You've been nothing but a positive force in my life. You know that.
Things will get better.
If you stay in the world, you get to see things get better. You get to put some beauty into the world...and negativity too, yes, that's inevitable, even though you mean well...most of us mean well. I always thought it trite and stupid when people said life was unfair, but it's true. Everyone gains that wisdom sooner or later, for themselves, and like love, there is no map. But if you remove yourself from the world, you leave a huge ripple of negativity. A splash of pain. No more good from Ralph. And you have so much good to give.
Ups and downs.
I promise. I'm still down, not as far down as I was, as you are now, but I still have hope that it will get better.
It wouldn't hurt to get help. It's one of the best thingsyou could do for yourself right now.
For what it is worth, I think you are a very good person. Intentions are the true mark of a person's goodness, and it's clear that your intentions are good and sincere; sometimes we simply can't help when our well-meant actions have the opposite effect, and all we can do is try our best to make things up to those whom we've hurt inadvertently.
Whatever is going on, I hope that you hang in there and that things work out.
Dude, the way you interact with some people will always be different from the way you interact with others. If you're hurting someone, it might just be that You + Them = Hurts Them. There are other people, I'm sure, that you combine with as ingredients to make a much healthier stew. (Yes, this had to turn into a cannibalism parable somehow. haha)
I'm not You and I'm not Them (because you've never hurt me), so just make sure you're taking whatever criticism you've gotten with a grain of salt.
I am always shocked when I find that you actually read my journal. You still seem like a cult hero to me. ;'P
I think you're right and that that's exactly what I need to do. I have to fix the things I can, and walk away from the things I can't, and not make hurting people feel like the overarching theme of my life. I have tried to be a good person, and I will continue to try and be a good person, and that's all I can really do, at the end of the day.
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You've been nothing but a positive force in my life. You know that.
Things will get better.
If you stay in the world, you get to see things get better. You get to put some beauty into the world...and negativity too, yes, that's inevitable, even though you mean well...most of us mean well. I always thought it trite and stupid when people said life was unfair, but it's true. Everyone gains that wisdom sooner or later, for themselves, and like love, there is no map. But if you remove yourself from the world, you leave a huge ripple of negativity. A splash of pain. No more good from Ralph. And you have so much good to give.
Ups and downs.
I promise. I'm still down, not as far down as I was, as you are now, but I still have hope that it will get better.
It wouldn't hurt to get help. It's one of the best thingsyou could do for yourself right now.
Love you.
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Whatever is going on, I hope that you hang in there and that things work out.
*hug*
Love,
Marc
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I will hang in there, I'm made of stronger stuff than giving up I've decided. ;')
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I'm not You and I'm not Them (because you've never hurt me), so just make sure you're taking whatever criticism you've gotten with a grain of salt.
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I am always shocked when I find that you actually read my journal. You still seem like a cult hero to me. ;'P
I think you're right and that that's exactly what I need to do. I have to fix the things I can, and walk away from the things I can't, and not make hurting people feel like the overarching theme of my life. I have tried to be a good person, and I will continue to try and be a good person, and that's all I can really do, at the end of the day.
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