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Like the chipped mug, who for days sat in unacknowledged self-pity, you also lied of my fate.
Battered from the duo, the mug faces extermination, and I also face an even less welcoming future. -
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And where my habits are bad, yours are worse. Where my care is little, yours is less. Yet where I am apathetic, you claim yourself not. And where you are irresponsible, you claim I am child-like.
...But I'm not the one screwing up my life--you are. Only your life is already screwed, so I'm your new project. -
"Age cannot wither her, nor custom stale her infinite variety, other women cloy" - Shakespeare
I threw out two lip glosses yesterday; they smelled funny. I took out five purses too, that haven't been in used in at least two years--to sell or give away I have not yet decided. It's times like these that I wonder the vanity of quantity, the reason for desire.
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What the lonely scream in their sleep.
My left cheek hurts like it's been hit.
...But it hasn't. It is a mystery to me why it's been hurting since last night.
and I'm still waiting for the day that I'll be free from influences and blessings. Freedom from praying, hoping, believing, acting, and fearing -
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I feel a sense of dread.
The truth is never quite at my grasp. It evades me, persuades me to abandon search. I don't know who is to blame; perhaps myself the most.
But I feel the lie in my gut. I feel it in my declining health. I feel it boiling for attention and commanding tears at its will. I feel that truth will be the death of meAnd like in ( Read more... ) -
And if you say you'll do better, you make me wonder: why now? for how long? by how much?
"Trust not a man; they are by nature cruel,
False, deceitful, treacherous, and inconstant.
When a man talks of love, with caution hear him;
But if he swear, he'll certainly deceive you."
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"You're braver than you believe, stronger than you seem and smarter than you think." - Christopher
But lonelier than you imagined.
At least Pooh had Christopher, and when Christopher was not around he had Piglet as his side-kick.
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The impurity that haunts me when my mind is clouded.
I could not sleep in my dream and was sitting up playing with my computer. There was a faceless he beside me, like a shadow, and it was he who finally convinced me to lay myself to sleep. There was loud rhythmic snoring in the background and I couldn't figure out where it was coming from. Loud like my uncle's--but he couldn't be here. Where I lay ( Read more... ) -
"Love & lies & my heart filled with shattered glass & on my face a thousand sorrows..."
Yoh: "I'm going to Tokyo, right?
And when that happens, I'm sure you'll be lonely. But you'll push yourself, right? And you won't tell me.
And then you'll pour yourself into your work or whatever so as to not feel lonely. And some guy will talk to you at work. You're a little thick, so you won't think too much about it. You'll hangout with him, ( Read more... ) -
Whatever you can say, I can say more...
Whatever you can do, I can do better.
Whatever you must think, I must think harder.
Whatever you promise, I promise too.
& whichever promise you break--I can break tooYesterday was the first day of class--I had never been to campus before 10AM prior to yesterday. Way early class and yet I was not too late. Amazing ( Read more... )