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Ok so the things I want in life:
To be happy
Yeah yeah everybody wants that..and many people are quick to surrender to the hell that life can be.
You have to work for happiness, it won't just come to you.
I've heard that to find what you're looking for, it's best to put it out into the world, into the atmosphere. So here it goes..
I want to be with the guy i'm supposed to be with..I realized my standards as more and more guys have hurt me and I realized that as much I liked them they still weren't what I wanted..what I needed..
-I need a guy who wants to be with me, to talk to me, to hold me, to take care of me. Not 24/7 always by my side, make each other sick that's too much. He needs to spend time with his friends as well, but he won't be afraid to tell his friends "maybe next time" when he wants to spend time with me.
-I need a guy who finds music as important as I do.
-I need a guy i'm attracted to, this may sound shallow but it's really not..if you're not attracted to who you're with, you're not in a good relationship. Whether it's their personality, laugh, smile, whatever that makes them attractive not neccessarily looks.
-I need a guy I have a real and true connection with.
-I need a guy who's funny, and not a stupid funny but a real funny who makes people laugh and who could make me laugh on my worst day.
-I need a guy who likes taking me out, who wants to have a good time and who's creative and not just only up for dinner and a movie but would go bowling or mini golfing or something little and dumb like that but is totally fun.
-I need a guy who loves to smile.
-I need a guy who loves to cuddle, and hold me.
-I need a guy who when i'm sick, will take care of me and not be afraid of him getting sick so he stays away.(yeah that was one of my exes..nice right?).
-I need a guy who's not afraid to be romantic.
-I want a guy who isn't cocky but is confident.
-I need a guy who has the same music taste as me and will go to shows with me.
-I need a guy who won't mind me taking pictures with him that I could put on MySpace(that one sorta made me laugh..i'm so addicted..)
-I need a guy who won't be too mushy gushy and make me wanna vomit cute..being cute is good, overly cute is deadly.
-I need a guy who will only tell me he loves me when he means it.
-I need a guy who won't lie to me about stuff that'll end up hurting me.
-I need a guy who'll support me, and when I finally start performing will try his best to be there everytime.
-I need a guy who'll protect me if need be.
-I need a guy who knows exactly what I need.
-I need a guy who accepts me for who I am.
-I need a guy who when my hair is amess, glasses are on, make up is off will tell me i'm beautiful and mean it.
-I need a guy who goes to UCF, long distance sucks.
-I need a guy who will drive 45 minutes to Cocoa Beach just to watch the sunrise with me, or who won't mind laying in the grass with me just to watch the stars.
-I need a guy who won't be grossed out when i'm drunk and puking and will hold my hair back..if I were to get drunk haha..
-I need a guy who isn't afraid to be himself
-I need a guy who isn't incredibly jealous, but just jealous enough so I know he cares about me
-I need a guy who plays an instrument or sings, cause music is huge in my life.
-I need a nice guy.
-I need a guy who will watch chick flicks with me even if it's the last thing he wants to do.
-I need a guy I can talk on the phone with for hours when it seems like only 5 minutes.
-I need a guy who minds PDA mostly..I can't stand most forms of PDA, holding hands and cheek kissing once in a while is ok..no more..blehh..
-I need a guy who doesn't hate people for their skin color, or religion or anything. -I need an open minded guy.
-I need a guy who isn't a druggie or alcoholic. When I say drugs I mean anything worse then pot, and no potheads..there's a difference between people who occasionally smoke and those who are potheads. If you're productive, I know people who have had friends that smoked pot and became a self made millionaire. Oh and alcoholic as in HAS to drink all the dang time. Everything is pretty much okay in moderation, but come on there is a limit.
-I need a guy who DOESN'T smoke cigarettes, or dip or blehh..that stuff.
-I need a guy who wants to be in a long term relationship.
-I need a guy I have that kiss with, the one where you feel something when you kiss them.
-I need a guy with decent people as friends, as in I can chill with them and they're pretty much cool with that, unless you need guy time then by all means.
-Taller then me would be great since i'm tall.
I wonder how many guys i've scared off..lol..
Wow..that's a lot..I hope it's not too much to look for? Of course he may not meet all of the standards..but I mean most of them would be great haha.
I'm done chasing, now I want to be found.
I am so much farther from finding myself then I thought and scary as that is it's okay because i'm still molding into who I want to be and if I change styles, or music, or anything it's not because i'm posing as something i'm not it's because i'm becoming who i'm meant and want to be.
Amanda sent me once, one of my favorite quotes:
"Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.-George Bernard Shaw
It's true, I used to think by doing certain things I was just hiding who I was but it isn't, it was something I liked so I did it, or I wore it, or I listened to it. I'm just becoming me.
Stacy commented earlier about how the way you feel is how most others percieve you(hope I got that right Stace!) and it made me feel better and worse at the same time. I get in these sad/down moods and I feel trapped in and it's dumb and it sucks. There's no point hating who I am, or wishing to be someone different because it's not gonna happen. When I really look at myself in the mirror I like who I see. I'm a good person who is beautiful inside and out[in a very nonegotistical way]. I can do so much and accomplish so much and i'm going to. I have the most amazing friends in the world and if I can count them on one hand then i'm SO lucky, but I can't even begin to count the good friends I have on both of my hands. I'm so incredibly lucky.
I'm lonely, yes. I want to be in a relationship, yes more then anything. But being that desperate is STUPID because i'll end up in a relationship i'm not supposed to be in, that won't work out because i'm only with them to be with somebody. As sad as it is to say that's how both of my relationships were. I was with them because they wanted to be with me and I was lonely and that made me attracted to the idea of us beign together. They both ended, I was hurt and it was stupid. I had to learn those lessons though.
I'm done looking, i'm seriously SICK of it! It's time they find me..
I'm done trying to get people to like me, I think it makes them like me less..if you want to get to know me then that's rad! Almost everybody who really really knows me think i'm pretty cool kid, so i've heard. The problem is most people don't give me that chance, well screw you then. That's fine..
I'm sick of hiding who I really am at fear of who will think what of me.
I have my insecurities, my imperfections, my blond moments..
They make me who I am. You hate it? Fine I don't care enough to try and impress you.
You like it?
Then hey my name's Katy, if we're not friends yet..we should be.
To be happy
Yeah yeah everybody wants that..and many people are quick to surrender to the hell that life can be.
You have to work for happiness, it won't just come to you.
I've heard that to find what you're looking for, it's best to put it out into the world, into the atmosphere. So here it goes..
I want to be with the guy i'm supposed to be with..I realized my standards as more and more guys have hurt me and I realized that as much I liked them they still weren't what I wanted..what I needed..
-I need a guy who wants to be with me, to talk to me, to hold me, to take care of me. Not 24/7 always by my side, make each other sick that's too much. He needs to spend time with his friends as well, but he won't be afraid to tell his friends "maybe next time" when he wants to spend time with me.
-I need a guy who finds music as important as I do.
-I need a guy i'm attracted to, this may sound shallow but it's really not..if you're not attracted to who you're with, you're not in a good relationship. Whether it's their personality, laugh, smile, whatever that makes them attractive not neccessarily looks.
-I need a guy I have a real and true connection with.
-I need a guy who's funny, and not a stupid funny but a real funny who makes people laugh and who could make me laugh on my worst day.
-I need a guy who likes taking me out, who wants to have a good time and who's creative and not just only up for dinner and a movie but would go bowling or mini golfing or something little and dumb like that but is totally fun.
-I need a guy who loves to smile.
-I need a guy who loves to cuddle, and hold me.
-I need a guy who when i'm sick, will take care of me and not be afraid of him getting sick so he stays away.(yeah that was one of my exes..nice right?).
-I need a guy who's not afraid to be romantic.
-I want a guy who isn't cocky but is confident.
-I need a guy who has the same music taste as me and will go to shows with me.
-I need a guy who won't mind me taking pictures with him that I could put on MySpace(that one sorta made me laugh..i'm so addicted..)
-I need a guy who won't be too mushy gushy and make me wanna vomit cute..being cute is good, overly cute is deadly.
-I need a guy who will only tell me he loves me when he means it.
-I need a guy who won't lie to me about stuff that'll end up hurting me.
-I need a guy who'll support me, and when I finally start performing will try his best to be there everytime.
-I need a guy who'll protect me if need be.
-I need a guy who knows exactly what I need.
-I need a guy who accepts me for who I am.
-I need a guy who when my hair is amess, glasses are on, make up is off will tell me i'm beautiful and mean it.
-I need a guy who goes to UCF, long distance sucks.
-I need a guy who will drive 45 minutes to Cocoa Beach just to watch the sunrise with me, or who won't mind laying in the grass with me just to watch the stars.
-I need a guy who won't be grossed out when i'm drunk and puking and will hold my hair back..if I were to get drunk haha..
-I need a guy who isn't afraid to be himself
-I need a guy who isn't incredibly jealous, but just jealous enough so I know he cares about me
-I need a guy who plays an instrument or sings, cause music is huge in my life.
-I need a nice guy.
-I need a guy who will watch chick flicks with me even if it's the last thing he wants to do.
-I need a guy I can talk on the phone with for hours when it seems like only 5 minutes.
-I need a guy who minds PDA mostly..I can't stand most forms of PDA, holding hands and cheek kissing once in a while is ok..no more..blehh..
-I need a guy who doesn't hate people for their skin color, or religion or anything. -I need an open minded guy.
-I need a guy who isn't a druggie or alcoholic. When I say drugs I mean anything worse then pot, and no potheads..there's a difference between people who occasionally smoke and those who are potheads. If you're productive, I know people who have had friends that smoked pot and became a self made millionaire. Oh and alcoholic as in HAS to drink all the dang time. Everything is pretty much okay in moderation, but come on there is a limit.
-I need a guy who DOESN'T smoke cigarettes, or dip or blehh..that stuff.
-I need a guy who wants to be in a long term relationship.
-I need a guy I have that kiss with, the one where you feel something when you kiss them.
-I need a guy with decent people as friends, as in I can chill with them and they're pretty much cool with that, unless you need guy time then by all means.
-Taller then me would be great since i'm tall.
I wonder how many guys i've scared off..lol..
Wow..that's a lot..I hope it's not too much to look for? Of course he may not meet all of the standards..but I mean most of them would be great haha.
I'm done chasing, now I want to be found.
I am so much farther from finding myself then I thought and scary as that is it's okay because i'm still molding into who I want to be and if I change styles, or music, or anything it's not because i'm posing as something i'm not it's because i'm becoming who i'm meant and want to be.
Amanda sent me once, one of my favorite quotes:
"Life isn't about finding yourself. Life is about creating yourself.-George Bernard Shaw
It's true, I used to think by doing certain things I was just hiding who I was but it isn't, it was something I liked so I did it, or I wore it, or I listened to it. I'm just becoming me.
Stacy commented earlier about how the way you feel is how most others percieve you(hope I got that right Stace!) and it made me feel better and worse at the same time. I get in these sad/down moods and I feel trapped in and it's dumb and it sucks. There's no point hating who I am, or wishing to be someone different because it's not gonna happen. When I really look at myself in the mirror I like who I see. I'm a good person who is beautiful inside and out[in a very nonegotistical way]. I can do so much and accomplish so much and i'm going to. I have the most amazing friends in the world and if I can count them on one hand then i'm SO lucky, but I can't even begin to count the good friends I have on both of my hands. I'm so incredibly lucky.
I'm lonely, yes. I want to be in a relationship, yes more then anything. But being that desperate is STUPID because i'll end up in a relationship i'm not supposed to be in, that won't work out because i'm only with them to be with somebody. As sad as it is to say that's how both of my relationships were. I was with them because they wanted to be with me and I was lonely and that made me attracted to the idea of us beign together. They both ended, I was hurt and it was stupid. I had to learn those lessons though.
I'm done looking, i'm seriously SICK of it! It's time they find me..
I'm done trying to get people to like me, I think it makes them like me less..if you want to get to know me then that's rad! Almost everybody who really really knows me think i'm pretty cool kid, so i've heard. The problem is most people don't give me that chance, well screw you then. That's fine..
I'm sick of hiding who I really am at fear of who will think what of me.
I have my insecurities, my imperfections, my blond moments..
They make me who I am. You hate it? Fine I don't care enough to try and impress you.
You like it?
Then hey my name's Katy, if we're not friends yet..we should be.