"Never Again", oneshot, ReitaxRuki
Title: Never Again
Chapters: 1/1 (oneshot)
Author: kuroi_fuyu (aka frozenstream)
Genre: angst, smut
Warnings: explicit sex, language
Rating: NC-17
Bands: the GazettE
Pairings: ReitaxRuki, (mentioned RukixAoi)
Synopsis: What you get from trusting someone..
Disclaimers: yep, I keep them in my closet. We have pillow fights every night that always end up to something naughty... pfft, I wish!!
Comments: eh, I don't wanna say anything to scare you away xD Let's get back to it at the end of the fic.
“Rei, look at me..”
The tall blonde didn’t make any other movement than crossing his arms over his chest. He just stood there beside the window, staring as the raindrops silently slid down the glass and hoping he’d be left alone.
“Rei..?” a shiver ran down his spine as a cold hand was placed on his shoulder.
“Don’t touch me!” he snapped taking a step away finally turning to face the other man. A wave of sympathy washing over him as he saw how terrible the other looked: His soaked clothes glued to his skin, water dripping from his blond hair, a couple of lonely strands on his face.. Make-up spread, eyes teary and his lower lip was shaking, possibly from the cold. He looked like a lost puppy. Reita quickly shook his head trying to get rid off the feeling. That man wasn’t worth any sympathy.
“I’m so sorry”, Ruki breathed with a shaky voice.
“I’m sure you are..”
“I really am!” his eyes met Reita’s, a tear running down his cheek. “I love you Rei-”
“Well you should’ve thought of that before you fucked Aoi!” Reita shouted anger vivid in his voice.
“Reita…”, Ruki tried to reach for him but his arms got pushed away.
“I told you not to fuckin’ touch me!” The other basically shrieked and made Ruki retrieve a few steps back.
“I swear it didn’t mean anything!”
“Oh, it didn’t?” Reita gave out a laugh. It was sarcastic and meant to hurt. “You really think hearing this is gonna make me feel any better, huh? Hearing that he was just a random fuck?!” Ruki didn’t know what to say. He opened his mouth ready to speak but closed it soon after. Knowing the shorter man wasn’t going to defend himself, Reita continued: “Maybe that was all I was to you also..”
“That you were what?”
“A random fuck. Maybe that was all you wanted from me!”
“You know that ain’t true..”, Ruki's gaze turned to the floor.
“Oh, I think that was all I ever was. A good fuck. You just loved the feeling of me inside you.. That’s the type of little slut you are!”, Reita spat. With a few fast steps he closed the space between them two, his skillful fingers starting to work on Ruki's belt.
“Wha- what are you doing??” the look on the vocalist’s face was horrified.
“Now this is why you came here, isn’t it?” Reita whispered to Ruki’s ear, voice oozing of seduction and teeth slightly nibbling the earlobe. A soft whimper escaped Ruki’s lips, arms wrapping around the upper body of the man before him. Reita just smirked at that, moving on to unzip Ruki’s jeans.
“Rei, please.. stop…” he pleaded.
“But why? When you obviously want this..”, Reita squeezed Ruki through his boxers, the shorter man letting out a deep groan. He attacked Ruki’s neck still hand on the warm crotch. Biting and sucking the skin he gained more groaning from the other blonde. With one swift movement he pulled Ruki’s jeans and boxers down, leaving him half naked in front of him. The cold air made Ruki gasp.
“Reita..”, he started but was silenced as the bassist pressed his lips against his own. The kiss was far from the loving, sensitive kiss he was used to getting from Reita. It was so rough that it almost hu- “Ouch!” Ruki pulled away as Reita’s teeth sank into his lip.
“Oh shut up! You’ve always liked it a little rough..”
“That doesn’t mean you can…” the taste of blood filled his mouth. “Geez, Rei, I’m bleeding!” Reita just snorted wrapping his long fingers around Ruki’s length. Ruki whimpered at the touch as Reita started stroking him slowly yet with a firm grib. Breathing becoming faster and hips slightly thrusting to Reita’s hand, all sounds that came out of his mouth were now merely moans. Eyelids closed and the plump lips slightly parted as Reita pumped him faster and faster.
“Oh you like this, don’t you?” Reita said teasingly. Ruki just groaned at that making the other man chuckle deep in his throat. “Step out..” The sudden command made Ruki open his eyes and raise on eyebrow. Reita let out a frustrated sigh and unwrapped his fingers, a small pout forming on Ruki’s lips cause of the lost. “Step out of your pants”, the taller man said emphasizing every word. Ruki did as he was told to only to then be pushed hard against the wall behind him, Reita’s mouth attacking his in a hungry kiss.
But as soon as Ruki started answering back and tried to slid his tongue between Reita’s lips, the other pulled away.
“No~w”, he basically purred. “Suck me.” Ruki stared in Reita’s stern eyes for a moment or two but finally got on his knees. Reita smiled approvingly working on his own belt, finally throwing it somewhere behind him. Ruki gulped as he unzipped the pants revealing the cock that was already half hardened. Reita had never been too keen on wearing underwear. The blonde gave it a couple of strokes, wetting his lips before taking the head inside his mouth. His skillful tongue swirling around it, gently stroking the base with his hand at the same time. Reita groaned loudly leaning against the wall with his hands.
“That’s it.. Show me what that pretty mouth of yours can do..”, he said with a husky voice. Ruki took more of him in his mouth. He pressed his tongue against the vein on the underside and Reita’s hips thrusted forward unwillingly making Ruki gag slightly. The taller man grabbed his hair as if commanding him to continue.. which Ruki did. Relaxing his throat he allowed more of Reita’s length in, head moving up and down along the long shaft. Sucking, licking and slightly teething the sensitive flesh he made Reita a mess of groans. Ruki could feel the erection throbbing inside his mouth, making himself harden at the same time.
“O-okay, that’s enough doll..”, Reita panted releasing his grib on the blond hair. Ruki stood up wiping the corners of his mouth. Once again he was pushed against the wall, Reita grabbing his buttocks and lifting him up. His legs wrapped around Reita’s waist and hands found their way around his back looking for some more support. Reita positioned himself at Ruki’s entrance.
“W-what about lube?” Ruki gasped.
“We won’t need any of that”, Reita said making Ruki a little uncomfortable with the tone of his voice. “Aoi has already stretched you, now hasn’t he?” The hurt was visible in Ruki’s eyes. But before he had time to say anything, Reita pushed himself inside. A scream of pain escaped Ruki’s mouth and tears blurred his vision. Closing his eyes shut and biting hard on his lower lip he tried to adjust to the stinging pain he was feeling. He felt Reita withdrew a little and then a wet tongue licked away one of the teardrops that fell down his cheek.
“I guess Aoi hasn’t got as much man as I do”, Reita smirked slamming back into the tight body. Ruki’s nails dug into his back, leaving red marks over the pale skin and he hid his face in the crook of Reita’s neck trying to hide the tears. Reita built up a fast and steady rhythm quickly. He lifted Ruki’s hips a little higher for a better angle. Ruki’s loud gasp let him know he had hit the sweet spot.
“Oh.. s-shit.. Rei..!” were all words Ruki was able to form as Reita nailed his prostate over and over again. Reita spead up a little, their panting filling the otherwise silent apartment. With his right hand he started stroking Ruki making the other man shiver. He was close, but so was Reita.
One more hit to the prostate and Reita’s thumb moving over the head of his cock, Ruki was coming hard between them, Reita’s name leaving his lips mixed with a loud moan. Not long after he could feel Reita coming inside him, head thrown back and a groan stuck somewhere in his throat. Hips jerking Reita rode out his orgasm, finally leaning against Ruki’s sweaty body, both trying to catch their breaths.
Ruki’s fingers traveled through the taller man’s hair and then gently smoothing his cheek. “I love you..”, he whispered with a smile. Without any warning Reita withdrew himself from Ruki and let the shorter man fall on the floor. “What the fu---??!”
“You know where the door is. Get dressed and get the fuck out of here”, Reita said bluntly pulling his zipper up before heading towards the bathroom, leaving Ruki dumbfounded on the cold floor. As soon as the door was slammed shut, tears found their way to Ruki’s eyes again. Feeling violated and used he lifted his legs up to his chest winding his arms around them. Cradling gently back and forth he let his forehead lean against his knees, sobbing silently.
In the bathroom Reita was leaning his back against the wooden door, waiting for the other man to leave. After what felt like forever he finally heard a sound of door falling shut. He let out a deep sigh and walked over to the sink.
“What are you crying about?” he asked his reflection, the teary eyes staring back at him from the mirror. He hated to be this weak, it was not like him. “Get a grip you whimp!” But the tears wouldn’t stop. Reita leaned against the sink, feeling the cold material under his touch. Biting on his lip he tried to silence his sobbing.
“What the fuck did you do to me Ruki?!” He suddenly screamed hitting his fist hard against the mirror. The glass shattering to pieces, the same way his heart had done just a few hours ago when he had found Aoi from Ruki’s bedroom. He had never been too naïve about the world around him. He knew people hurt each other. Already in his teens he had hid behind a mask, to protect himself. Not letting the others to know his weaknesses. And no one could break that shell he had built...
How stupid he had been… Love does the most weird things to a person. All it had taken was a gentle kiss from Ruki’s delicious lips, and his shell was off. He gave his heart and soul to the other.
Reita hissed as he touched his scratched knuckles. Leaning against the wall behind him, he let his back slide down the surface until he was sitting on the tile floor. Guess this was the price he had to pay for trusting someone.
As the last drop of the salty water escaped the corner of his eye, he promised himself that he wouldn’t be making the same mistake again.
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A/N: eh, so this was my first time writing smut and the first fic I show to the public O.O Comments would be highly appreciated^^;
Chapters: 1/1 (oneshot)
Author: kuroi_fuyu (aka frozenstream)
Genre: angst, smut
Warnings: explicit sex, language
Rating: NC-17
Bands: the GazettE
Pairings: ReitaxRuki, (mentioned RukixAoi)
Synopsis: What you get from trusting someone..
Disclaimers: yep, I keep them in my closet. We have pillow fights every night that always end up to something naughty... pfft, I wish!!
Comments: eh, I don't wanna say anything to scare you away xD Let's get back to it at the end of the fic.
“Rei, look at me..”
The tall blonde didn’t make any other movement than crossing his arms over his chest. He just stood there beside the window, staring as the raindrops silently slid down the glass and hoping he’d be left alone.
“Rei..?” a shiver ran down his spine as a cold hand was placed on his shoulder.
“Don’t touch me!” he snapped taking a step away finally turning to face the other man. A wave of sympathy washing over him as he saw how terrible the other looked: His soaked clothes glued to his skin, water dripping from his blond hair, a couple of lonely strands on his face.. Make-up spread, eyes teary and his lower lip was shaking, possibly from the cold. He looked like a lost puppy. Reita quickly shook his head trying to get rid off the feeling. That man wasn’t worth any sympathy.
“I’m so sorry”, Ruki breathed with a shaky voice.
“I’m sure you are..”
“I really am!” his eyes met Reita’s, a tear running down his cheek. “I love you Rei-”
“Well you should’ve thought of that before you fucked Aoi!” Reita shouted anger vivid in his voice.
“Reita…”, Ruki tried to reach for him but his arms got pushed away.
“I told you not to fuckin’ touch me!” The other basically shrieked and made Ruki retrieve a few steps back.
“I swear it didn’t mean anything!”
“Oh, it didn’t?” Reita gave out a laugh. It was sarcastic and meant to hurt. “You really think hearing this is gonna make me feel any better, huh? Hearing that he was just a random fuck?!” Ruki didn’t know what to say. He opened his mouth ready to speak but closed it soon after. Knowing the shorter man wasn’t going to defend himself, Reita continued: “Maybe that was all I was to you also..”
“That you were what?”
“A random fuck. Maybe that was all you wanted from me!”
“You know that ain’t true..”, Ruki's gaze turned to the floor.
“Oh, I think that was all I ever was. A good fuck. You just loved the feeling of me inside you.. That’s the type of little slut you are!”, Reita spat. With a few fast steps he closed the space between them two, his skillful fingers starting to work on Ruki's belt.
“Wha- what are you doing??” the look on the vocalist’s face was horrified.
“Now this is why you came here, isn’t it?” Reita whispered to Ruki’s ear, voice oozing of seduction and teeth slightly nibbling the earlobe. A soft whimper escaped Ruki’s lips, arms wrapping around the upper body of the man before him. Reita just smirked at that, moving on to unzip Ruki’s jeans.
“Rei, please.. stop…” he pleaded.
“But why? When you obviously want this..”, Reita squeezed Ruki through his boxers, the shorter man letting out a deep groan. He attacked Ruki’s neck still hand on the warm crotch. Biting and sucking the skin he gained more groaning from the other blonde. With one swift movement he pulled Ruki’s jeans and boxers down, leaving him half naked in front of him. The cold air made Ruki gasp.
“Reita..”, he started but was silenced as the bassist pressed his lips against his own. The kiss was far from the loving, sensitive kiss he was used to getting from Reita. It was so rough that it almost hu- “Ouch!” Ruki pulled away as Reita’s teeth sank into his lip.
“Oh shut up! You’ve always liked it a little rough..”
“That doesn’t mean you can…” the taste of blood filled his mouth. “Geez, Rei, I’m bleeding!” Reita just snorted wrapping his long fingers around Ruki’s length. Ruki whimpered at the touch as Reita started stroking him slowly yet with a firm grib. Breathing becoming faster and hips slightly thrusting to Reita’s hand, all sounds that came out of his mouth were now merely moans. Eyelids closed and the plump lips slightly parted as Reita pumped him faster and faster.
“Oh you like this, don’t you?” Reita said teasingly. Ruki just groaned at that making the other man chuckle deep in his throat. “Step out..” The sudden command made Ruki open his eyes and raise on eyebrow. Reita let out a frustrated sigh and unwrapped his fingers, a small pout forming on Ruki’s lips cause of the lost. “Step out of your pants”, the taller man said emphasizing every word. Ruki did as he was told to only to then be pushed hard against the wall behind him, Reita’s mouth attacking his in a hungry kiss.
But as soon as Ruki started answering back and tried to slid his tongue between Reita’s lips, the other pulled away.
“No~w”, he basically purred. “Suck me.” Ruki stared in Reita’s stern eyes for a moment or two but finally got on his knees. Reita smiled approvingly working on his own belt, finally throwing it somewhere behind him. Ruki gulped as he unzipped the pants revealing the cock that was already half hardened. Reita had never been too keen on wearing underwear. The blonde gave it a couple of strokes, wetting his lips before taking the head inside his mouth. His skillful tongue swirling around it, gently stroking the base with his hand at the same time. Reita groaned loudly leaning against the wall with his hands.
“That’s it.. Show me what that pretty mouth of yours can do..”, he said with a husky voice. Ruki took more of him in his mouth. He pressed his tongue against the vein on the underside and Reita’s hips thrusted forward unwillingly making Ruki gag slightly. The taller man grabbed his hair as if commanding him to continue.. which Ruki did. Relaxing his throat he allowed more of Reita’s length in, head moving up and down along the long shaft. Sucking, licking and slightly teething the sensitive flesh he made Reita a mess of groans. Ruki could feel the erection throbbing inside his mouth, making himself harden at the same time.
“O-okay, that’s enough doll..”, Reita panted releasing his grib on the blond hair. Ruki stood up wiping the corners of his mouth. Once again he was pushed against the wall, Reita grabbing his buttocks and lifting him up. His legs wrapped around Reita’s waist and hands found their way around his back looking for some more support. Reita positioned himself at Ruki’s entrance.
“W-what about lube?” Ruki gasped.
“We won’t need any of that”, Reita said making Ruki a little uncomfortable with the tone of his voice. “Aoi has already stretched you, now hasn’t he?” The hurt was visible in Ruki’s eyes. But before he had time to say anything, Reita pushed himself inside. A scream of pain escaped Ruki’s mouth and tears blurred his vision. Closing his eyes shut and biting hard on his lower lip he tried to adjust to the stinging pain he was feeling. He felt Reita withdrew a little and then a wet tongue licked away one of the teardrops that fell down his cheek.
“I guess Aoi hasn’t got as much man as I do”, Reita smirked slamming back into the tight body. Ruki’s nails dug into his back, leaving red marks over the pale skin and he hid his face in the crook of Reita’s neck trying to hide the tears. Reita built up a fast and steady rhythm quickly. He lifted Ruki’s hips a little higher for a better angle. Ruki’s loud gasp let him know he had hit the sweet spot.
“Oh.. s-shit.. Rei..!” were all words Ruki was able to form as Reita nailed his prostate over and over again. Reita spead up a little, their panting filling the otherwise silent apartment. With his right hand he started stroking Ruki making the other man shiver. He was close, but so was Reita.
One more hit to the prostate and Reita’s thumb moving over the head of his cock, Ruki was coming hard between them, Reita’s name leaving his lips mixed with a loud moan. Not long after he could feel Reita coming inside him, head thrown back and a groan stuck somewhere in his throat. Hips jerking Reita rode out his orgasm, finally leaning against Ruki’s sweaty body, both trying to catch their breaths.
Ruki’s fingers traveled through the taller man’s hair and then gently smoothing his cheek. “I love you..”, he whispered with a smile. Without any warning Reita withdrew himself from Ruki and let the shorter man fall on the floor. “What the fu---??!”
“You know where the door is. Get dressed and get the fuck out of here”, Reita said bluntly pulling his zipper up before heading towards the bathroom, leaving Ruki dumbfounded on the cold floor. As soon as the door was slammed shut, tears found their way to Ruki’s eyes again. Feeling violated and used he lifted his legs up to his chest winding his arms around them. Cradling gently back and forth he let his forehead lean against his knees, sobbing silently.
In the bathroom Reita was leaning his back against the wooden door, waiting for the other man to leave. After what felt like forever he finally heard a sound of door falling shut. He let out a deep sigh and walked over to the sink.
“What are you crying about?” he asked his reflection, the teary eyes staring back at him from the mirror. He hated to be this weak, it was not like him. “Get a grip you whimp!” But the tears wouldn’t stop. Reita leaned against the sink, feeling the cold material under his touch. Biting on his lip he tried to silence his sobbing.
“What the fuck did you do to me Ruki?!” He suddenly screamed hitting his fist hard against the mirror. The glass shattering to pieces, the same way his heart had done just a few hours ago when he had found Aoi from Ruki’s bedroom. He had never been too naïve about the world around him. He knew people hurt each other. Already in his teens he had hid behind a mask, to protect himself. Not letting the others to know his weaknesses. And no one could break that shell he had built...
How stupid he had been… Love does the most weird things to a person. All it had taken was a gentle kiss from Ruki’s delicious lips, and his shell was off. He gave his heart and soul to the other.
Reita hissed as he touched his scratched knuckles. Leaning against the wall behind him, he let his back slide down the surface until he was sitting on the tile floor. Guess this was the price he had to pay for trusting someone.
As the last drop of the salty water escaped the corner of his eye, he promised himself that he wouldn’t be making the same mistake again.
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A/N: eh, so this was my first time writing smut and the first fic I show to the public O.O Comments would be highly appreciated^^;