Tonight sucked. Emotionally and physically.  At least I stuck to one of my goals. I drank a lemonade. No liquor. but, I wrote to him again, which I know I shouldn't have because he is just gonna ignore me more. I shouldn't have because i know it's gonna kill me the fact that he isn't gonna write back and then I spend the whole night sleeping ( Read more... )

I've wondered a lot what is the reason behind this alienation. I've considered various reasons one even being that you have left the country to go visit your family, however that one was immediately crossed off by asking a close mutual friend... Perhaps you're doing to me what I've done to you. the sudden disappearance with no explanation or reason ( Read more... )

I hate this feeling. I haven't felt this way in a very long time. I haven't felt this uncontrollable pain. Rejected pain. You know the one you feel when you want something really bad but it doesn't want you and you just have to sit back and watch it go away from you. That's precisely it. He just shoved me out. With no words or anything. No more ( Read more... )

Well, semester has started again, can't wait till it's over.  Honestly, I have so many thoughts occupying ever little space in the mind that I don't know anymore if it's just that I really can't stand math or if it's the A.D.H.D that completely affects me. But, I can't seem to focus at all. Tomorrow I'm buying coffee on the way so I can at least ( Read more... )

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I regert leaving dallas... I should've stuck it out. I lost something valuable.
Don't really know if i'll be going in june how I said. There's no point, If we are hardly talking any more. I don't know what he's been told by the exhusband but I don't want him to think I'm in the way or using him to stay at his place or anything of that variation. i ( Read more... )

Well, my feelings are all over the place. First. things with armando are completely out of control. He is officially harrasing everyone I know including myself. Don't even wanna go into detail. I'm loosing my mind. I just want all this to be over. But this entry is not about that ( Read more... )

Still no word from him.... 

First and foremost, you need to leave me the fuck alone. You need to realize the situaion and drop it and be a man about it. LEAVE ME ALONE!! You don't seem to understand that you deserve no respect, no understanding, no explanation, and no attention. You broke into my privacy, you go around surveying people that know me about me and you then turn ( Read more... )

Well, that's it. No more shaddy. No more nothing. He isn't speaking to me anymore and I obviously know why. I don't blame him. He's smart for steering clear from me. In fact, I think I would've saved him a lot of time by just giving him the heads up on that ( Read more... )