wednesday blues

[kumamomo]

i really am such a bastard.

nothing makes sense after all the emotion had been drained.

parallel to..numbness? can't place the feeling.

as if i don't want anything. rather, lost the "wanting" of anything.

floating.

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Comments

Rei here....

[anonymous]

*sigh* I know that feeling. I recognize it very well. Like you've wanted something for very long but just can't seem to get it and eventually you just lose interest... or just give up because you feel like there's no point in going after it anymore and you're just too damn tired of trying and waiting...

..and then you just float. Drift away somewhere. Nowhere. And there's nothing... even you... and it feels like you dissolved into something and you're not really whole anymore... like pieces of shattered glass... "no me, no world, no mind, no space..." (reference goes to K's Choice' "Believe")

*whacks forehead* The fuck am I doing?? I'm just making you feel more miserable >_< Cure: Yaoi Fics. Yeah, that should do it...

I hope you get past that "floating" stage. Because it's hard. And I never did get past it...

me

[anonymous]

isn't there any way to contact the shrink thru text? i think i want to remain anonymous... and it WILL make me uncomfortable talking to him/her on phone. i'm sorry if i'm too picky and such a pain in the ass. i can't help it. i just can't. i'm fucking scared. i know and i admit that i need help. but it would take time before i can actually have the courage to speak with the person personally and open up with him/her. and i seriously need to get on meds because the attacks come more frequently now. and i'm getting worse.