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[kuraku]

I've been wanting for a long time to see someone and just tell them about my year. I was thinking about a priest or even my doctor. As I was laying in bed thinking I realized why I want to do that so badly. I don't want help or even sympathy, I want validation. I want someone who knows a lot of people and knows what hardships people go through

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[gorzo]

Wow, just last night I was thinking about how you hadn't posted for awhile and I was wondering how you were doing. I think you should talk to your doctor, and maybe he or she could refer you to a therapist. I think a therapist would be ideal for you right now. You have been through way too much and it's understandable for you to be having any number of problems right now, but a therapist could help work through them in a healthy manner.

[kuraku]

Thank you for thinking of me! I don't really want to go back to counseling. I've already had 3+ years of it during high school and college and I don't think I'm ready for that kind of commitment and I know a lot about it already. I honestly think I'll be okay on my own. My husband is my therapist for sure. He helps me work through things. And my mom is a actually a therapist and she helps me too. It's more a matter of feeling triumphant in my validation I think... which is pretty twisted, but I've had a pretty crazy life and sometimes I just need people who are hearing about it for the first time to tell me that. Friends can't do that. 1. I almost never tell everything everything at the same time so they really process it, and 2. If they do know everything, they usually don't react. I think it's all a little too shocking.