Comments | kurlow: basil, smelly fingers, uma thurman, and stillness

kurlow

basil, smelly fingers, uma thurman, and stillness

Oct 17, 2003 13:54

we went out for pho today at lunch and now my hands smell like basil. it's nice actually. catch 22: i want to wash my hands cause that's kinda gross [crushing the leaves on my soup and then not washing 'em. although guess they were washed for our consumption ANYways] but i don't cause how rare is it that my hands smell refreshing and herbal? ah, ( Read more... )

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amiii October 17 2003, 15:38:48 UTC

wow, hey? sooo... i'm with you there. and... i dont even fully know what my worries are!! they're just there and intense and bumming me out... and you know, when i read your "nothing is ever as bad as we see it" i stopped.. pondered for about 1/2 a second, and then did a big fat these-are-my-teeth smile. and i chuckle to God. cuz, sooo true. soooo true. wow. haha. thank you.

honestly, now i'm happy. giddy, i'm sure. nearly thrilled.

eww, emotions are weird lil' suckers. like, honestly, come on now! how ridiculous..

haha...

kurlow October 20 2003, 12:42:32 UTC

raw ha ha!

that's rad!

i know, it's like we put on these damning glasses that only show us the ugly, breath-in-yer-throat stuff. it's kinda like 'objects in mirror closer than they appear'. it's an illusion.

emotions eh? so so true. they can be HUGE time wasters. for me anyways.

how are you doing with those worries?

i hate the worries that you can't put your finger on. they're just there, weighing you down. i hear that. ask god to show you them. he will.

roxygalpal October 19 2003, 15:47:12 UTC

dude jeesh, your posts are good, and entertaining. being quite on the inside is so hard to do, because we make it hard. ive learned that getting flustered in the midst of your problems, only creates more fluster and a wall comes up between god and i. so instead of pondering thoughts and questiening myself all i have to remind myself is to work it out with god. what is the issue? whats motivating my heart? then being still seems to be almost peacing. i odnt know....hard to put a handle on. but i see you becoming very wise, and ive told you this recently. super awesome to watch god form you in the way his hands want to shape his little adored pot(you) jesus loves you so much and by what your doing, weather listening to him or quietening your soul before him is simply worshiping him. im glad to be along side you as a dear friend. you rule! thumbs up to you..hehe tooodledoo

kurlow October 21 2003, 14:45:59 UTC

aw man! that's a beautiful reply! thank you!

i have a huge ear-ta-ear smile on my wee face right now [not so wee with all this teeeeth!]. that was unexpected. i appreciate those the best. thanks for the encouragement. for realsies.

growth is a funny thing eh? i mean, i would NEVER look at my life right now and say, holy cow, god's really changing me. that's why he puts people like you into my life. to help me see his hand on me. and then it all seems worthwhile!

and i hear you about the flustered thing. i'll remind you about that next time you need to hear it. that's the battle...i think we have to learn how to scale the wall that you talked about, rather than avoid it altogether. cause we could end up wasting soo much time trying to find ways to ensure it doesn't build up, and then, once it does, beat ourselves for it building up all over again. and then we miss the point entirely!

we need to discover how to most effectively find a door in the wall, or jump over it. when you find out, let me know. then write a book and make

roxygalpal October 26 2003, 16:51:12 UTC

make millions uh? grandola idea. lets get in on it togetha...we make trillions