out loud
It was really sweet Feb 17th.
The man i have had feelings for finally said we should give relationship a try. I was speechless! I spent most of my weeknights with him talking online. video chatting. I was in cloud9. Im still talking to him but he seem drifting apart. I have a gut feeling that he is talking to his ex more than to me now but i just couldnt accept it. Somehow im envious because they had chance to be together before. Im scared because im falling in love with him all over again. I cried everytime that thought enters my mind. I could not feel any guarantee that he will have feelings for me. But still here i am, feeling lonely. Checking on him waiting for his reply for my long messages. I should be getting this, since he does not reply often now than he used to....there are so many things i wanna tell you.