there, together with Tegoshi. Muttering comforting words, wiping the tears that rolled down the younger's face.
And Tegoshi really respects Ryo. With all his might.
But little did he know that this situation will change.. the moment after the funeral.
*****
"Tegoshi!" Ryo screamed loudly that the whole house could hear his voice.
"Yes, Ryo-nii chan!" Tegoshi rushed to Ryo as soon as he's called.But he received a slap on his delicate face
"Who's your brother? I never have a brother! Call me Nishikido-sama!" Ryo snapped
"Hai~ Nishikido-s-sama.." mummbled Tegoshi, wiping the blood that oozed out from the corner of his lips.
Ryo just smirked and left. The maids shook their heads. They pitied the younger boy but this is a normal scene in that house. Well since Tegoshi's mother passed away, Ryo's attitude towards Tegoshi changed completely.
He treated Tegoshi as a slave..a punchbag.
And they saw the tears streaming down the boy's face.
*****
"Ark! Itai, Nishikido-sama!" yelped Tegoshi as Ryo pulled his hair harshly.
"SHUT UP! YOU DESERVES THIS! YOU SON OF A BITCH! YOUR MOTHER RUINED MY LIFE! SHE KILLED MY MOTHER!" yelled Ryo on top of his lungs
And the infamous tears started rolling down the boy's face again. Now he know why, the sudden behaviour changes.
PANG! A slap on his left cheek. Then another on his right. A punch right on his torso. A kick on his back.
Ryo's torture seems endless. But Tegoshi decides to let him be. Its not his fault after all. Ryo deserves to feel that way.
Besides,..
Tegoshi loves Ryo too much that he couldn't say no to him.
*****
Ryo slumped hard on the soft material of his mattress. His breathing not normal, gritted teeth. Clearly, he just finished 'treating' Tegoshi.
But he's confused about his own self. Confused of why, everytime he hurts Tegoshi, he always ended up hurt too. Like the moment he slap that small boy, he could feel the stinging pain too, not at his cheek,.. but his chest.
His heart.
And due to that, he'll hit harder and harder, at the same time, bearing the very same pain he felt himself.
Everybody knows, Ryo always hits Tegoshi and Tegoshi will always ended up crying. But what other don't know is,
After he hit Tegoshi, Ryo often found himself crying too the moment he's out of anyone's sight.
The moment like this.
*****
"Tegoshi-kun.. Daijoubu?" the head maid asked the petite boy as she sits down just beside him.
Tegoshi lifted his face up and forced a smile. "D-daijou-bu yo.. "
But the head maid know he's not okay. She helped the young man to stand and assisted him back to his room.
"Tegoshi-kun.. why don't you just run away? Escape from this living hell of Nishikido-sama!"
Tegoshi just stared at the older lady in front of him. Her eyes shone with concern and pity but slowly, he shool his head.
"No, Maria-san.. I cannot go.. I do not have any other place to go if i ever leave this mansion... and... it's my fault-my mother's fault, that he lived in misery... " he sighed before he continues, "..So for now.. just let me, pay for the sins my family has brought to him..."
Let me stay by his side eventhough i'll only receive harsh treatment from him... Just..
I want to stay by his side... Just like how he stayed by my side years ago..
*****
Ryo just stared at the broad ceiling above him. His body sprawled against the king sized bed. His mind lost in deep thought.
All these years, he kept on reminding himself that Tegoshi is a threat, an enemy that need to be destroy no matter what.
But somehow, he just couldn't help but to feel this sort of feelings, where his heart clenched at the sight of Tegoshi's tears.
Guilt.
Ryo could feel the very same feeling spreading in his body, at that moment, his heart clenching, and its getting harder and harder to breathe.
Finally, he made up his mind. He have to end this right away.
With that, he yelled for the servant.
*****
Tegoshi walked slowly towards the familiar direction; Ryo's bedroom.
Few minutes back a maid told him the master is looking for him. When he finally reached the room, he reached out for the doorknob and slowly twisted it, and the door creaked open.
"Y-you called me, Nishikido-sama?" he said, when he found the other man was standing withhis back facing the door, facing Tegoshi too.
"..........Hmm.." was Ryo reply. And the next second Ryo turned around and approaches Tegoshi, staring at him with daring eyes.
Slightly afraid, Tegoshi backed off, till he had his back flat against the cold wall.
"Tegoshi..."
"H-Hai..Nishikido-sama..."
"Do you know how much i hate you?"
Ryo's words were like daggers, slashing, stabbing right into the fragile heart of Tegoshi. His eyes teared up and he slowly nodded his head. And with every nod, fresh tears rolled down his chubby cheeks.
Ryo narrowed his eyes slightly, there he goes again. The same guilt feeling struck him again. His temperature rises all of a sudden. He gripped Tegoshi's shoulders hard and yelled;
"STOP CRYING!!! YOU WOULDN'T KNOW HOW MUCH I HATE YOU!! YOU DIDN'T KNOW HOW MANY TIMES I FEEL LIKE ENDING YOUR LIFE!! DO YOU KNOW HOW I WISH YOU WERE GONE??!!!"
Ryo's chest rises up and down, with an unsteady pace. Tegoshi's was way beyond scared. But the last sentence made him sadder than ever.
"Y-you wished for me to-" his words were cut off as he felt the soft flesh of Ryo's lips were pressed hard against his. Ryo's forcing a kiss on him.
"I wish you were gone..." muttered Ryo as soon as he ended the kiss, staring right into Tegoshi's eyes.
He then stepped back, and again turned his back against the other. He went to the table at a corner of the room and reached for a knife and an apple. He began peeling off the apple while saying;
"You may go.. and please disappear from my life.. make sure you won't appear in front of me..ever again or else.."
He couldnt continue when suddenly he felt a hand on his shoulder, which caused him to twirled around. There, he found the little Tegoshi Yuya staring back at him, with rather indescribable expression.
Ryo was beyond puzzled when suddenly Tegoshi leaped forward, crushing their lips together. But the shock only last for a few seconds and Ryo started kissing back.
The apple rolled off his left hand and he began caressing the back of Tegoshi's neck. He was about to place the knife back on the table when he felt another hand covering his.
Are? Ryo's eyebrow twitched but he just let it be. As their kiss grew intense he didn't realized when did Tegoshi's hand moved, together with his, which is holding the knife.
Until,
"Herk!" Tegoshi made a sound, and Ryo broke the kiss, only to find his own hand, covered with blood,
Tegoshi's blood.
"T-Tegoshi??!!" and Ryo looked up, and their eyes met. Ryo's anxious ones and Tegoshi's in-pain ones.
But they have one thing in common.
Both pairs were all teared up.
"Why, Tegoshi??" asked Ryo, almost inaudible but due to their proximity, Tegoshi heard it, clearly.
He smiled, although he's in deep pain, he smiled to his Ryo. He lifted his right hand and caressed Ryo's face, gently.
And with all his might, he leaned forward, planting a soft peck on Ryo's lips.
"..I h-ope..now.. you'll be hap-py that im gone.." and with that, he pushes Ryo's right hand further in his stomach.
"..N-NO!!!! TEGOSHI!!! YOU IDIOT!!!.."
But it's too late.
**********************
O-kay, my second fic posted here~ ^^ RyoTego angst since im emo-ing and a friend wanted an angst fic.
So, how was it? @.@ i bet it's not that good.. and again, i apologized for all the grammar mistakes, typos and stuff, cause i have no beta and time is kind of envious of me. T.T
comments are love<3