when i smile at you (one-shot)
Daiki looked up from the book he was reading and stared at Yuto…
I’m sorry Yuto…
Is it so hard to smile when I smile at you?
Is it so hard to laugh with me? How long has it been since we’ve laughed together?
Is it so hard to look at me when I say hello?
Is it so hard to speak with me? How long ago was our last conversation?
All those years we’ve known each other
All those years we were together
All the fun we had together
All that gone because of one move. Yes. All because of one move, my stupid mistake.
Before I thought that it was alright
For we’ve always made up in the past.
But now, it’s impossible. What I did was unforgivable
I was always happy to see you, to hear about you.
Now when I see you, all I see is pain in your eyes.
You were always there when I need you
And each day we're walking farther apart
So I have to learn to stand up for myself
Maybe this was supposed to happen...
Reading what I have written, I understand now.
Reminiscing the past makes me happy
There isn’t much I can do
And that’s what I’m sad about most
“No worries!” I lie to myself
And each day it’s getting harder to say.
“It’s okay.”
My lying self is who I hate.
But speaking my mind is so hard
I’ve lied about almost everything
It’s hard for me to trust myself.
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how was it????? was it decent? good? BAD? horrible? wonderful? (<-- which i HIGHLY doubt)