Oh, Kylie. I just heard yesterday. I am so, so, so sorry that you, that anyone has to go though this.
I don't have anything profound to say, nor do I really think you're likely in the mood to hear anything profound, so that's probably a good thing.
I don't want to go on without him. I hate, the idea of changing, I don't want to live 20 or 40 years without him. I don't want to finally meet him again to not have him recognize me. I don't want to be different. If I can't grow with him, I don't want to grow.
This made me cry. That's exactly how I felt when Dave (my late husband) died. I still sometimes feel like this.
I just... I want you to know that I understand. I have no advice, no platitudes to offer. I know that black fog you're in now. I know that place.
I was looking around LiveJournal to see if anyone from Eoforwic had a journal, and I found yours.
I remember meeting your Jason at Pennsic last year, and I liked the warmth of his smile. I didn't get to know him much. But he knew about all sorts of interesting things, and he was both friendly and cute. If he had survived, I'm sure that he would have been very welcome to camp with us in Eoforwic.
I don't know what else to say ...
Eithne
p.s. I still have your small tablet-weaving loom to return to you (the one you couldn't take home from Thorolfr's class because you were taking ttc home that night). It's sitting safe in my sewing room.
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I don't have anything profound to say, nor do I really think you're likely in the mood to hear anything profound, so that's probably a good thing.
I don't want to go on without him. I hate, the idea of changing, I don't want to live 20 or 40 years without him. I don't want to finally meet him again to not have him recognize me. I don't want to be different. If I can't grow with him, I don't want to grow.
This made me cry. That's exactly how I felt when Dave (my late husband) died. I still sometimes feel like this.
I just... I want you to know that I understand. I have no advice, no platitudes to offer. I know that black fog you're in now. I know that place.
I know.
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If you want to vent/talk/whatever to someone who understands.
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I was looking around LiveJournal to see if anyone from Eoforwic had a journal, and I found yours.
I remember meeting your Jason at Pennsic last year, and I liked the warmth of his smile. I didn't get to know him much. But he knew about all sorts of interesting things, and he was both friendly and cute. If he had survived, I'm sure that he would have been very welcome to camp with us in Eoforwic.
I don't know what else to say ...
Eithne
p.s. I still have your small tablet-weaving loom to return to you (the one you couldn't take home from Thorolfr's class because you were taking ttc home that night). It's sitting safe in my sewing room.
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