We Could Be In Love Chapter 13
Title: We Could Be In Love Chapter 13
Author: kutunakal
Pairing: GTOP
Warning: none
Rating: G, PG-13
Summary: I suck at summaries, just read the story? ^^
A/N: Cross posted at AFF. All grammar mistakes and typos are mine. Enjoy!!
Seunghyun was so shocked to see his room so messy. The drawers were all opened, and his closet was not closed. The person slumped in front of it seem to be oblivious about his appereance. Jiyong didn’t even realise he had open the door. The latter was too busy crying, and when Seunghyun saw the cause, his eyes widened.
“What do you think you are doing, Kwon Jiyong?”
Jiyong looked equally shocked when he turned his head towards where Seunghyun was standing.
“Se-Seunghyun?”
“What are you doing with my stuff??” Seunghyun approached the crying man and grabbed Jiyong’s arm so the other would stand up. “What do you think you are doing with it?? Who even gave you the permission to be here??”
“Seunghyun.. hurts..” Jiyong tried to pull away from Seunghyun’s hold, but it was too strong. Seunghyun didn’t seem to realize he hurt the man.
“Did you read all of that??” Seunghyun finally let go of Jiyong and he kneeled before the box. He picked all the letters, putting it back to the box in such careful way as if it was something so precious.
“I’m sorry Hyung. I..” Jiyong was still sobbing hard. “Why didn’t you tell me, Hyung? You’re TOP? You’ve been writing those letters all this time?”
“No, no. You weren’t supposed to know. This wasn’t supposed to happen,” Seunghyun put the box back inside, between the stacks of his shoes collection.
“Why didn’t you tell me, Hyung? Why didn-oh my God, that night. That night our family met, when I told you about TOP. That’s why you ran away?”
“Jiyong, we should just-“
“Is that why you ran away, Seunghyun Hyung? Is that why you refused to see me? As TOP?” Jiyong was pushing it. Seunghyun was about to say something when a female voice interrupted them.
“Jiyongie? Seunghyun? What’s wrong?”
Seunghyun froze. Was she behind him from the beginning? Did she heard something? The man shifted his gaze from the floor and saw her sister standing just outside his room, already wearing her wedding dress. She looked so pretty, Seunghyun just couldn’t break her heart. He tried to compose himself and smiled at her. “Nothing, Noona. There’s nothing wrong, I was just-“
“Then why is Jiyong crying?”
Yes. Jiyong. Crying. How could he forget that they were all in the same room? Seunghyun dropped his head in defeat and chuckled. Isn’t this ironic? The way Jiyong knew he was TOP, isn’t it just a very very good way for him to know?
“Why didn’t you tell me, Hyungie? Do you know how bad I felt when you left me? I thought you think I was a freak for loving someone I haven’t even met before. I thought I said something wrong,” Jiyong sobs was becoming harder, Hyeyoon just couldn’t grasp what was happening. She looked back and forth at her brother and Jiyong. “And the meeting. You let me.. you watched me cry in the middle of the road? Was it fun, TOPssi you selfish bastard? Was it satisfying?? Huh????”
Seunghyun didn’t lift his head. He was afraid if he saw Jiyong, he would do the same as the younger man did, breaking down. It hurts him to hear the pained tone in Jiyong’s voice. This was supposed to be a happy day for him and his sister, and he just ruined it. He shouldn’t have come home. He should’ve just-
“Seunghyun-ah? What is going on? Why is he calling you TOP? Isn’t it the name you.. Can anybody explain?”
Seunghyun knew Hyeyoon was worried. He really wished she wasn’t there to witness this, to witness the revealing of his alias as TOP. He wished she wasn’t there to see that her brother fell in love with the man she was supposed to marry in less than 3 hours.
“Noona,” Seunghyun heard her answered him with a soft ‘ne’, and the latter knew she took steps forward inside the room. “Do you remember.. the Dragon I was sending letters to? The one I fell in love with?”
“Will I like where this conversation is going, brother?” Hyeyoon asked him. He didn’t want to hurt her sister. He did a good job protecting the secret, and his sister’s heart, all this time. Why now?
“Do you still want to hear it even if you’ll hate me later?”
“Oh, Seunghyun..” and that’s when he felt a pair of arms snaked around his shoulder. He didn’t want Hyeyoon to hug him. He didn’t deserve this. “I won’t hate you, you know I won’t. What is it? Why is Jiyongie crying? What’s going on between you guys?”
Jiyong’s sobs was now reduced to hiccups, he tried to stop Seunghyun from telling Hyeyoon what happened. Not in their wedding day. “No, Hyung. Please, not now,” he tried. But he only got a glare from Seunghyun.
“But you were asking me, Ji,” He saw Jiyong shaking his head. “As much as this hurts all of us, I wanted you both to live in a marriage without no lies, no secrets,” he put a trembling hand atop of Hyeyoon’s smaller one, and took a deep breath. “Noona.”
Hyeyoon who already had her head laying on top of Seunghyun’s shoulder only answered him with a hum.
“Jiyong.. is.. Dragon.”
It was a very short info, and Hyeyoon did not understand it at first. After a while, common sense came back to her. She pulled away from Seunghyun with a disbelief eyes. “Dragon.. your.. penpal? The one you.. I.. are you in love with Jiyong, Seunghyun?”
Seunghyun saw Jiyong clenched his eyes, as well as both of his hands. He sighed at the sight. He had to say it. “I thought.. I thought it was weird, Noona. I thought I was in love with 2 persons at once. I was so in love with Dragon, I was so sure I love him, and then Jiyong came. It was very.. difficult. Everything I thought Dragon would be like, Jiyong had it. Jiyong was.. like the interpretation of this Dragon. So.. I was feeling so guilty when I also.. fell in love with Jiyong,” Seunghyun stopped for a while because Hyeyoon was gasping and pulling her hand from Seunghyun. When he was sure Hyeyoon was okay to hear him continue, he said again, “I haven’t even decided if I should just wait untill I meet Dragon and fell in love with the real person, or should I just supress my guilt and think that Jiyong was more real, and he’s the person I should fell in love with.”
Hyeyoon was now sitting beside Seunghyun, her face was in utter shock. She had her eyes wide, and even tears were forming there.
“I.. eventually I became sure I love him, I love him as much as I loved Dragon at first. It wasn’t possible, I know, but I when I recieve the letter that morning, the one you read to me, Noona, I was sure. My heart has decided where it wanted to be. It was Jiyong. And I was going to.. confess, or at least make a move, but then.. the dinner.. and when he unintentionally told me he was Dragon.. it was all to late.”
It was silent for a while, until Hyeyoon started crying.
“No, Noona~.. Please don’t cry.. I-“
“Why, Seunghyun-ah?”
Seunghyun didn’t know the meaning of why that Hyeyoon was asking. He just took his sister’s hand and held it tight. “I’m sorry, Noona. I tried hard to move on. I’m still trying. That’s why I accept Appa’s offer to be the head of the company in the States. I need to.. get awat, as far as I can from him. I really love to see you happy, but.. I’m so sorry, Noona. I’m sorry for loving the man you love.”
Hyeyoon shook his head. “How could you, Seunghyun-ah?”
“Noona.. I’m.. Mianhae,” Seunghyun can only lowered his head in an apologizing gesture.
“No,” Hyeyoon said again. “Why? Why didn’t you tell me? You loved him first, right?”
“But you said you love him instantly, Noona. I couldn’t.. You deserve to be happy. It’s time to stop sacrificing what you want for me.”
Hyeyoon didn’t answer, she just continue to cry. That was when Jiyong interrupted. “Hyung..”
Seunghyun felt the smaller man kneeled beside him, but Seunghyun refused to look at him. “I.. you can’t force love.”
“I’m not forcing, Ji,” from the corner of his eyes Seunghyun saw Jiyong flinched at the nickname. “Like you said, love can’t be forced, but it can grow. I know my sister here can take care of you well,” he rubbed his sister’s wrist with his thumb, “And you’ll going to fall in love with her eventually. Everybody does.”
“Seunghyun..”
Seunghyun ignored Hyeyoon’s call. “I really am happy to see you’re going to marry soon, Sis. Even if it’s with Jiyong,” he wiped the tears at Hyeyoon’s cheek. “But I think it was a wrong decision for me to comeback and attend this. I was so sure I could handle this feeling, but.. Can I just leave, Noona? Can I just back off so the both of you could live normally?”
“Seunghyun don’t you dare-“
“Jiyongie,” Seunghyun cutted Jiyong’s word, he finally turned to look at Jiyong. The urge to kiss Jiyong was so big, he hasn’t taste those dangerous fruit until now, but he had to control himself. He hardened his expression and let go of Hyeyoon’s hand before he stood up. He knew if he speak one more word, the wall he built will crumble down to his feet.
“Seunghyun?” Hyeyoon looked up at her brother with confusion in her face. She closed her eyes for a second when Seunghyun kissed her forehead.
“Live happily, Noona. I’m very happy for you,” and he turned to Jiyong who can only blink at him. “Take care of my sister, yeah, Ji?”
Seunghyun tried so hard not to cry when he ruffled Jiyong’s hair, and walked away from the room. He heard Jiyong calling his name, and he smiled at every person he passed throught the front door, before letting his tears fall down heavily. He almost didn’t make it to his car, but his mother’s voice calling him, and the sound of footsteps after him-he knew it must’ve been Jiyong-forced him to walk faster and he made it to his car before he pulled out from the carport. He called his assistant to book him the fastest flight back to the States. Seunghyun convinced himself that he will be okay, that he’ll get through this. But the tears faling from his eyes, and the pain in his chest, in his heart, somehow told him otherwise. Will I really be okay?
Author: kutunakal
Pairing: GTOP
Warning: none
Rating: G, PG-13
Summary: I suck at summaries, just read the story? ^^
A/N: Cross posted at AFF. All grammar mistakes and typos are mine. Enjoy!!
Seunghyun was so shocked to see his room so messy. The drawers were all opened, and his closet was not closed. The person slumped in front of it seem to be oblivious about his appereance. Jiyong didn’t even realise he had open the door. The latter was too busy crying, and when Seunghyun saw the cause, his eyes widened.
“What do you think you are doing, Kwon Jiyong?”
Jiyong looked equally shocked when he turned his head towards where Seunghyun was standing.
“Se-Seunghyun?”
“What are you doing with my stuff??” Seunghyun approached the crying man and grabbed Jiyong’s arm so the other would stand up. “What do you think you are doing with it?? Who even gave you the permission to be here??”
“Seunghyun.. hurts..” Jiyong tried to pull away from Seunghyun’s hold, but it was too strong. Seunghyun didn’t seem to realize he hurt the man.
“Did you read all of that??” Seunghyun finally let go of Jiyong and he kneeled before the box. He picked all the letters, putting it back to the box in such careful way as if it was something so precious.
“I’m sorry Hyung. I..” Jiyong was still sobbing hard. “Why didn’t you tell me, Hyung? You’re TOP? You’ve been writing those letters all this time?”
“No, no. You weren’t supposed to know. This wasn’t supposed to happen,” Seunghyun put the box back inside, between the stacks of his shoes collection.
“Why didn’t you tell me, Hyung? Why didn-oh my God, that night. That night our family met, when I told you about TOP. That’s why you ran away?”
“Jiyong, we should just-“
“Is that why you ran away, Seunghyun Hyung? Is that why you refused to see me? As TOP?” Jiyong was pushing it. Seunghyun was about to say something when a female voice interrupted them.
“Jiyongie? Seunghyun? What’s wrong?”
Seunghyun froze. Was she behind him from the beginning? Did she heard something? The man shifted his gaze from the floor and saw her sister standing just outside his room, already wearing her wedding dress. She looked so pretty, Seunghyun just couldn’t break her heart. He tried to compose himself and smiled at her. “Nothing, Noona. There’s nothing wrong, I was just-“
“Then why is Jiyong crying?”
Yes. Jiyong. Crying. How could he forget that they were all in the same room? Seunghyun dropped his head in defeat and chuckled. Isn’t this ironic? The way Jiyong knew he was TOP, isn’t it just a very very good way for him to know?
“Why didn’t you tell me, Hyungie? Do you know how bad I felt when you left me? I thought you think I was a freak for loving someone I haven’t even met before. I thought I said something wrong,” Jiyong sobs was becoming harder, Hyeyoon just couldn’t grasp what was happening. She looked back and forth at her brother and Jiyong. “And the meeting. You let me.. you watched me cry in the middle of the road? Was it fun, TOPssi you selfish bastard? Was it satisfying?? Huh????”
Seunghyun didn’t lift his head. He was afraid if he saw Jiyong, he would do the same as the younger man did, breaking down. It hurts him to hear the pained tone in Jiyong’s voice. This was supposed to be a happy day for him and his sister, and he just ruined it. He shouldn’t have come home. He should’ve just-
“Seunghyun-ah? What is going on? Why is he calling you TOP? Isn’t it the name you.. Can anybody explain?”
Seunghyun knew Hyeyoon was worried. He really wished she wasn’t there to witness this, to witness the revealing of his alias as TOP. He wished she wasn’t there to see that her brother fell in love with the man she was supposed to marry in less than 3 hours.
“Noona,” Seunghyun heard her answered him with a soft ‘ne’, and the latter knew she took steps forward inside the room. “Do you remember.. the Dragon I was sending letters to? The one I fell in love with?”
“Will I like where this conversation is going, brother?” Hyeyoon asked him. He didn’t want to hurt her sister. He did a good job protecting the secret, and his sister’s heart, all this time. Why now?
“Do you still want to hear it even if you’ll hate me later?”
“Oh, Seunghyun..” and that’s when he felt a pair of arms snaked around his shoulder. He didn’t want Hyeyoon to hug him. He didn’t deserve this. “I won’t hate you, you know I won’t. What is it? Why is Jiyongie crying? What’s going on between you guys?”
Jiyong’s sobs was now reduced to hiccups, he tried to stop Seunghyun from telling Hyeyoon what happened. Not in their wedding day. “No, Hyung. Please, not now,” he tried. But he only got a glare from Seunghyun.
“But you were asking me, Ji,” He saw Jiyong shaking his head. “As much as this hurts all of us, I wanted you both to live in a marriage without no lies, no secrets,” he put a trembling hand atop of Hyeyoon’s smaller one, and took a deep breath. “Noona.”
Hyeyoon who already had her head laying on top of Seunghyun’s shoulder only answered him with a hum.
“Jiyong.. is.. Dragon.”
It was a very short info, and Hyeyoon did not understand it at first. After a while, common sense came back to her. She pulled away from Seunghyun with a disbelief eyes. “Dragon.. your.. penpal? The one you.. I.. are you in love with Jiyong, Seunghyun?”
Seunghyun saw Jiyong clenched his eyes, as well as both of his hands. He sighed at the sight. He had to say it. “I thought.. I thought it was weird, Noona. I thought I was in love with 2 persons at once. I was so in love with Dragon, I was so sure I love him, and then Jiyong came. It was very.. difficult. Everything I thought Dragon would be like, Jiyong had it. Jiyong was.. like the interpretation of this Dragon. So.. I was feeling so guilty when I also.. fell in love with Jiyong,” Seunghyun stopped for a while because Hyeyoon was gasping and pulling her hand from Seunghyun. When he was sure Hyeyoon was okay to hear him continue, he said again, “I haven’t even decided if I should just wait untill I meet Dragon and fell in love with the real person, or should I just supress my guilt and think that Jiyong was more real, and he’s the person I should fell in love with.”
Hyeyoon was now sitting beside Seunghyun, her face was in utter shock. She had her eyes wide, and even tears were forming there.
“I.. eventually I became sure I love him, I love him as much as I loved Dragon at first. It wasn’t possible, I know, but I when I recieve the letter that morning, the one you read to me, Noona, I was sure. My heart has decided where it wanted to be. It was Jiyong. And I was going to.. confess, or at least make a move, but then.. the dinner.. and when he unintentionally told me he was Dragon.. it was all to late.”
It was silent for a while, until Hyeyoon started crying.
“No, Noona~.. Please don’t cry.. I-“
“Why, Seunghyun-ah?”
Seunghyun didn’t know the meaning of why that Hyeyoon was asking. He just took his sister’s hand and held it tight. “I’m sorry, Noona. I tried hard to move on. I’m still trying. That’s why I accept Appa’s offer to be the head of the company in the States. I need to.. get awat, as far as I can from him. I really love to see you happy, but.. I’m so sorry, Noona. I’m sorry for loving the man you love.”
Hyeyoon shook his head. “How could you, Seunghyun-ah?”
“Noona.. I’m.. Mianhae,” Seunghyun can only lowered his head in an apologizing gesture.
“No,” Hyeyoon said again. “Why? Why didn’t you tell me? You loved him first, right?”
“But you said you love him instantly, Noona. I couldn’t.. You deserve to be happy. It’s time to stop sacrificing what you want for me.”
Hyeyoon didn’t answer, she just continue to cry. That was when Jiyong interrupted. “Hyung..”
Seunghyun felt the smaller man kneeled beside him, but Seunghyun refused to look at him. “I.. you can’t force love.”
“I’m not forcing, Ji,” from the corner of his eyes Seunghyun saw Jiyong flinched at the nickname. “Like you said, love can’t be forced, but it can grow. I know my sister here can take care of you well,” he rubbed his sister’s wrist with his thumb, “And you’ll going to fall in love with her eventually. Everybody does.”
“Seunghyun..”
Seunghyun ignored Hyeyoon’s call. “I really am happy to see you’re going to marry soon, Sis. Even if it’s with Jiyong,” he wiped the tears at Hyeyoon’s cheek. “But I think it was a wrong decision for me to comeback and attend this. I was so sure I could handle this feeling, but.. Can I just leave, Noona? Can I just back off so the both of you could live normally?”
“Seunghyun don’t you dare-“
“Jiyongie,” Seunghyun cutted Jiyong’s word, he finally turned to look at Jiyong. The urge to kiss Jiyong was so big, he hasn’t taste those dangerous fruit until now, but he had to control himself. He hardened his expression and let go of Hyeyoon’s hand before he stood up. He knew if he speak one more word, the wall he built will crumble down to his feet.
“Seunghyun?” Hyeyoon looked up at her brother with confusion in her face. She closed her eyes for a second when Seunghyun kissed her forehead.
“Live happily, Noona. I’m very happy for you,” and he turned to Jiyong who can only blink at him. “Take care of my sister, yeah, Ji?”
Seunghyun tried so hard not to cry when he ruffled Jiyong’s hair, and walked away from the room. He heard Jiyong calling his name, and he smiled at every person he passed throught the front door, before letting his tears fall down heavily. He almost didn’t make it to his car, but his mother’s voice calling him, and the sound of footsteps after him-he knew it must’ve been Jiyong-forced him to walk faster and he made it to his car before he pulled out from the carport. He called his assistant to book him the fastest flight back to the States. Seunghyun convinced himself that he will be okay, that he’ll get through this. But the tears faling from his eyes, and the pain in his chest, in his heart, somehow told him otherwise. Will I really be okay?