Maybe you needed that love someone, that friend someone who was a little more than a simple friend but you obviously don't need this whole thing now. I'm glad you could say no. I'm glad you could walk away eventually. This whole relationship made so much damage and you still have to heal your wounds. But you could do it, baby, and here you are. Quitted your awful job, studying at university, you did a lot of amazing things already and life is still before you. You are amazing, and people who can't see this, don't deserve you. She didn't deserve you.
I'm sorry this thing is haunting you again... But she was the part of your past so long, you can't just delete or make it vanish suddenly. It's natural it comes back to you. But I hope it'll go away soon. /hugs/
it doesn't stop haunting me. but i needed some sort of final way to say goodbye, because i never did. i just left. i didn't say anything, and i think that lack of something solid has me thinking about it all too much. but y'know, last night i didn't dream about it, for the first time in a while. i dreamt about the friends i have now... and it makes me feel so much better. i know i can't make it all go away, but i feel better knowing that now i've put all my thoughts down and they're not bottled up anymore. i feel kind of... calm.
i know it'll come back to me, but i want those thoughts to be the nice ones.
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I'm sorry this thing is haunting you again... But she was the part of your past so long, you can't just delete or make it vanish suddenly. It's natural it comes back to you. But I hope it'll go away soon. /hugs/
I love you. And I'm proud of you.
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it doesn't stop haunting me. but i needed some sort of final way to say goodbye, because i never did. i just left. i didn't say anything, and i think that lack of something solid has me thinking about it all too much. but y'know, last night i didn't dream about it, for the first time in a while. i dreamt about the friends i have now... and it makes me feel so much better. i know i can't make it all go away, but i feel better knowing that now i've put all my thoughts down and they're not bottled up anymore. i feel kind of... calm.
i know it'll come back to me, but i want those thoughts to be the nice ones.
i love you too.
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