random crap
Hi!!!!
i've made myself an ao3 account, so that's fun. it's here if you wanna check it out, but it's exactly the same stuff i have on my fic comm, so.
i'll make another post later about my trip, because i still haven't sorted through my photos. yay photos.
before i launch into the heavy stuff i'm just gonna say that i love my mother. she's my best friend and i honestly couldn't get through life without her. she's all kinds of amazing and it's a shame that some people can't see that.
i'm not going to talk about koki that much. not that i don't want to, but i remember the time when i spoke about jin and meisa and got this one girl commenting on it and yeah, i don't want a repeat of that. i will, however, say that i am disappointed with a few of my fandom friends. i sat here, knowing that they'd be waking up to the news (it hit around 11pm my time), shaking with worry for them because i knew how much they loved him. i made myself sick with worry because i knew how much he meant to them. i stayed up till three am for them to make sure there was someone to talk to. and then they just snapped at me and insulted the people i care about, and haven't spoken to me since. sometimes i don't know why i bother. (i always say that and yet i still /do/ bother) what a bother
i still love my boys. i loved them as 6, i loved them as 5, and i'll love them as 4.
moving along! (there's more i wanna say to that too but i won't because this post wasn't meant to be about that)
uni is finished in two weeks, and then i'm on christmas holidays *__* i don't have any exams this semester, which is lovely. i do have an essay due in november but that's all good. i also have a kanji test looming and a japanese essay test (on the same day, eep), as well as a ~creative performance~ for japanese. i was quite tempted just to drag tatsuya along (my guitar) and sing scarecrow, but then the tutor said we should write our own stuff, so. that ruined my fun. it would've been fun to see everyone's pained faces as i sung "BOKU GA KOKO NIIIIIIIII" in my horrible singing voice :D
somehow i got amazing marks for the essay i had to submit before i left on my trip (bilbo baggins). i have honestly no idea how that happened. i think that tutor feels sorry for me. my japanese test results have been pretty good too, but the last two tests i've done have been :/ i fucked up my last kanji one so badly... i really, really failed that one. the newest kanji just won't stick in my head. but i am, apparently, the only one in the entire jps102 lecture who knows what 安 is. accidentally yelped it out in the lecture cause i thought the others would too. >//> i'm good at remembering the kanji in je boys' names. thanks yasu.
kanjani8's jukebox album is good, but not amazing. fight and 8uppers still have my heart. i love sorry sorry love (sounds like a mix between kpop and perfume, with a spot of 8-bit gaming music thrown in) and takoyaki in my heart because ryo makes me laugh so hard omfg. those dramatic gasps for breath. i also like kari (kari) because come on, eito making animal noises. your wurlitzer is good but too short, and all is well is <3 arashi's new album is okay. i like the first song. and aiba and nino's solos. idk, i just can't get into arashi music for some reason. i've been trying since 2010. and uuh yamapi's a nude album??? what the heck??? i was all "ok i don't really like yamapi's voice that much so i won't buy it, i'll dl it" and then WHAT THE HECK HAPPENED. WHERE DID THIS AMAZING VOICE COME FROM. so i'm obsessed with this album (pari-para scares me when it starts though) *_* nbfwkjbrlhaetheah to all of it. the songs are better for his voice than usual <3 and jin... i love love love LOVE hey what's up, but ainaruhoue sounds really odd to me. there's something in his voice that sounds weird. i have, however, played it a ridiculous amount of times because it's catchy. i also really love summer lovin', even though whenever i see the title i think i'm about to listen to a grease song.
i've been watching ryo's drama - i call it yorozu oosajfnkvlnblasgfl lbakh;ghafbavbaf - and it's awesome *_* i missed ryo's acting! >< and it's actually a good drama, which surprised me. the plot didn't sound too good before, and i was worried that the humour would be papadoru-esque, but it's not. also ryo's face is the best. he pulls the best faces.
i'm also watching jun's natsu no koi wa nijiro ni kagayaku - i call this one 'natsu' or 'the one with jun' - and i like it but it's all that great. my mum loves it though so i'm putting up with it XD started watching kimutaku's new drama too - the android one - and i really really liked it but mum didn't so i think we'll drop it XD well, i'll watch it by myself but that never goes well; i started watching sharehouse no koibito by myself like months and months ago and i still haven't finished.
i've started watching tokyo bandwagon and omg i love it?? it's so cute and fluffy and squishy. i think i like it because of it's slower pace too, but i can see why people might not like it. i missed kame in a drama, i didn't realise that till today. like okay, i saw bem, and he was good, but he barely spoke or had many facial expressions other than "omg natsume-san" and "ARGH MONSTER TIME". i kind of forgot how adorable kame could be /flicks own hand/
speaking of kame omg i want to go to kat-tun's new years concerts so badly but i have no money :< wait for me, boys <3 mum tried looking for cheap flights and stuff but with accommodation and stuff i really don't have enough xD; i'm very jealous of the people going.
i'm seeing tswift on the 4th of december \o/ and the lion king stage show on the 28th :D this is Very Exciting. i'm also seeing ore ore and ryo's hospitality department movie (can't remember the japanese name) because of the japanese film festival \o/ apparently they were talking about getting kame out to talk about ore ore but his schedule didn't match ;~; melbourne gets miki satoshi. i'd wanted to see jun's movie with ueno juri because girlcrush (i have three ok. mizukawa asami, taira airi and ueno juri. oh and tswift. so four), but that's dad's birthday and dad likes to be the centre of attention on his birthday so. i don't mind all that much, it's fine.
i have found myself getting more and more depressed as the days go on. not 'depressed', but i can't think of the right word right now. just down, i guess. that's not the right word either. i feel unimportant, like i'm someone for people to talk to and that's it, like they don't want to listen to my problems. i have this friend from uni who keeps texting me all his problems and sure i'll listen, but i know that's all he wants from me. i'm a good listener. but... yeah. i'll keep on listening to his problems and trying to help him fix them, though. i mean, it's not like i don't want to. it's just-- it'd be nice to be heard, too. i feel a little... not used, but like i'm not good for anything other than that? making sure people are alright and offering advice that sometimes isn't actually welcomed.
i cried over kanjani8's crouton pv tonight. /crouton pv/. something isn't right. they were there with their little hats and their little cups and their little knees and i'm there with tears running down my face with the expression of @__@ because i couldn't understand why. i mean. /knees/. i love their little knees. then namida no kotae popped up and i was all CLOSE THE FUCKING WINDOW.
oh OH I FORGOT TO TELL YOU. so my bird hikaru flew away right before i went overseas. when i came back, mum had bought me a new bird <3 more of a friend to yamapi than anything, really. yamapi gets funny if one of the birds flies away/dies, so we have to replace them or his songs get sad. (i remember the time jin died, he was really quiet until he started singing this really haunting song... then we got toma and he was all "HAY NEW FRIEND HAY") so now i have a sho. sho is very adorable; he's darker than yamapi, a very very dark grey with an almost black beak. he's hand-reared, so he's very friendly - and VERY polite; you put your hand near him and he kind of looks at you like 'may i step up?' and then puts one foot on you and looks at you again - 'is this okay?' - and /then/ steps completely on xD he's a little gentleman. but he's sort of attached himself to mum, which is a little sad xD i guess it's okay, cause otherwise kame gets jealous. so does toma, actually. jun couldn't care less, tbh. jun hates everything. she pushed toma off his perch the other day cause he was ~making moves~. go jun.
oh also whilst i was in hungary, merida was run over by a car. which left me all floppy and sad for the rest of the day till mum could tell me what happened. she was alive though, and someone had taken her to the vets; she'd broken her jaw and was bleeding everywhere. they said she might have brain damage so she needed to stay there for a few days. they sent her home after that but they told us she had to go back the next day to be checked on; she went back and they gave her more painkillers and sent her home again. she had to get another checkup a week later, and they were all "...your cat is magic", because her jaw fixed itself and she was absolutely fine. they were going to do surgery otherwise. also there was nothing wrong with her brain like they thought, and they'd also thought something was wrong with her chest but after that week there wasn't any problems. like i said, she's as stubborn as her namesake, and was all "ah fuck this shit, imma fix myself" and so she did. so yes, she's fine, but she's no longer allowed outside much. at first she hated it, but now she knows that outside is toilet time and then she comes back right away. ponyo, however, has decided that outside is FANTASTIC; the great thing about ponyo though is that she'll go outside and be all :D and just sit there at the edge of the verandah being all :D-faced at the outside world. and that's it.
i hope you guys have a good night/day, and i'm sorry for once again burdening you all with my crap xD
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i've made myself an ao3 account, so that's fun. it's here if you wanna check it out, but it's exactly the same stuff i have on my fic comm, so.
i'll make another post later about my trip, because i still haven't sorted through my photos. yay photos.
before i launch into the heavy stuff i'm just gonna say that i love my mother. she's my best friend and i honestly couldn't get through life without her. she's all kinds of amazing and it's a shame that some people can't see that.
i'm not going to talk about koki that much. not that i don't want to, but i remember the time when i spoke about jin and meisa and got this one girl commenting on it and yeah, i don't want a repeat of that. i will, however, say that i am disappointed with a few of my fandom friends. i sat here, knowing that they'd be waking up to the news (it hit around 11pm my time), shaking with worry for them because i knew how much they loved him. i made myself sick with worry because i knew how much he meant to them. i stayed up till three am for them to make sure there was someone to talk to. and then they just snapped at me and insulted the people i care about, and haven't spoken to me since. sometimes i don't know why i bother. (i always say that and yet i still /do/ bother) what a bother
i still love my boys. i loved them as 6, i loved them as 5, and i'll love them as 4.
moving along! (there's more i wanna say to that too but i won't because this post wasn't meant to be about that)
uni is finished in two weeks, and then i'm on christmas holidays *__* i don't have any exams this semester, which is lovely. i do have an essay due in november but that's all good. i also have a kanji test looming and a japanese essay test (on the same day, eep), as well as a ~creative performance~ for japanese. i was quite tempted just to drag tatsuya along (my guitar) and sing scarecrow, but then the tutor said we should write our own stuff, so. that ruined my fun. it would've been fun to see everyone's pained faces as i sung "BOKU GA KOKO NIIIIIIIII" in my horrible singing voice :D
somehow i got amazing marks for the essay i had to submit before i left on my trip (bilbo baggins). i have honestly no idea how that happened. i think that tutor feels sorry for me. my japanese test results have been pretty good too, but the last two tests i've done have been :/ i fucked up my last kanji one so badly... i really, really failed that one. the newest kanji just won't stick in my head. but i am, apparently, the only one in the entire jps102 lecture who knows what 安 is. accidentally yelped it out in the lecture cause i thought the others would too. >//> i'm good at remembering the kanji in je boys' names. thanks yasu.
kanjani8's jukebox album is good, but not amazing. fight and 8uppers still have my heart. i love sorry sorry love (sounds like a mix between kpop and perfume, with a spot of 8-bit gaming music thrown in) and takoyaki in my heart because ryo makes me laugh so hard omfg. those dramatic gasps for breath. i also like kari (kari) because come on, eito making animal noises. your wurlitzer is good but too short, and all is well is <3 arashi's new album is okay. i like the first song. and aiba and nino's solos. idk, i just can't get into arashi music for some reason. i've been trying since 2010. and uuh yamapi's a nude album??? what the heck??? i was all "ok i don't really like yamapi's voice that much so i won't buy it, i'll dl it" and then WHAT THE HECK HAPPENED. WHERE DID THIS AMAZING VOICE COME FROM. so i'm obsessed with this album (pari-para scares me when it starts though) *_* nbfwkjbrlhaetheah to all of it. the songs are better for his voice than usual <3 and jin... i love love love LOVE hey what's up, but ainaruhoue sounds really odd to me. there's something in his voice that sounds weird. i have, however, played it a ridiculous amount of times because it's catchy. i also really love summer lovin', even though whenever i see the title i think i'm about to listen to a grease song.
i've been watching ryo's drama - i call it yorozu oosajfnkvlnblasgfl lbakh;ghafbavbaf - and it's awesome *_* i missed ryo's acting! >< and it's actually a good drama, which surprised me. the plot didn't sound too good before, and i was worried that the humour would be papadoru-esque, but it's not. also ryo's face is the best. he pulls the best faces.
i'm also watching jun's natsu no koi wa nijiro ni kagayaku - i call this one 'natsu' or 'the one with jun' - and i like it but it's all that great. my mum loves it though so i'm putting up with it XD started watching kimutaku's new drama too - the android one - and i really really liked it but mum didn't so i think we'll drop it XD well, i'll watch it by myself but that never goes well; i started watching sharehouse no koibito by myself like months and months ago and i still haven't finished.
i've started watching tokyo bandwagon and omg i love it?? it's so cute and fluffy and squishy. i think i like it because of it's slower pace too, but i can see why people might not like it. i missed kame in a drama, i didn't realise that till today. like okay, i saw bem, and he was good, but he barely spoke or had many facial expressions other than "omg natsume-san" and "ARGH MONSTER TIME". i kind of forgot how adorable kame could be /flicks own hand/
speaking of kame omg i want to go to kat-tun's new years concerts so badly but i have no money :< wait for me, boys <3 mum tried looking for cheap flights and stuff but with accommodation and stuff i really don't have enough xD; i'm very jealous of the people going.
i'm seeing tswift on the 4th of december \o/ and the lion king stage show on the 28th :D this is Very Exciting. i'm also seeing ore ore and ryo's hospitality department movie (can't remember the japanese name) because of the japanese film festival \o/ apparently they were talking about getting kame out to talk about ore ore but his schedule didn't match ;~; melbourne gets miki satoshi. i'd wanted to see jun's movie with ueno juri because girlcrush (i have three ok. mizukawa asami, taira airi and ueno juri. oh and tswift. so four), but that's dad's birthday and dad likes to be the centre of attention on his birthday so. i don't mind all that much, it's fine.
i have found myself getting more and more depressed as the days go on. not 'depressed', but i can't think of the right word right now. just down, i guess. that's not the right word either. i feel unimportant, like i'm someone for people to talk to and that's it, like they don't want to listen to my problems. i have this friend from uni who keeps texting me all his problems and sure i'll listen, but i know that's all he wants from me. i'm a good listener. but... yeah. i'll keep on listening to his problems and trying to help him fix them, though. i mean, it's not like i don't want to. it's just-- it'd be nice to be heard, too. i feel a little... not used, but like i'm not good for anything other than that? making sure people are alright and offering advice that sometimes isn't actually welcomed.
i cried over kanjani8's crouton pv tonight. /crouton pv/. something isn't right. they were there with their little hats and their little cups and their little knees and i'm there with tears running down my face with the expression of @__@ because i couldn't understand why. i mean. /knees/. i love their little knees. then namida no kotae popped up and i was all CLOSE THE FUCKING WINDOW.
oh OH I FORGOT TO TELL YOU. so my bird hikaru flew away right before i went overseas. when i came back, mum had bought me a new bird <3 more of a friend to yamapi than anything, really. yamapi gets funny if one of the birds flies away/dies, so we have to replace them or his songs get sad. (i remember the time jin died, he was really quiet until he started singing this really haunting song... then we got toma and he was all "HAY NEW FRIEND HAY") so now i have a sho. sho is very adorable; he's darker than yamapi, a very very dark grey with an almost black beak. he's hand-reared, so he's very friendly - and VERY polite; you put your hand near him and he kind of looks at you like 'may i step up?' and then puts one foot on you and looks at you again - 'is this okay?' - and /then/ steps completely on xD he's a little gentleman. but he's sort of attached himself to mum, which is a little sad xD i guess it's okay, cause otherwise kame gets jealous. so does toma, actually. jun couldn't care less, tbh. jun hates everything. she pushed toma off his perch the other day cause he was ~making moves~. go jun.
oh also whilst i was in hungary, merida was run over by a car. which left me all floppy and sad for the rest of the day till mum could tell me what happened. she was alive though, and someone had taken her to the vets; she'd broken her jaw and was bleeding everywhere. they said she might have brain damage so she needed to stay there for a few days. they sent her home after that but they told us she had to go back the next day to be checked on; she went back and they gave her more painkillers and sent her home again. she had to get another checkup a week later, and they were all "...your cat is magic", because her jaw fixed itself and she was absolutely fine. they were going to do surgery otherwise. also there was nothing wrong with her brain like they thought, and they'd also thought something was wrong with her chest but after that week there wasn't any problems. like i said, she's as stubborn as her namesake, and was all "ah fuck this shit, imma fix myself" and so she did. so yes, she's fine, but she's no longer allowed outside much. at first she hated it, but now she knows that outside is toilet time and then she comes back right away. ponyo, however, has decided that outside is FANTASTIC; the great thing about ponyo though is that she'll go outside and be all :D and just sit there at the edge of the verandah being all :D-faced at the outside world. and that's it.
i hope you guys have a good night/day, and i'm sorry for once again burdening you all with my crap xD
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