I'm increadably low. Like a computer, full of useless files and idle processes I'm slowed to crawl due to things placed by my users. If only I could reboot, defrag, even fuckin format and start over it would be so much easier. I feel so drained ( Read more... )

I had a lucid dream last night. Sences were so strong it felt more like a memory. It felt so real and it sits with reality so nicely with alot of things... the dream even took into account aging everyone a year and adding in extra characters who are younger which I haven't met before. It is what it is ( Read more... )

I was playing scrabble online and I put down the winning word using up the rest of my tiles... and the system challenges it because thats how the game is designed. It automatically challenges the final word of the game cause if its a word the game is over and so nobody would have a chance to challenge... so anyway I read that line and it made me ( Read more... )

Lets see what's new ( Read more... )

I already typed it and its only 5 am... I'll just leave it in this format ( Read more... )

Of late I've been having this dream. In it I'm standing in a small country style kitchen. I just finished washing the dishes and I've a towel in hand to dry them. The window is opened half way and a small blue bird purches on the ledge. She begins to sing and the song lands upon my ears as if carried by seraphins. Her song is beautiful and I am ( Read more... )

INFP creative, smart, idealist, loner, attracted to sad things, disorganized, avoidant, overwhelmed by unpleasant feelings, lonely, rule breaker, solitary, daydreams about people to maintain a sense of closeness, focus on fantasies, acts without planning, feels defective, likes esoteric things, wounded at the core, sad, dreams about a rescuer, ( Read more... )

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Though I am not all for drinking. I've realized that between being "fucked up" and having a near death experiance I've found this sence of honisty ( Read more... )

I owe my life to my roommmates.... i drank way too much and nearly died...somehow they got me into the shower and sat with me for hours... another near death experiance..

tired now... more tomorrow.

-mike