one month to decide

[kycya_zed]

it's hard to belive that after all this my plane leaves in one month headed for the place i call home. i wish i had a home. i probably could if i wanted to. stubborn ass i am. it's up to me to decide in less than a month if i stay here for another year, or return home to nothing for the rest of my life. at least if i choose home i get a dog.

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[icygoodbye]

Tomorrow I am going to see a guidance counsellor to help me sort out the options I have to choose from for post secondary paths. My best friend made me swear that no matter how lucrative some of the choices he gave me I have to pick the one that I see myself being happy with. I think I am going to end up choosing whichever path I feel would be leading me forward. If coming back to Canada is going to force you to regress I say stick it out where you are. You seem like you are having fun and you are getting an opportunity that may not come as easily next time. Just my two cents of course - I've had to talk a lot about decision making lately. It's really tough. I think in some ways I feel kind of jipped - I'm only 17 and have to choose between all these things that could affect the rest of my life. Sounds like you too. So unfair. But I think I'd rather be the one choosing than have someone else do it for me.

[kycya_zed]

yeah, i kinda feel like i got robbed of my childhood. i practically had a child by myself since i was like 8. sometimes i actually do wish i had someone to make the decisions for me. a parent perhaps. my parents were never like that. it's so darn difficult. are you going away somewhere?

[icygoodbye]

not that i know of. i'm in that crisis phase of omg i'm graduating and i dont want to grow up...

[kycya_zed]

yeah, lucky me, i don't have to go through that phase. haha. i decided today that i'm coming home at the end of the month. in all clear view staying here for a year looks liek the opportunity of a lifetime, but somewhere deep in my gut i feel something is going to go terribly wrong. my intuition has never failed me. you know, we have enver really met... we must have tea sometime!