Starting Over (Oneshot)
Title : Starting Over
Pairing : Chiitaro, Yamachii, and mentions of Okajima
Rating : PG-13
A/N : Chinen's POV
I sighed for the nth time, as I tried to calm myself from not screaming at Yuto, as he continued bothering me about why I wasn't going to Morimoto's birthday party. "As I have said Yuto...it will be awkward if I go...I wouldn't feel comfortable going."
"But why...I don't understand why you think it will be awkward if you go! I know it's been a while since we saw Ryutaro, but still...unless..." I tempted to glare at him, as his eyes widened as if he figured something out. "Unless! You still have feelings for him?!"
Shit. I felt the pinch in my heart again. I really wanted to punch Yuto in the face right now, just so he would leave me alone, but I know our manager would kill me. "Yuto...if I still had feelings for him, would I really be dating Ryosuke right now?" That's right, I am dating Ryosuke right now...and I still have feelings for Morimoto...but no way was I letting anyone know that. I do love Ryosuke, but-
"Oh my-!" Yuto slapped a hand over his mouth, being over dramatic. "You do, don't you!?"
"No I don't." I tried to stay calm on the outside, not wanting him to see my true feelings, but I could feel my heart beating, tears wanting to pour out. I was so in love with Ryutaro, I don't think I will ever be completely over him, no matter how wonderful Ryosuke is to me, and I hated it.
"You do! You still have feelings for Ryutaro!"
"Would you shut up?!!?" I finally snapped after he got louder, people outside could probably hear him. "Ryosuke, or someone else, might hear you!" I stood up, pushing him, which he obviously did not expect since he fell to the floor. I heard the click of a door, and quickly looked over to see Ryosuke staring at us.
"What's going on...?" He looked back and forth at both of us. "Yuri, did you just push Yuto to the floor?"
I could feel the tears gathering in my eyes, and I looked away from both of them. "I..."
"Sorry Chii, I didn't mean to make you angry." Yuto stood up with the hand Ryosuke held out to him. "I was being mean and teasing Chii...so I deserved it. I'm sorry."
"Yuto! Don't tease my Yuri." Ryosuke pulled me into his arms, holding me close. I sighed in relief as I thought he hadn't heard what Yuto had been saying before about Morimoto.
"I'll just...leave you two alone now." Yuto gave me a glare, that I think was him trying to tell me something, but I ignored it.
"Are okay now?" Ryosuke pulled back, smiling at me, as he ruffled my hair. There was something off about his smile though...
"Yes, thank you Ryosuke." He then stepped back from me, with a serious face, one that I don't think I had ever seen from him.
"We need to talk. I heard...what you and Yuto were talking about."
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That was a week ago. Ryosuke had heard what we had been talking about, and asked why I got so upset about it. When I couldn't come up with a proper answer, he knew...he knew it was because I still loved Morimoto. I tried to tell him that he was wrong, and that I love him...but he knew it wasn't enough love to take over Morimoto's spot in my heart. We broke up. He wants me to be happy, but I honestly don't see that happening. There is no way Morimoto would still be in love with me after almost 2 1/2 years.
And now here I am, in my room with Yuto bothering me again. "Come on Chii...don't give up this chance. Ryo-chan wants you to be happy, and this is your one chance to try!"
"But, what if Morimoto doesn't have feelings for me anymore?"
"Then maybe you can really get over him then. Then maybe you can find a new happiness. I promise, if you start to feel uncomfortable, just come tell me or Keito, and we will all leave together. Ne, Keito?" I looked at Keito, who was now laying on my bed, since he got tired of listening to his boyfriend bothering me, and he nodded.
"Alright, I'll go."
It was now a few hours later, and the three of us were walking towards Morimoto's house. I was chewing on my bottom lip, extremely nervous to see Morimoto. I kept playing out scenes in my head of how our first meeting would go, and before I knew it, I stood in front of a familiar house. We went inside, and there were people everywhere. Some I knew, from Johnny's, and the other JUMP members, and some I didn't know, probably from his school. I rolled my eyes as I saw Yuto already running off, pulling Keito along, leaving me alone. I just stood there, looking at the crowd of people, trying to find someone to stick to, not wanting to talk to many of the people, when I saw him. He saw me. It was like everyone in the room froze, and I couldn't break our eye contact from across the room. His eyes were wide, probably shocked to see me there. I felt like my heart was going to burst out from my chest with how fast it was beating. I knew it would be hard seeing him, but I didn't think it would be this hard. Seeing him just brought all my feelings rushing back up, and I wanted to cry. Our line of sight was broke, by I think Juri, jumping onto him and I could see him hitting Juri, and searching for me again. I ducked down, going through the crowd of people, trying to get out of the room. I needed some air.
I sighed, making it to backyard. I sat on a chair, planning on sitting here for a few minutes, then going back in, and sneaking back out and leaving, after sending Yuto a text about how I hated him for leaving me so quickly. I slipped my phone back in my pocket, before leaning back in the chair, closing my eyes for a minute. It was already dark outside, but there was a little bit of light coming from inside of the house, when I saw a big white furry dog sitting beside me, wagging his tail happily, and I couldn't help but smile. I don't like dogs, but for some reason, this dog was special. "Hey there Chi." I reached out to him, petting his head, as he came closer and laid his head on my lap, whining a little. "What's wrong Chi? Did you miss me?" It was like he understood me, as he whined again, and licked my hand. "I missed you to Chi."
"He would sit at the front door on Saturday's, at 7 p.m., the time you always came over, for weeks, whining. I think he was worried about where you were." I froze, knowing that voice. "I'm surprised you came." I could feel my throat tighten, and I felt like I couldn't say anything. I stopped petting Chi, and he ran off to his bed that was outside.
"I am to." I cleared my throat, trying to get it to work better. "I almost didn't."
"I know. Yuto made you come, right? He told me...I am happy that you came though, until..." Until what? He just stopped talking. I think he was about to continue, but Juri came out, swinging an arm around Morimoto's shoulders, not sensing the tenseness at all.
"Ryu! Guess who just showed up? Reina! She is looking for you~!" Reina? Who is this Reina? His girlfriend? My heart tightened at the thought.
"I don't care if she is looking for me! I have told her, and you, that I won't date her." Morimoto suddenly looked at me. Like, straight into my eyes. "What have I told you Juri? About why I won't date her."
"I know, I know. You are still in love with the same person, the person who you have loved for the past 5 years. Don't you think it's time to give up though? If that person hasn't came back to you yet, shouldn't you give it up? Don't you think that is weird Chinen? Being in love the with same person for 5 years, even though he hasn't even seen this person in like, I think he said 2 years?"
I looked back into Morimoto's eyes, seeing the feelings coming from him. He was still in love with me. "No I don't think it's weird...I have been in love with the same person for 7 years now...and haven't seen them in over 2 years to..." Then, I saw confusion in his eyes, and I wanted to ask, but Juri was still here. "Juri, can you please leave. I want to talk to Morimoto privately." He nodded, and quickly left. "Until...? You were happy that I came, until?"
"Until I heard that you were dating Yamada."
Oh, he found out me and him were dating. Probably Yuto. In the back out my mind, I thought about sending him another hate text, but it wasn't the time to. "You are right..." I could see the sadness come into his eyes. "...we were dating...he broke up with me...because he found out, that he could never win over you in the tug a war over my heart."
"Really?" I just nodded, feelings so many things right now. I was happy, scared, mad, stressed, and just wanted to cry right now. So I did. I let the tears finally fall. I felt his strong arms pull me in, wrapping tightly around me, as I clung to the back of his shirt, letting my tears wet the front his shirt, as they fell harder.
"I missed you so much, Ryu." I managed to mumbled, hoping that he heard me.
"I know. I missed you to. I still love you so much Yuri." That made me cry even harder, and I wanted to tell him how much I still loved him, but I couldn't speak properly. I could feel his hand rubbing my back, and him pressing a kiss on the top of my head. I pulled back slightly, and moved my arms around his neck, pulling him down into a kiss. It was salty from my tears that were still coming down, but neither of us cared. It was just me and him in the moment, and that was all that mattered. I would tell him how much I loved him everyday for now on.
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(´⊙ω⊙`)！I think this is one of the longest fics I have ever wrote!
Anyways, I know there are probably mistakes, and it probably sucks. Hopefully there are not to many, and it doesn't suck to bad though lol
Please comment and let me know what you think! Any comment is better than no comment ・(/Д`)・
[oh, and I have a tumblr where I am posting stuff I make in photoshop if anyone wants to follow~ http://sprinklesgraphics.tumblr.com/ ]
Pairing : Chiitaro, Yamachii, and mentions of Okajima
Rating : PG-13
A/N : Chinen's POV
I sighed for the nth time, as I tried to calm myself from not screaming at Yuto, as he continued bothering me about why I wasn't going to Morimoto's birthday party. "As I have said Yuto...it will be awkward if I go...I wouldn't feel comfortable going."
"But why...I don't understand why you think it will be awkward if you go! I know it's been a while since we saw Ryutaro, but still...unless..." I tempted to glare at him, as his eyes widened as if he figured something out. "Unless! You still have feelings for him?!"
Shit. I felt the pinch in my heart again. I really wanted to punch Yuto in the face right now, just so he would leave me alone, but I know our manager would kill me. "Yuto...if I still had feelings for him, would I really be dating Ryosuke right now?" That's right, I am dating Ryosuke right now...and I still have feelings for Morimoto...but no way was I letting anyone know that. I do love Ryosuke, but-
"Oh my-!" Yuto slapped a hand over his mouth, being over dramatic. "You do, don't you!?"
"No I don't." I tried to stay calm on the outside, not wanting him to see my true feelings, but I could feel my heart beating, tears wanting to pour out. I was so in love with Ryutaro, I don't think I will ever be completely over him, no matter how wonderful Ryosuke is to me, and I hated it.
"You do! You still have feelings for Ryutaro!"
"Would you shut up?!!?" I finally snapped after he got louder, people outside could probably hear him. "Ryosuke, or someone else, might hear you!" I stood up, pushing him, which he obviously did not expect since he fell to the floor. I heard the click of a door, and quickly looked over to see Ryosuke staring at us.
"What's going on...?" He looked back and forth at both of us. "Yuri, did you just push Yuto to the floor?"
I could feel the tears gathering in my eyes, and I looked away from both of them. "I..."
"Sorry Chii, I didn't mean to make you angry." Yuto stood up with the hand Ryosuke held out to him. "I was being mean and teasing Chii...so I deserved it. I'm sorry."
"Yuto! Don't tease my Yuri." Ryosuke pulled me into his arms, holding me close. I sighed in relief as I thought he hadn't heard what Yuto had been saying before about Morimoto.
"I'll just...leave you two alone now." Yuto gave me a glare, that I think was him trying to tell me something, but I ignored it.
"Are okay now?" Ryosuke pulled back, smiling at me, as he ruffled my hair. There was something off about his smile though...
"Yes, thank you Ryosuke." He then stepped back from me, with a serious face, one that I don't think I had ever seen from him.
"We need to talk. I heard...what you and Yuto were talking about."
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That was a week ago. Ryosuke had heard what we had been talking about, and asked why I got so upset about it. When I couldn't come up with a proper answer, he knew...he knew it was because I still loved Morimoto. I tried to tell him that he was wrong, and that I love him...but he knew it wasn't enough love to take over Morimoto's spot in my heart. We broke up. He wants me to be happy, but I honestly don't see that happening. There is no way Morimoto would still be in love with me after almost 2 1/2 years.
And now here I am, in my room with Yuto bothering me again. "Come on Chii...don't give up this chance. Ryo-chan wants you to be happy, and this is your one chance to try!"
"But, what if Morimoto doesn't have feelings for me anymore?"
"Then maybe you can really get over him then. Then maybe you can find a new happiness. I promise, if you start to feel uncomfortable, just come tell me or Keito, and we will all leave together. Ne, Keito?" I looked at Keito, who was now laying on my bed, since he got tired of listening to his boyfriend bothering me, and he nodded.
"Alright, I'll go."
It was now a few hours later, and the three of us were walking towards Morimoto's house. I was chewing on my bottom lip, extremely nervous to see Morimoto. I kept playing out scenes in my head of how our first meeting would go, and before I knew it, I stood in front of a familiar house. We went inside, and there were people everywhere. Some I knew, from Johnny's, and the other JUMP members, and some I didn't know, probably from his school. I rolled my eyes as I saw Yuto already running off, pulling Keito along, leaving me alone. I just stood there, looking at the crowd of people, trying to find someone to stick to, not wanting to talk to many of the people, when I saw him. He saw me. It was like everyone in the room froze, and I couldn't break our eye contact from across the room. His eyes were wide, probably shocked to see me there. I felt like my heart was going to burst out from my chest with how fast it was beating. I knew it would be hard seeing him, but I didn't think it would be this hard. Seeing him just brought all my feelings rushing back up, and I wanted to cry. Our line of sight was broke, by I think Juri, jumping onto him and I could see him hitting Juri, and searching for me again. I ducked down, going through the crowd of people, trying to get out of the room. I needed some air.
I sighed, making it to backyard. I sat on a chair, planning on sitting here for a few minutes, then going back in, and sneaking back out and leaving, after sending Yuto a text about how I hated him for leaving me so quickly. I slipped my phone back in my pocket, before leaning back in the chair, closing my eyes for a minute. It was already dark outside, but there was a little bit of light coming from inside of the house, when I saw a big white furry dog sitting beside me, wagging his tail happily, and I couldn't help but smile. I don't like dogs, but for some reason, this dog was special. "Hey there Chi." I reached out to him, petting his head, as he came closer and laid his head on my lap, whining a little. "What's wrong Chi? Did you miss me?" It was like he understood me, as he whined again, and licked my hand. "I missed you to Chi."
"He would sit at the front door on Saturday's, at 7 p.m., the time you always came over, for weeks, whining. I think he was worried about where you were." I froze, knowing that voice. "I'm surprised you came." I could feel my throat tighten, and I felt like I couldn't say anything. I stopped petting Chi, and he ran off to his bed that was outside.
"I am to." I cleared my throat, trying to get it to work better. "I almost didn't."
"I know. Yuto made you come, right? He told me...I am happy that you came though, until..." Until what? He just stopped talking. I think he was about to continue, but Juri came out, swinging an arm around Morimoto's shoulders, not sensing the tenseness at all.
"Ryu! Guess who just showed up? Reina! She is looking for you~!" Reina? Who is this Reina? His girlfriend? My heart tightened at the thought.
"I don't care if she is looking for me! I have told her, and you, that I won't date her." Morimoto suddenly looked at me. Like, straight into my eyes. "What have I told you Juri? About why I won't date her."
"I know, I know. You are still in love with the same person, the person who you have loved for the past 5 years. Don't you think it's time to give up though? If that person hasn't came back to you yet, shouldn't you give it up? Don't you think that is weird Chinen? Being in love the with same person for 5 years, even though he hasn't even seen this person in like, I think he said 2 years?"
I looked back into Morimoto's eyes, seeing the feelings coming from him. He was still in love with me. "No I don't think it's weird...I have been in love with the same person for 7 years now...and haven't seen them in over 2 years to..." Then, I saw confusion in his eyes, and I wanted to ask, but Juri was still here. "Juri, can you please leave. I want to talk to Morimoto privately." He nodded, and quickly left. "Until...? You were happy that I came, until?"
"Until I heard that you were dating Yamada."
Oh, he found out me and him were dating. Probably Yuto. In the back out my mind, I thought about sending him another hate text, but it wasn't the time to. "You are right..." I could see the sadness come into his eyes. "...we were dating...he broke up with me...because he found out, that he could never win over you in the tug a war over my heart."
"Really?" I just nodded, feelings so many things right now. I was happy, scared, mad, stressed, and just wanted to cry right now. So I did. I let the tears finally fall. I felt his strong arms pull me in, wrapping tightly around me, as I clung to the back of his shirt, letting my tears wet the front his shirt, as they fell harder.
"I missed you so much, Ryu." I managed to mumbled, hoping that he heard me.
"I know. I missed you to. I still love you so much Yuri." That made me cry even harder, and I wanted to tell him how much I still loved him, but I couldn't speak properly. I could feel his hand rubbing my back, and him pressing a kiss on the top of my head. I pulled back slightly, and moved my arms around his neck, pulling him down into a kiss. It was salty from my tears that were still coming down, but neither of us cared. It was just me and him in the moment, and that was all that mattered. I would tell him how much I loved him everyday for now on.
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(´⊙ω⊙`)！I think this is one of the longest fics I have ever wrote!
Anyways, I know there are probably mistakes, and it probably sucks. Hopefully there are not to many, and it doesn't suck to bad though lol
Please comment and let me know what you think! Any comment is better than no comment ・(/Д`)・
[oh, and I have a tumblr where I am posting stuff I make in photoshop if anyone wants to follow~ http://sprinklesgraphics.tumblr.com/ ]