Y'know, for the past few weeks my mind has seemed clouded, weak, and depressed. I'm not sure why but last night i got fed up with it all. I told a 'friend' of mine to just slice her wrist, be done with it, and go fuck herself for all i care. And ya know what. I FEEL FUCKING GREAT. I've found whats wrong with me. Not my life, but myself. I've been ( Read more... )

Haven't heard from me in awhile have you. Well so you know i am alive, and while not doing too well thriving. Jobhunting a bit and taking a break from school, but going to restart in summer session C. Honestly my minds just not been up for dealing with shit as of late. Anyone else understand? Eh probably most of the people on my friends list ( Read more... )

Well in general life is just going, and i feel bad for saying this, but recently, while somewhat happy its just, bad? Dunno, my mom would probably say its due to my stepdads anniversary coming up, others? got me, i just feel really fucked up inside lately. I'm falling behind in most of my classes, my mind cant concentrate for long, and i find ( Read more... )

Sorry i've been so busy from updating all but life has been hectic. From School to Online to Love life, Shit seems to be hitting the fan at times and at others wonderful ( Read more... )

Damn it! Insomnia Strikes again. 5:30 in the AM and unable to sleep. Bashing my head against the wall isn't working. *Sigh*. Nothing better to do then write on my livejournal, Warcraft got boring, no ones on, and im thinking of stabbing myself in the eye for something new. Oh well ( Read more... )

Well it's the new year, and how to describe it. . . IT FUCKING SUCKS! Some good things thankfully, such as major ass-kicking of FFX-2 thanks to dillon lending it to me and massive snuggles, but for the most part, im getting majorly annoyed. Prince of Tennis refuses to download, which annoys me since im about 10 eps from completing the damnable ( Read more... )

I've decided to finally explain how the day between Jamie (Kitty) and I Went. If you hadn't guessed, it went suprisingly well. She seems to have done an Utter 180* and after much consideration, after a week of seeing her every day for atleast a long phonecall, i've decided to give it a FINAL Try. The girl is under serious probation which she agreed ( Read more... )

Yes, I know I should be posting about how kitty and I are doing from our make-up get together, but I will get into that later. But Again, Today was fucking Sweet. I Woke up to the words 'hey, if you wanna blow shit up, get up.' So I woke up, wouldnt you?. THREE HOURS! Yeah! Three hours in the desert blowing apart bottles, boxes, broken hunks of a ( Read more... )

This is one of the, i must say, saddest and rudest conversations i have had in a long time. Between? Me and Dillons Mother. Wanna know how it went ( Read more... )

Today, i spent several hours on the phone with Jamie (My Ex-Fiancee) and im currently at war on the inside. I Mean theres the nice guy inside of me saying 'she's sorry, you love her, give it a chance'. Then there's the bastard (Most of me) Saying 'what the fuck is wrong with you, she'll do it again'. And of course, the pirate stating 'Thinking ( Read more... )